回忆是什么？
回忆里的人、事、物又代表了什么？
当回忆里的一切不断地向前迈进，不断地转换，
那，这段回忆是否该是时候放在过去，不再缅怀？
因为，怀念这举动只是自己一味的抓住自己理不断的情感，
试图从这儿寻找一丝的希望。

号码又意味着什么？
当你恍然发现，即使你拨通了这号码，
电话另一头却早已不是你凭着回忆寻回的的感动，
那，这号码也就没有了意义。

但，
偏偏瞬间的感动及当下某件事物所给予你感觉，
即使在多年后，即便你深知无论你多想努力地找回那份只有在回忆才得着悸动也无法实现时，
你，
依然不肯放下，往前迈一步。
抑或者是，即使你已展开了步伐，
你对于以前的那份执着，依旧捆绑着你，
时刻提醒你，你在前进的同时，
好像有什么在拉着你往后退。


所以，我说
人的知性及感性应该是最难以操控
却也是最容易牵动的,
韧性是最强的亦是最脆弱的。
亦复杂却是人类最简单的原始情感！
我们想档却挡不住，想抽离却无法一笑置之放弃情感。


呵呵呵！由于本人实在是太无聊到都快要长草了，所以随便胡写一通！！！
都是一些登不上大雅之堂的想法，纯粹太无聊了呀，呵呵呵，才来胡闹一番。 =P

纯粹发泄对韩剧的不满

真的是超讨厌的！！！！！
最近看的韩剧，那编剧都跟我作对！！！！！
我喜欢的couple到最后一定跟别人在一起！！！！！
害我看剧看到一半都半途而废（heh 本人因为读了那该死的pps评论而得知结局）,虽然。。虽然。。剧情真的是很好看！！！
但是，但是，只要一想到我看好的恋情到最后无疾而终，就超级不舒服！！！！
所以，只好放弃！

《咖啡屋》 也是这样，《穿透屋顶的highkick》 也是这样！！！
现在我只能给予我所有的希望在《坏男人》 和 《烘焙王金桌求》 的身上~~~~~

其实，其实~~~~~《穿透屋顶的highkick》真的是超搞笑的~~~集集都搞笑
唉！！我期望的俊赫、静恩恋竟然~~~竟然·~~~~~~~~~~~无法成型！！本人又十分讨厌他心水的那个女生！！！*生气*
再再再说，刚才得知这恋情是如何被编剧编导告吹的~~我更加的无法接受！！！！！>.<
真的，我现在好在心痛着~~~为何他们没有在一起！！！！！T.T

heh其实，这篇我纯粹是要发泄我对《穿透屋顶的highkick》 的不满！！！毕竟、毕竟，我好不容易找到好看的长寿剧看，竟然告吹！！气死我了！！气死我了！！！

《泡沫之夏》我又不想看，因为本人已经阅读原著了，对整个剧情了如指掌，所以，看了也没有意思！

话说回来，讲真的~~~~
怎么韩剧里的男主角都被拍成那么的好看！！！
唉！他们的帅度真的是惊为天人啊！！！！！！
当然，有些的帅度只止于剧中~~（也不是说不好看，只是，下戏了，可能没有那么帅）

哈哈！我也不知该怎么结尾。
总之，我就是很气！！！！！！！很气！！！我的俊赫、静恩couple~~~就这样泡汤了！
刚开始，我真的还以为他们会在一起！！为什么？为什么！！！！
*大声呐喊！*
不会在一起，就不要有那么多令观众误会他们会在一起的情节么！！！！
*生气！*

哈哈！！不好意思，这真的是一篇很不健康的post! =P

way toooo random

nothing is absolute and hence everything is possible~~including you and me ^^
出自妍语录

ya i know is very random =P

anyway...hereby i again introduce another SAD song!! thanks to francesca who asked me to watch the eng sub of this song. srsly, the lyrics are so beautifully written!!! ♥
hehe my 2nd(?) fav song after in my dream (dont really like the lyrics of this song though it is also a sad song=P)
sorry, you know me, i tend to like sad songs maybe is my hidden feeling which stays with me always without self-reliasation.
enough said, here's the video.oh ya the song name is coagulation (yea i know is SUCH A WEIRD NAME, it sounds so much better in chinese which is凝结if you translate the korean title of this song which is 응결 which pronouce as eung gyeol).okay i shall stop here, time is running & i have to finish one of my patho chap right now!! *haih*



ps: srsly, yesterday my biological clock broke down and i slept like no tomorrow!! TT__TT i actually planned to finish revise some of the patho chaps and the plan is gone JUST LIIKE THAT!!!!
*sigh* I'll shall work harder today and i pray to God that He would grant me what i need for my revision. And also i need your prayer as well ^^ thanks!

