no mood to study

shucks
no mood to study
this is not good at all
aiks aiks aiks

specially to ying jing - jack tan

terribly sorry that i forgot your birthday
and i feel sorry about the "incident" that you had on that very important day

you are not an unimportant person
you are important okay?
at least you are important to me

when i m sad
you listen to me
when i m crazy
you still can tahan me :P
when i crap
you listen to my crap
when i share my craziness with you
you still can stand me
when i zat you
you are not angry
when i online just want to get those songs from you (without even say hi or ask how are you)
you also bear with me and give me those songs
when i want any album and ask you to search for me
you never say no
you ll try your best to find for me (though you are bz )
when i cry
you are there for me
giving me advise
see you are so important :)
i do treasure you
you are my friend :D
i am happy to know you


so
stop saying that you are not important
just 1 incident
just 1 hit
doesnt mean that you are not important
you are important to your family members as well
your parents definitely put you as their priority :)

cheer up okay!! :)

stress ah

need to study
yet i have no mood

i feel scared lah wei
4 tests in 2 weeks
1 big test in 1 month
walau eh
how to prepare
i m not ready lah wei

anyway
back from budapest and vienna
overall it was good!! :)
but then 1 advise
NEVER EVER travel during winter
CAUSE
you ll freeze to death:P

and
my on diet plan
i seriously need it
gain THREE kg in 6 days!
walau eh !!!

so
1 more week left
b4 my christmas break ended
what should i do then??
study and on diet!
both of them are equally important :P

家

看了沁沁的部落格
天啊！！
她的美食介绍
让我垂涎三尺

也让我
想家。

想回家
躺在沙发上

想回家
看老爸老妈
看他们越老越可爱的举动

想回家
同他们一起在新加坡庆祝圣诞

想回家
动一动我家的钢琴

想回家
躺在舒服的睡床上

想回家
大吃一顿（虽然这几个星期，我的食量惊人：P 但是，没有槟城的味道）

想回家
体验粘粘湿湿的气候

想回家
在家闲晃

想回家
因为家有他们

想回家
因为他们能帮我顶一切

想回家
因为那是我的家

想回家
因为我要穿短裤：P

想回家
因为沁回来了

唉，虽然这个假期我会去维耶纳(vienna)和匈牙利（hungary)的首都（budapest)
但是
如果能
我想回马来西亚

想念
一回到家的那种熟悉感
一开门扑鼻而来的那种家的味道

槟城是我的家
因为
两老都在那儿
我很很很很很抱歉
爸、妈
我好久好久没有静静的聆听你们的一切故事
原谅我

我
想家。
我觉得我离家好远
远到
我快忘了家的感觉
忘了爸妈那熟悉的气息
忘了我应该想家
忘了为何我应该想家

我想家
想家的一切
因为我已经逐渐遗忘家的味道了

六年
六年
六年
六年
下次
如果回到家
我一定、一定努力的记住家的一切
我不要六年里
没有家的回忆

六年
虽然很快就过了
但是
这期间
我将会错过家的一切、一切

我不要忘了家的模样
原来
我会忘了家的模样
原来它是需要就地复习的
如果我知道
一路来
我一定、一定努力把家的点点滴滴塞经我的脑袋里

开始怀疑
难道是我的问题
忘了家的味道？

我。想。家 （但是我对家的记忆好模糊哦）T_T
T_T

holiday mood!!:D

how ah how ah
in a holiday mood now
no mood to study (though i must not be so !!!)
cos after christmas hols
i ll be sitting for so many tests
and during the hols
i barely have time to study !!

but then leh
here come again
no mood lah
no mood lah
no mood lah
some more i m soooooo FULL now!!!!!

cannot
at least
pls study for physiology practical tomorrow
you dont want to be OUT of the situation
and dont know whats going on in the seminar right?
so pls study!!