*sigh*

is thursday again!!!!
and friday, then sat then sunday then the week starts all over again.
*sigh*

anyway
i m excited as am now listening to bonamana album!!
seriously, i'll defnitely buy the repackaged version and the version B (perhaps if the cover looks nice) when i'm back.hehe gonna force my bro to buy them for me as my birthday present and at the same time i'll drag him to the korean palace back at our taman to have a korean feast!!
its gonna burn a hole in his poket but i dont care-e-e-e-e lolz! okie la, maybe he just need to pay for the food but the cd i'll buy them on my own cause m gonna buy it from dvd heaven which will count every single purchase on hanteo chart =b
anyway, those who like KPOP you should really listen to this album i m not being bias cause this is really a good album which has all the good songs!!!srsly, like every single track sounds very nice and pleasant to your ear (er mayb not boom boom the 2nd track though). But overall, i shall rate it 10 over 10!! is better than sorry sorry album!! hehe maybe because it has more ballad songs than suju album used to have.=b

hmmm...is thursday. and i feel so reluctant to use my brain*sigh*

i shall end here then.
gonna work hard and go back early so that i can spend more family time with my parents and also gogo esp my parents cause i just realised they are getting older and older each and everyday!!! and hence, i really want to spend more time with them! =)

last but not least,
hereby, i introduce a good song
Good person by toy. (SUJU just remake it)
if you have time, watch this video as it is subbed which means you get to know whats the song is all about!! =) it is such a sad song but very nice at the same time=)
i can totally feel the pain ^^
anyway enjoy!
just 1 short note:
pls do pray for my exams and tests ya!! ^^ need it so much right now!! =)

when~~~

when
i cant play the piano well, it's okay, you can play for me
when
i cant drive well, it's okay, you can drive for me
when
i cant cook well, it's okay, you can cook for me
when
i cant manage my account well, it's okay, you can manage for me
when
i cant sing well, it's okay, you can sing for me
when
i cant express myself well, it's okay, you understand me
when
i cant keep my room tidy, it's okay, you can help me to clean up =p
when
i am afraid to talk to stranger, it's okay, you can help me out
when
i cant decide what to wear, it's okay, it doesnt matter you how i dress up
when
i cant attend the lecture, it's okay, you can lend me your notes =p
when
i left out things that i should bring, it's okay, you are there to remind me
when
i cant decide which movie i should watch (rarely this will happen), it's okay, you can help me to decide
when
i cant decide what should i have for my meal (this happen very frequently=p), it's okay, you have already decided for me (MUAHAHA)

but

when
i cant concentrate to study, it's not okay, cause you cant help me to study! >.<
when
i dont feel like taking exam, it's not okay, cause you cant take the exam for me
when
my study work load is pilling up, it's not okay, cause you cant help me out

aih, when it comes to exam and study, you have to be independent.

ps: hehe random eh?

very very random!!

hehe can you see anything special...not the screen saver pls =P

and how about this one? anything diff from the above 1?

MUAHAHAHAHAHA..yes is totally very random just ignore me =P

ps: yes i changed my layout again..cause i duno why my previous 1 doesnt work *sigh* i really like the old one

observant (updated =P)

hmm done with tests

and there will be 1 week free of test and then test agin =.=;;;

imagine i took 1month to prepare the tests that i've just done

and mind you, within this 1 moth, i wasnt taking my revision serious O.o

*sigh* now 1 week? i shall not repeat my old mistake

anyway,

did i ever mention that I am quite an observant person?

i couldnt give you an exact example

but the 1 that i could think off now is

if it happened that a stranger catch my notice and i find him/her very interesting,

this means i would probably take note on him/her as in look at him/her properly

then if next time (as in after very very long time or i meet this stranger after a few hours at diff place), i could easily recognise him/her O.o

okay now there are 2/3 solid examples that i could think off

there is this handicapped person who sits on a wheelchair and i've met him twice in like 1 year and last week (thursday) was the 3rd time i met him. yes, i could still remember him

just now, b4 i went for pathophys, there were two homeless persons sat in front of albert supermarket and when i was on my way back from pathophys, i saw them at the park as i passed through the park.

some random (very random) czech students whom i sometimes will bump into them and i can easily notice that they have gf/bf after a few times .eheh i can remember the faces of their gf/bf also =P How can i tell that? cause they always walk together and have some intimate touch =P thats why i know. seriously i just bump into them occasionally and i dont think they know i exist!! XD

hmm..i can also easily remember the clothes and jeans that ppl once wore b4 (can you call this observant?) for example, two of my classmates they are having the same shoes but just diff colour, one is beige one is green. yeah,i know, how on earth that i know this? cause i was too bored during psycho class and i accidentally noticed their shoes. thats all!

updated part:

just found out this =P

our year has 2 erasmus stud from denmark.

and you know what? 1 of them does wear specs but this is not important

the most important part is i realised he only wears contact on monday!!! =P

er..i just know it. i didnt really force myself to notice it..i dont know why on earth that i can realise that. hehe maybe thats because his specs really look so old fashioned. thats why i know when he is NOT wearing specs.

again!seriously, i did not do all these things that i've mentioned above purposely, just that if something or someone catch my attn and i take note of them, i probably will remember them, perhaps for a very long time.

and er, i can link things up very easily and solve my doubt quite easily by connecting all the tiny observations that i have with me (of course, unintentionally!)

so, what do you think?

am i being too observant or i m just being normal?

anyway, sometimes i hope i m not so observant cause is very hard to ignore things which it would be best if i dont know them. you get what i mean?

and it has taken up too much space in my brain! dont you think i should leave these occupied spaces for other useful things like memorise my notes instead of having all these things being "installed" in my brain. Well, i cant control them they just save into my brain chip automaticall without giving me the 'save/don't save' button. =.=;;;;

ps: hehe..hence, leepeng says my bf would be in a deep trouble if he tries to cheat on me. lolz i dont think he can cheat on me cause he would be the one that i would care of so much. so, i would definitely remember/try to rmb everything single detail about him even his clothes eg what kind of shirt he has, when did he wear it, is this his new shirt etc. just a shirt or maybe even pencil/ pen will catch my eyes, so what more to say when it comes to other stuffs =P ( so dont cheat on me XD)

//已是过去式，就没有了所谓的留恋。

是时候放下，追逐梦想；

达成了，我，才能有筑下一个梦的勇气。//

childhood

okay..cause i was super sleepy just now and was about to doze off

so i decided to change my blog layout to keep me awake

and now

my concentration is all gone!! O.o

pharmaco and pathophys tests next week!!

and i am not really well prepared!!!!!!!!yet, i still can be so lay back =.=;;;;

pls do pray for me as in i ll gain back my concentration and my motivation, so that i can study!! =)

anyway

as i was talking to leepeng on and off about how i was like back in primary school

seriously, i din realise that i was quite naughty when i was a kid.

OH!! some of them i dont even want to recall cause they are so EMBARRASSING!!!

but i can only tell you, i've changed alot from naughty, mischievous to EHEM proper, decent, obedient blah blah blah (all those good characteristics that you can think off LOLZ!!just joking)

but i did change..compared to how i behaved back in primary and perhaps secondary school

and also thinking back how i view on religion,(just to let you know..i grow up in a christian family)

it DID has a TREMENDOUS change.

seeing that i once convinced myself that i should be a buddhist and i LITERALLY getting myself a necklace and counting them while i meditate..in the meantime..telling God that He is not "my cup of tea"!! at that time, i was pretty sure all religions have the same core so it doesnt matter which you believe.

and i have no idea how on earth that i came out a conclusion that i should be a buddhist.

seeing that i rarely went to church throughout the whole primary and secondary (not untill form 3), i just went there occasionally (i can count them by fingers). And now, i tell myself i HAVE to go to church every sunday cause this is when i regain my strength and i somehow feel secured after church service.