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again
repeat my slogan
i ll on diet tomorrow:P

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want to make ondeh ondeh
want to make strawberry dumpling
want to make apple strudel
want to make chocolate cake
want to make cookies
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need to buy locks
need to buy a back pack
need to buy gloves and scarf
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currently i m broke
i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

okie
time to bake cookies!!:P

difference

i would not want to say more
but i just want to say
i thank God that He has let me experienced 2 different kind of situation in 2 days!:)

and from those experiences i have come to these conclusion
in God there ll be peace, joy and happiness:)
in God we know whom we belong to
in God we will never get lost as even if we get lost,
Lord who is the shepherd will leave the rest behind to find the lost sheep:)

Yes Lord,
i ll continue to pray for those
and Lord
pls strengthen me help me so that i ll not be squeezed into the shape of this world by equipping myself with Your words!:)

bibile study and social activity :)

opps
is already saturday :)
anyway
friday night
i went to pastor's house
is a PERFECT house that i have always dreamt of
should have taken a photo of that
too bad
nvm
next week i supposed? hopefully next week we still have bible study at pastor's house
then i ll take a photo of his house

anyway
the house is awesome!!!
with yard at the back of the house
such a big compound
there is this cute christmas tree at the yard
it is just sitting there
with snow all covered on top of it
is sooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!
a nice living room and kitchen as well
this ll be a place which i ll never step out of
once i m living in:)
is such a cozy place

besides that
we had a great time when we were reading the bible
we were reading the story of Jesus
and discussing some interesting quests:)

after that while we were waiting for the food to be prepared
petr
a czech guy
came and asked about chinese language
and i taught him
xie xie, bu yong ke qi, ni hao ma, zai jian, ye shu, ye shu shi zhu, qing xiang yong
is so erm how to say fun? when he was trying to learn it
overall the atmosphere was good
i felt warm and happy

and the dinner began
we had:
turkey, pork, stuffed meat, spaggetti sauce with rice, chelba with butter, salad
seriously i have to tell you this
i have never tasted such nice turkey meat in centuries!!!!
the texture of the meat is sooooooo GOOD!!!!!!
the food was AWESOME and NICE
and here comes the nicest part
we had the dessert
we had this chocolate pudding and plum pudding?(cant really recall the name) served with custard and ice cream:)
gosh sooooooooooooooooooooooooo NICE
especially the chocolate pudding
i had 3 rounds of that
and pastor Gareth was amazed i think by the amt of dessert that i had :P

oh ya oh ya
i did one silly stuff
i offered my help to wash the dishes
when they were actually using dish washer
silly me :P

oh ya oh ya
we had a group photo!!!:)
a nice one!!!
i sat on the laps of Alice
poor Alice
i didnt mean to do that
but since she insisted that i should sit on her laps (:P)
so i just sat
though i feel guilty about it HEHE

it was a great night!!

oh ya oh ya
we had a SNOW war on our way to the bus stop
i m telling you
there is SO MUCH of snow at the outskirt
you can actually even build one snowman
which you can never do that in the town of prague
as all the snow has melted :)
it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny and nice
we were hitting each others
i think petr started first
and alice was the first victim
poor alice
i think everyone attacked her:P

and just now
went to junior's apartment to watch bride of chucky
is really a lame movie
and is not really scary
:P
though i did cover my face with my pillow for awhile :P
anyway it was great to watch movie together with friends
which i have not done that for ages!!!!
thanks to douglas, yee yong, sanggeeta, shing yee, terri (too bad francesca has horror movie phobia)
i had a great time!!!:)

overall
friday
it was a PERFECT day
it was full of happiness, joy, warmth and blessings!!!:)
i really enjoyed myself to the max!!!
i would say
spending time with family in chirst and friends
is really GOOD!!!!:)

i m really looking forward to have such activity for the next time!!!:)

lalalalalala

taken the officially last test for this year:)

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going to bake cookies
anticipating :)

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going to christmas market lalalalala
going to buy a REAL big lollipop!! maybe more than 1 :P
lolz cant wait to see whats the reaction of that person :P

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going to pastor's house!!:)
a good dinner together with bible study!!
perfect!!:D

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still thinking whether she should go for tomorrow christmas party or not
hurmp....
thinking thinking
well i ll see hows the baking- cookies - thingy going on first