amazing right? how God changed me and He is still molding me!!! =)

anyway

speaking of my childhood,

seriously I REALLY REALLY never thought that i was so mischievous,bad tempered and naughty.

i am told by my parents i was a very bad tempered BABY!!

and yeah is true, cause there is this photo showing me that i was LITERALLY pulling my ears and showing my anger when they tried to take a photo on me just because i HATE camera.=.=

see how bad tempered i was even being a baby lolz!!

in primary,

i acted as a 大姐头 when i was in standard 1 and trying to control the class when i was not even selected as a monitor. Practically, everybody scared of me XD (thats what i can recall, i rmb i got such remark from 1 of my friends). But then i got scolded by my teacher =P hehe still i continue to act like 1 (if i m not wrong)

i used to lost my homeworks and my teacher knows where on earth i put them!!

UNDER THE BED!!! lolz! BUT i tried my best to deny them =P

i used to get the money from a "coin box" from my grandma's drawer so that i can buy more snacks. and yeah got scolded by my parents and gradma cause this act, they considered as stealing =P

i used to watch tv illegally when my mum was not at home and quickly switched off the tv b4 she stepped into the house =P well, i managed to finish my homework that was given by my mum, how? hehe copied all the answers..no matter how my mum tried to hide them, i still able to find them XD

oh ya..i cried and got beaten by my teacher when i was in standard 1. why? cause i used to write VERY VERY fast.hence i can finish my hw very fast, but my this particular best friend asked me to wait for her..she kept on bothering me and i just cried.

=.= and i dunno how i ended up by being beaten by my teacher.

i hated her so much and i even carved her name on my cupboard when i was back at home (and =.= i wrote her name wrongly lolz!!!)

my dad taught me BM since standard 4 to standard 6

and i quarreled with him during his class and ended up being beaten by him when i was standard 4/5

reason: cause my dad scolded 1 of my best friend i got so angry so i quarreled with him. and it ended up i was the one who got the punishment.

i cried so hard and you know how embarrassed it was, being beaten by your own dad in the class,being witnessed by all your classmates!!!!!!

and his colleague aka my english teacher nagged on me also cause it happened that the next lesson was english!!!

and just imagine that i still have to go back home together with my dad on that day and face him the whole day!!! =.= still i refused to admit my mistake..

that is primary

oh ya oh ya,

can you imagine that i cried over my spilled- off lunch box during standard 4/5 just because a standard 2 student knocked me down. Well, she did not hurt me but my lunch was gone!! bak gua with bread!! lolz i still can rmb!! OMO so embarrassed. i was on duty that time ( prefect mar) and i cried in front of this little girl =.=

and yes..hehe i was a librarian back then, but i never went for duty. still i can be so shamelessly got my certificate from the teacher which proved that i was a librarian.

and did i tell you that all my classmates including i, myself..used to get out from the class whenever we liked and went to the canteen to buy snacks though we were not allowed to do so?

yes, i did that all the time esp during standard 6. LOLZ!!

din even bothers about school rules (well, the school was also not that strict at that time) and can you imagine i was a prefect =P

hmmm

how about secondary,

well secondary, i was well-behaved cause i was a prefect.

yet, my EQ was so low that i would blow off in front of you. i din even bother who are you etc.

If i dont like you, that's it. i wont hold back my temper. i would just walked off and did lots of things to show my anger.

and after several MAJOR incidents that had happened, i totally changed.

i know showing temper and declaring LOUDLY " i dont like you" to the person you dont like wont help much in solving the problems, you will just make them worse.

so i've changed compared to who i was back in secondary.

besides all these, also,i did many stupid stuffs to the boys( yes boyS!! =P) that i liked (only primary school----er i came from a girl school during secondary, so no boys that would allow me to do some stupid stuffs *phew*)

OMO those memories are so EMBARRASSING and i wouldnt want to talk about them and i still feel embarrassed whenever they come across my mind.

well...

i am very very convinced that if i did not come to know God..i would be worse than what i've just mentioned above.and i m glad that I have been saved by His grace.

cause i know i m a bad person. very very bad indeed. ( i came to admit that not long time ago..cause all this while..i used to think i m good person cause i m not as bad as what the world has defined when it comes to bad ppl. BUT i was wrong!!! and i m glad that i realised that ^^)

God's words have saved me from falling into the pit of sins though i cannot say that i will never ever fall into the temptations again (how i wish this is true) but His words will try to keep me from falling into all the temptations around me and let me be able to grab on them whenever i am tempted. And enable me to find a place to secure my hope and also the worrisome that i have. Cause in Him, i can lay all my burdens to Him!! =)

is 11pm!!! O.o time for bed but i still haven finished revising the stuffs that i plan to revise!!