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lalalalalala
i dunno why
cos my weekend is packed with meaningful activities (at least they are meaningful to me :P)
so i m in a good mood!!:D

i like to move it move it
she likes to move it move it
we like to move it move it
LETS MOVE IT!!!!:D

craziness!! fox rain composed by hun - yoochun :P

i m currently in love with this song!!!
there is some jazz component? in this song
a little blue kind of feeling

anyway
do you want to know the extent of my craziness for this song??
i ll straight away marry to one( of course a guy:P) who can now play this song in front of me perfectly (better still if he can sing it :P)

after biochem
i ll definitely learn how to sing this whole song
is so frustrated that i dont really know how to sing the song
especially during bath time
when it is my time to relax
and i really want to sing this song
but i couldnt cos i din know the lyrics
so
for sure
after biochem
i ll definitely learn the lyrics !:)


Fox Rain

[Micky] Jogeum pureuji ahnuen nohmoo heuri jidoh ahnuen geu moksori
neri neun geu ah poomeh pi hal oosan jocha joonbi mot hah go

[Xiah] Babo gahtah go ahjik eun cho eum eera babo gahtah go heh yo

[Hero] Duh ee sang heul reul obneun nooneh goh een noon mool duel mahn

[Max] Neh sarangeu misoh reul ahl geh heh joon shi gan sokeh suh
oh jjum geu ruh geh mahl rah geh geht ji uh jeh geu bit mool chu rum

[U-Know] Guh min han guh yuhsoh mahl han mah di dunjin geu soon gahn mah da
duh eesang heu reul soo obneun neh noon mool goh een noon mool deul mahn
gam choo go

[Xiah] Neh sarangeu misoh reul ahl geh heh joon shi gan sokeh suh
oh jjum geu ruh geh mahl rah geh geht ji uh jeh geu bit mool chu rum

[Hero] Ee roh geh jiooji mot heh gah seum mahn duh ook juh ryuh oh ji mahn
oh jjum geu roh geh gi dah ri get ji ah jik nan heu ri ni kka

[Micky] Ah jik nan heu ri ni kka

[Xiah] Mahl geun hah neul eh han bang ool nan oolgi

piano :)

i am never a fan of micky (member of tvxq) though i like tvxq
among them i like uknow and xiah the most

but not untill yesterday
when i saw him playing piano!!
fuah!!
he just melts my heart
owhhhhhhhh!!!

i can never resist to any guys who know how to play piano:P
my heart ll just melt and adore him :)
like how xiang yan's heart melted few days ago (opps i mentioned this again:P)
why so serious is a joke :P MUAHAHA

anyway
i have always wished that my future bf or husband
he ll know how to play piano
then everyday
i ll just sit in front of him
seeing him playing piano
and can u imagine when he plays
all those eye contacts that you have with him
the way how he looks at you *heart melting*
(GOSH!!is so romantic!!)
i wont feel tired even if he plays the whole day (though i know probably he will feel tired :P)

you know whats the best??
during our wedding
he ll play the piano and i ll sing (aha pls bear with my voice:P)
owhhhh is sooooooo romantic

even like just now
just looking at the video clip in which micky is playing the piano
i was smiling and felt very contented
owhhhhhh

mum's birthday celebration

so sad that i couldnt be with them
they had a great outing today
anyway
celebrating mum's birthday tru skype is a new experience to me :)

one of the classic photo that i like
dad kissed mum!! MUAHAHA
i have not seen that for ages!!

anyway once again
happy birthday mum!!!!!!!
love you always!!:)
MUAKS MUAKS MUAKS!!

is christmas time!!

feel so happy when i m listening to this song
yeah!!
christmas is coming!!!!:)
LET IT SNOW!!!!!!:)
wanting a white chritsmas :P

hrmph

hrmph
i should learn to be more gentle
and not to be so AGITATED and ANIMATED
AND
learn to have mona lisa's smile instead of having horrible laughter

yes
i have been saying this for several times
i ll try my best to do it

hrmph

God is good!!All the time!!