*sigh*

anyway, this post ended up to be a somewhat my testimony on how christ has changed me. and i hope you can get the message : God has changed me and he can change you as well!! in fact, He can change anyone, you just need to open your heart and say yes to Him so that He can enter it!! ^^ Experience the changes that He will bring to your life and let me tell you, you will never regret that you make the move to invite Him!! =)

ps: (very random)i feel very old now..i was once a 17 teenager!! and i thought that was like 2 years ago. But NO!! it was almost 5 years ago!! =.= i can no longer call myself a teenager >.<

recently

recently, my study plan has been quite messed up (or to be precised do i ever have a study plan ever since i reached prague from malaysia?)

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!!

recently, my sleeping cycle has been messed up as well!!!

coffee no longer can keeps me awake!

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!

recently, the feeling of not being able to finish what i m supposed to finish

yet the laziness is trying to take control makes me feel restless!!

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!

recently, many thoughts have run through my tiny delicate XD brain

and untill now there are some thoughts that are still crawling in my mind and refuse to lose their grip on me

and 1 of those which makes me very much indeed still in a regretful and confusion state

(aih the timing and seeting are not in the right place..my heart still bleeding!i wont be able to find back such opportunity not unless the destined fate says the meeting shall be fulfilled in the future..hmm very unlikely *sigh*)

and the other 1 is the old, obsessive and possessive feeling has again come back but i reckon it would fade away very soon XD (i hope so, cause this really might cause me to spend my time floating in the air =P)

so GOOD or NOT GOOD by having those thoughts?

perhaps they exist not in a good way(?) cause they cant make me concentrate on my study (wow, er well the severity is not what you have thought it might be though it sounds like 1)

DECIDED

i shall start my engine and gain back my energy, concentration and get rid of my lazy bug NOW!!!

papa and mama still waiting for my summer return!!!

I DEFINITELY want to spend more time with them!!!

Order my steps with your words Lord!! =)

cleared =)

just as i was abit confused for the past few weeks (?) as in how should i pray to God in dealing with the upcoming exams that i m going to sit for
there was a voice just now at the church service which has made me realise something.
i couldnt express them in words, but the outcome is..i have peace within me now, cause i know no matter what, my hope is secured in Him.
That matters!!! =)

Thank you Lord!!That You have sent Your angle and came to tell me that ^^

ps: (crap part) lolz!! couldnt believe i really did that XD!!! anyway, luckily my dad is an understanding dad and he doesnt lost his sense and thank you for trusting me *phew*..i thought that would be the hardest part MUAHAHA. what he said to me? serve you right!!! XD how about mum, well she is still in confusion and i doubt she will understand it in a short time..she is always blur!! =P

just today, i realised how blessed i am,i ll treasure every single blessing by heart .
thank you !!

are they?

version 1

平刘海 耍着小无赖
我不介意把你宠得更坏
怎么办 调皮的可爱
竟布满整个世界意外地习惯

屋檐外 雨滴声轻快
相拥着让心跳传递温暖
离不开 淡淡的关怀
即使黑暗来临也可以互相依赖

放下所有来专注倾听
心底最真实的声音
想着你 藏不住笑意
连嘴角也会不经意悄悄扬起

你偷偷关注我的眼睛
带着一切幸福憧憬
像空气 但却更甜蜜
请你永远保管这份心情
我爱你
I love you love you love you
love you love you love you~

我不该 尝试着隐瞒
看到你时心脏跳得过快
不说爱 却偷偷彩排
希望能给你一个完美的告白

很奇怪 总是逃不开
粉红色气泡在眼前徘徊
我明白 这是因为爱
每次当你安静地依靠在我臂弯

放下所有来专注倾听
心底最真实的声音
想着你 藏不住笑意
连嘴角也会不经意悄悄扬起

你偷偷关注我的眼睛
带着一切幸福憧憬
像空气 但却更甜蜜
请你永远保管这份心情

都是你 不管白天黑夜梦里开心哭泣所有一切是你
那 都是我惦记的身影
虽然会有风雨 但不会畏惧前进
手握紧 不放弃 在一起
I love you

放下所有来专注倾听
心底最真实的声音
想着你 藏不住笑意
连嘴角也会不经意悄悄扬起

你偷偷关注我的眼睛
带着一切幸福憧憬
像空气 但却更甜蜜
请你永远保管这份心情
我爱你

I love you love you love you
Love you love you love you~
Oh my baby my love~

version 2

空气里 沁透着甜腻 午后斜阳温热你的呼吸
视线里 盛满你身影 你的笑容只是贴合我的唯一
习惯你 用手中的笔 描绘属于我盛放的风景
记录下 悲喜的心情 十指相扣分享彼此无数个四季
全世界都在倾听着你 如此迷恋你的气息
每一天 写下你关于 让岁月见证纸间泛黄的回忆
把时光刻在街道长椅 定格约定的栖息地
牵着你 感受你呼吸 茫茫人海也不觉得拥挤
倾听你
I love you(love you) I love you
I love you(love you) I love you

想不起 年少的日记 封藏哪些很小心的秘密
那时你 温柔的手心 携手带我漫步而过绚烂夏季
为了你 学着做料理 只想和你品尝生活意义
这记忆 还如此清晰 留下昨年的温情仍悸动在心底
我的心永远倾听着你 如此迷恋你的气息
每一天 写下你关于 让岁月见证纸间泛黄的回忆
把时光刻在街道长椅 定格约定的栖息地
牵着你 感受你呼吸 茫茫人海也不觉得拥挤

日复日 季节更替 昨日逝去 享受亲密
慕恋你的清新 爱情绽放如此的美丽
每一天 你 带来美好天气 像蜂蜜 浸泡过所有爱恋甜蜜
倾听你

我的心永远倾听着你 如此迷恋你的气息
全世界 有我陪着你 放任风霜雨雪流言蜚语侵袭
把时光刻在街道长椅 定格约定的栖息地
倾听你 亲吻的气息 不在乎日升日落拥抱你
我爱你
I love you(love you) I love you
I love you(love you) I love you
Oh my baby my love~

hmmm..i prefer version 1 kekekez..cause is simple yet cute and lovely!!! =)
what say you?

ps: i seriously will be very depressed when the clock strikes 12am!!!! cause my mind is wandering now!! seriously cant read even a single word which is being displayed on the book!! NOT EVEN ONE!!!!!!!! and i know i will regret that i choose not to fight back and struggle at least a little bit to strain my brain so that i could do my revision...
somebody, do whatever you can to make me study
recently, i try not to bother my parents about the stress that i m having right now cause i know making them worry will not help me in handling my stress, instead, it will make me more stressful. i dont like seeing them worry about me cause they know they cant help me much since i am far away from them and what they can do for me is to keep on asking me how am i right now. That, wouldnt make me feel better. Besides that, that will pick on my nerve cause i will be very frustrated by then. Dont ask me why, my mood fluctuates like every 10 secs?

ARGH!!!! i hate it cause my brain really refuses to function!!!!!!!! and TIME is RUNNING out!!!!!

worry not =)

just now i was in a panic, my brain barely could function at that time when all those bad thoughts kept on running through my mind
seriously, i didnt realise the impact that it brought to me could be so big =P

ANYWAY to prevent myself from looking like an idiot XD
next time, i will SEARCH for you carefully
before i draw my conclusion
you just couldnt imagine how relieved i was when i found you=)

ps: again is another day when my mind decided to wander *sigh*
pps: since 2010 is coming, I wish you Happy New Year!!!! May it be a fruitful year for all of us! =)

此刻，天使是否能为我传达我的心意？
因为，我讨厌傻傻地在原地发呆。
我答应自己，这将会是终点，
不会再有另一个新起点，
因为，真的很累。

believe/13elieve =)

This night is a blessing, the day that we met.
The moon is out in the sky and the stars are smiling.
I wish that your smile won’t be erased ,
as I pray for these happy days to be continued always

On the nights that I spend alone, I keep on thinking about you
Even if I call you and I complain,that’s not what
I really meant to do. Did you already know and just act like you didn’t?