for the past few days
i have been complaining about the delay arrival of my parcels

and i even posted a shout out this morning saying that i m going to bomb ceska posta or post malaysia if my parcel still not arrived in prague yet (it is just a joke :P)

just now
finally i got my letter from the post office
so off i go
i walked as fast as i could to the post office

and
as the lady was searching my parcels
suddenly she says:" dva baliky"

i was like :" er..er..er dva?*nod my head and having a blur look*

and
ya the other parcel which is by ship has just arrived in prague today and they haven even managed to send me the notice yet
the one which they have mentioned in the letter has just arrived yesterday

i was like
er er er hmmm so how m i going to CARRY these 2 parcels back as they weight all together 19kg (roughly)
*you must be thinking hey you can just call your friend BUT unfortunately as i was too excited when i saw the letter i asked xiang yan to carry my bag back to our aparment and my hp is in the bag*
imagine how shock i was when i realised i couldnt make a call to any one of them
TOOT

b4 i took my parcels
the lady
i think she was worried as in how m i going to carry those 2 parcels
she gave me string to tie up my parcel so that it ll be easier for me to carry


and
you know what
ya i carried those two parcels from botanica zahrada to karlovo namesti
ON MY OWN!!!

dont ask me how i manage to do that
i dont know

and the stupiest thing is
i did not take tram
as
i refused to walk down the road as the tram stop is quite far away from the post office
(ya i know walking back to karlovo namesti is even worse but then i dont really know what i was thinking during that time)

and as i reached the karlovo namesti tram stop
struggling and patting like hell!!
giving my best innocent and helpless look to ppl who passed by me
i did look innocently to the drivers as well
hoping that either one would be kind enough to offer me help


and as i was so desperate
standing at the tram stop
thinking whether i should just wait there
as xiang yan and lee peng they ll be passing by the tram stop when they are on their way to the anat building

suddenly
"do you need my help" (in chinese)

i was so happy and when i turned back to look who is offering me her help
it was the waitress that i met at the chinese restaurant which we celebrated fran's birthday

i just couldnt describe how touch i was during that time
i kept on saying thank you to her
untill she say no need to say so many thank you :P
she helped me to carry my parcel ( i gave her the lighter one) till my aparment!! :)

God is Good!!
He knows the perfect time and the perfect moment for things to happen
He knows what is the best

i received 2 parcels at the same time
and i met this lady who helped me to carry my parcels ( i really cannot imagine how am i going to carry those 2 parcels till my aparment if it were not her who offered me her help)

So
God is Good!!
All the time!!!!

Halellujah!!

ps: MUMMY happy birthday!!

professor can be funny sometimes :P

yesterday after physio seminar
as usual
went to my locker to take my bags and coat

BUT
i somehow couldnt open my lock
it refused to let me have the correct combination of number to open it

and as i and Yaqzan were trying
this professor
Doc Eduard
he came and i told him
professor i couldnt open my lock

he says:" is okay you can always turn to the back of your locker and get your stuffs as it is not sealed."

i say :" oh really * wanted to turn the locker*"

he says :" OF COURSE NOT!! this is a joke!! *si~si~si~si~si* (with his typical laughter )"

my reaction : er..er.. er.. sweat!!

anyway
he again came and asked me
do you need help?
and after he pulled the lock for a several times and was about to find tool to break my lock
suddenly
YAY!!
i can rotate the numbers on the lock!!

i said thank you to him
and again
here comes another classic joke
he says :" this proves that i can actually rob a bank."

my reaction : er..er..er.. *smile*

anyway
professors can be very funny if they are in a good mood :)

moral of the story
DO NOT USE THE LOCK EVER AGAIN!!
it nearly gave me a heart attack yesterday!!

biochem again!!

gosh!!
i m in a DEEP SHIT!!!

i just realised
next week we ll be tested on DNA as well!!!
TOOT

i haven finished my translation, transcription and recombinant DNA thingy
and
now this!!

okay
i really have to study HARD in His name and for His glory

i do not want to disappoint Him
Yes lord!!
i ll do my best!!!
and glorify thy name!!

eating disorder

i think I HAVE DISTENDED my stomach SO MUCH
untill it get used to the amt of food that i can actually take in!!!!

today
is the day when my diet plan starts!!!!!
I DONT CARE
i need to clear my stomach
and return my stomach into normal size!:P

WHERE IS MY PARCEL!!!!
it has been 3 weeks!!!!!!!
my parcel my parcel

feel so depressed without getting my parcel!!