When there are hard times, if I’d just listened to your
voice for a moment, I could forget everything and laugh it off.

I am so fortunate to be able to meet you
because you’d made me smile by just being next to me
I could find you even if you go far away over there,
because you’re smiling inside of me

It’s possible to fight after a long time but
even if that has happened I won’t ever change.

I promise, I swear under the heaven.
I’ll pray beneath the moon that I'll never make you cry.

This night is a blessing, the day that we met.
The moon is out in the sky and the stars are smiling.
I wish that your smile won’t be erased ,
as I pray for these happy days to be continued always.

In the future if you’re ever worn and tired
think about the happy and beautiful memories
We plant faith in each other’s garden and happiness blooms.
I’ll send you the heart to my heart.
~by heechul~

after reading the lyrics thoroughly,now i can totally understand why he likes this song so much when he first listened to this song and untill now, his love towards this song has never changed ^^
hehe, i like this song also =)
and i just realised, why this song is called believe although there isnt once, this word is being mentioned.
because
the word believe is within the lines (^_^)

ps: so the rest that i initially planned to have has lasted for more than 2 hours and it is still an ongoing process? so what am i doing right now?practically nth..just eating chips (yes my crave for chips has been with me for quite awhile and it seems that the craving will not end very soon), some mind wandering activities and of course blogging XD
and christmas break is almost over *sigh*
but the most significant thing that i've done so far is...putting on weight
yes you hear me right, I M SERIOUSLY in the process of getting myself to be looked a lil bit chubbier(a word which makes me feel better instead of using the word FATTER)!!!
and
IF the caloric restriction plan really helps in slowing the aging process
then, i m putting myself in a dangerous situation
cause i m actually accelerating my aging process!!! >.<>

when i m supposed to....

when i m supposed to...
study XD

anyway i like this picture VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY X infinity MUCH!!!!!!!!!

nongmul nongmul CHUWAHAE!!!! =)

==此刻，就让我暂时奔向你。==

just have to write it down

okay..
my dad just asked me
are you in love?
i was like er =.='''''
and the reason he gave was
cos nowadays you tend to dress up yourself
again
i was like =.="""
so i said yes whom i have mentioned to you b4 and you know where he is lah papa kekekez!! XD
of course he did not believe it
yet he kept on asking me the photo that i posted up on facebook
asking who is this and that etc
i was like HUH? i have no clue which photo he was describing
so again i was like =.='''''''''
and mum says
your dad very blur 1 la
dont listen to him
he doesnt even know which photo he is talking about
just ignore him
LOLZ!!! mum!!! *thumbs up* =P

anyway
i guess...
they will surely have a heart attack if i had a bf =)
and i must make sure my bf has a strong heart to withstand all those questionings that they are going to have on him LOLZ!!!!!

done with the 1st crap
here comes the 2nd crap

he cried recently
but i m happy to see how he treats the ppl around him
with gratitude
i guess
he must be thinking
this is what he can do for them
and must be thinking
who is he to deserve so many loves that have been poured out to him
and keeping in mind that he is a christian
makes me feel happier =)
he cried
but for a good reason ^^

3rd crap
his hyung sang~~~
a chinese hymn which is done by joshua band
praise the Lord
he has never missed any chance to share the words of God to ppl whom he ll meet
either by words or by musics or by action
and this makes me feel happy also ^^
but 1 thing makes me laugh (feel bad though)
his needs to improve his pronounciation (learn from his dongsaeng la=P)
cos there is this sentence which he totally changed the meaning of this particular sentence due to his weird pronounciation XD
kekekez!!! XD

so i m done with my crapping =)

ps: ~let it be let it be~ and i think i m there already =) Praise the Lord!!!

pps: gogo!!! I will pray as hard as i can for you, so that you ll get a good supervisor that you have been wanted all this while!!!! Dont worry and leave it to the God!! He will provide everything that you need for your thesis =)

時を止めて by tvxq

急ぐように夏の星座たちが
As if they were rushing, the summers constellations
ビルの谷間に傾いて隠れてく
Hide themselves in the valleys between the buildings
通りすぎる僕らの毎日
During every day that passed us by
ちっぽけな事で泣きそうな時もある
There are times when I feel like crying at the smallest things
いつか君が行きたがっていた
I want to go to your side someday
あの店はもう無くなってしまったけど
Even though that shop has disappeared
どんな日も僕たちは
No matter what the day is,
二人の恋は終わらないと信じていた
I believe that our love has not ended
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
もっと君を抱きしめたい
I want to hold you more closely to me
一つ一つ君の事を覚えながら
While one memory after another of you surface up
永遠だけ信じてた
I believe only in eternity
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
見上げた空、願いこめて
Looking at the sky, with all my wishes
ひとつひとつ輝く星繋げながら
While each and every glittering star connect together
君の形探してた
I search for your shape
時を止めて
Stop the time
ずっと君のそばにいたい
I want to be by your side forever
もっと君を抱きしめたい
I want to hold you more closely to me
一つ一つ君の事を覚えながら
While one memory after another of you surface up
永遠だけ信じてた
I believe only in eternity

ahhhhh how i miss them... and seeing them like this makes me feel sad!!! T_T
i sincerely wish their frienship will continue to cherish FOREVER!!!!!
turn back the time pls.....i miss them when they stay strong together as a family...not like now...shattered into broken pieces *sigh*

~always keep the faith~
never ever give up!! fight till the end!! whatever the outcome might be..pls stay together as 1!!!!

ps: sorry...is not that i m very free until to the extent that i keep on blogging..is just that...i m too full and my stomach seriously not feeling well!!! cant concentrate and hence..hehe have to find some other stuffs to do
and thats why i have time to emo, do all the crapping part (as in the previous post that i have posted XD) etc
pls forgive me =P

pps: sometimes, we have to learn to ignore things which are not important especially those that ll make you feel upset.

ppps: cannot la..still feel very bloated!!!!! =.="""""" think i should get some sleeps now..hehe my belly is telling me..she prefer to be in a flat shape...instead of being a ball shape. XD

just ignore this post =P

kya kya kya!!!
why are you so happy nowadays
why are you so hyper nowadays
why you keep on having such ABNORMAL behaviour nowadays!!
lolz!!!
like a little kid trying to figure out how to use the hp
you are supposed to capture your own picture initially
but in the end you video-ed it instead of selca XD
and i doubt you know that you clicked the wrong button =P
tsk tsk tsk


kya kya kya why are you so happy!!

wuli turtle chongmal haengbok hanikka?wae?
kunde...nun chuwahae..chebal kaesok haenbok kaseyo yonwonhi!!!! =)

OMONA!!!! =.=""""

OMONA!!! why is he so happy ah? do all kinds of weird stuffs!!
we call this as abnormal behaviour and usually this behavior will only be surfaced up when some unusual things going on
tsk tsk tsk....
i can sense sth fishy is going on
why is he so happy tsk tsk tsk...
i shall not draw the conclusion XD
cos ma heart ll bleed if the conclusion is being drawn =P

okay forgive me to say this once more

WHY IS HE SO HAPPY nowadays?

why~why~tell me why~~~~~~~~~~~
lolz!!!

ps: he is being described as funny fella!!!! =.='''' OMONA wae wae waegure??
wuli turle, haengbok hanikka? waehanmyon sarang?
ANDUAI!!! XD

==聆听，请你仔细聆听自己的心跳。==
==聆听，聆听风声所捎来的希望。==

the dream continues!!

me and my han river's fantasy still continue
whenever this song plays,
my heart goes like thump thump thump,
so the dream continues =)^^

i kot kkum, chongmal chuwahe!!!
jinjia jinjia jimsim kidoseyo, i kot kkum kaesok, YONWONHI!!!! ^^

ps:daddy has been overworried nowadays, hehe even my my display pic with love sign on it ll catch his attention =.= '''''''' should i trick him or not? nah to prevent myself from getting into the trouble, i shall remain in silence then XD