when i want to find someone to hide
there is no one there for me but you

when i want to share sth with someone
there is no one there to listen to me but you

when i m suffocating
there is no one there for me but you

when i have this sad feeling overwhelm me
there is no one there to clear my "dark cloud" away but you

strange feeling arise within me
i just couldnt describe it

Lord i know You understand how i feel
Lord pls give me guidance
Lord pls show me the way
in You alone
i can find peace, happiness and hope! :)

i would say this strange feeling is more towards negative side
LOLZ
i know you guys can sense that:P

and
i just feel that
i always express myself wrongly
give the wrong answer, wrong respond, wrong expression
everything is carried out in a wrong way
yes
Jack
i think is time for me to have a change
i ll try to hide into my shell again
like what you told me
i ll try to control myself
there is no need to do so
when i am actually feeling tired of doing that
worn out

revision
hasnt started yet
and
too many problems occurred to me at one time
couldnt really handle them
actually i also swt
eheh
i worry my study the most la
then this and that come to me at the same time
dunno how to react

so again
i m left alone on the stage
but
yes
i rather to be the only on the stage


再见并不难
最重要的是要学会如何微笑说再见:)
如何勇敢的面对自己的抉择
然后，潇洒地转身离开：）
是时候长大了

motivation

met a 1st year junior yesterday at menza
he is a korean
and XY asked him why he wants to become a doctor
he says:" i have always wanted to become a doctor since small. and it has never changed."
" i m a christian and i want to become a doctor missionary in the third world country to help them."
i have forgotten how exacly he told us his ambition
but this amazed me
as this is like the (erm how to say) best ambition? i have ever heard b4

i just pray that
he ll be able to fulfill his dream
to become a doctor missionary
spread the Love and help the needy and weak

there was one time
when i particularly feel like (a real strong feeeling)
that i should do sth for God
like telling good news to friends (get myself involved in evangelistic activities )
and hearing his dream or aim
i feel very contented or warm
cause
i think this somehow is my dream as well
and i met one
is like he is "helping" me to realise my dream
how blessed you ll be
if you are able to be a doctor missionary in a country which you are needed
well
i think my life ll be very contented and full of happiness and blessings if i ll become a doctor missionary

anyway
i lost my word
i just know that i m happy when i heard his ambition
i ll pray for him :)

and his ambition has somehow motivated me

and
hearing that actually there is someone out there who wants to become a doctor missionary
has once again light up my passion
cos
long long ago
i have always wanted to join WHO for an internship program or maybe be one of their staff
and then i ll be able to have the chance to walk around the world
and contribute my profession to the public

yeah
i ll make it come true (i hope i ll)
but now
have to study as hard as i can
not for the result
but for my future career

anyway
i wish you all the best!:)
keep it up!!:)

unproductive

have been doing nth for the past FOUR days!!!

wake up wake up!!!

gosh
i feel like killing myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

garhhhhhh!!!!

i m a bun!!:P

thank you Yee Yong, Douglas, Sanggeeta, Shing Yee, Francesca and Terri!!!!
special thanks to the chefs Yee Yong and Douglas!!!!

yay!yay!yay!
had the greatest dinner ever!!!!
better than what i had in any other restaurant

we have food, we have fun
and
we have wine!!:p
what more can i ask for:)

so sorry that i have disturbed you guys and delayed your study schedule
i really wish you guys all the best and will pray for each and everyone of you
so that you ll be able to strive with victory and dont get stressed out, okay??
May the force be with you:)

PS: i really dont have one okay!!!i DONT have 1 lah!!!
p-l-e-a-s-e trust me
cause if i really have 1
i ll really be frank to you guys :) dont worry:)

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i asked sanggee why i look like one who ll have a bf
she says:" cause you look bubbly and nice and etc (me blushing :P)
XY says:" huh really but why i never thought so?"
my os:" eheh neither do i :P"
but apparently
i m under the category :outgoing
er
er
er
i m not, okay
and actually i m an insulator:P

hmmm..

hmmm...
hmmm...

my parents reactions are so big

i can imagine...
hmmm...

is too early:)