easter

Easter is here!

This is when we have to be reminded again that we are saved through GRACE!!! He who died on the cross for us, for our sins, has conquered the death!! Once and for all, He gives us the saving grace through the cross.

isnt it amazing?

who are we that God is willing to sacrifice His one and only son to die for us?

and what we have done for His unfailing, indescribable, unconditional love?

Yet, despite all these, Jesus Christ is willing to die on the cross for our sins.

when Jesus gave His last breathe, the curtain of the temple was torn into two.

and He said " It is finished"

three days later, He rose from death!! this is when death has lost its grip on us and Jesus has conquered the death!! =)

Saving grace!!! no matter how many times i think about it, i am still amazed.

How could that be possible?

We are saved by grace!!! not by our works or by our deed!!!!!

Amazing, indeed!!

Of course, easter is the time when we need to reflect on the cross. But, not only easter!!! we have to fix our eyes on the cross everyday, reminding ourselves that how christ has saved us from sin in order not to fall into sin again!!

all in all, i just want to thank God for all the works He has done in my life!! I am really really really blessed that I have come to know christ, my Lord and my saviour!!! =)

Happy Easter and God bless!!! ^^

ps:somehow, i feel weird that i will not be attending good friday service and easter service this year.anyhow, i pray that i m able to fix my eyes upon the cross while i am away from prague .=)

saying sorry is not enough. admit our sins and REPENT is what we need!

very very random!!

hehe can you see anything special...not the screen saver pls =P

and how about this one? anything diff from the above 1?

MUAHAHAHAHAHA..yes is totally very random just ignore me =P

ps: yes i changed my layout again..cause i duno why my previous 1 doesnt work *sigh* i really like the old one

天国的树插曲

OMO T_T this drama "tree of heaven" is so SAD!!!!!!

terribly tragic yet extremely touching T_T

like this song so much after reading through the chinese translation

especially there's this scene in which this song is being played as the background music

the lyrics describing the situation PERFECTLY

hehe i JUST HAVE TO share this song with you!!!

and if you have time, pls watch this dram!!( yea i know the drama is quite old, but still is a nice drama no matter how old it is right =P and you have to watch it if you like sad love story hehe)

here's the lyrics

愿我的心已冰冻
可以浇灭燃烧着的爱情
停止啊 我的心 停止
这样的燃烧让我太煎熬
无所谓 应该无所谓
这样安慰我这颗烫伤的心
嘴唇在颤抖 眼泪涌出来
我不想哭泣
泪水啊 它不听我的话
怎么办 我爱着她
她向我微笑

我不知道是这样的我
怎么办 如果我被发觉这样的话
将再无法看到那个微笑
害怕爱你的心 溶进了我的眼神里
小心地望着你
不可以 不要这样
不想我的心再次沸腾 屏住呼吸
嘴唇在颤抖 眼泪涌出来
我不想哭泣
泪水啊 它不听我的话
怎么办 我爱着她
她向我微笑
我不知道是这样的我
怎么办 如果我被发觉这样的话
将再无法看到那个微笑

seriously, why it has to be so sad!!!

忆

把想对你说的话，幻化为透明的字迹，

是不是从此，我就能漠视我内心最深的感触呢？

清楚地说出我所想的，想法与行动是否能并存？

还是，只能随风而逝？

细细地品尝黑咖啡，坐在落地窗前的我，

仍由阳光撒落在身上，

似乎，让我有了勇气继续往前追逐那摸不着底的前方。

多少次的期待，多少次的盼望，多少次的落空，多少次的对自己说不要紧，

多少次的多少次，

多得我都忘了是自己的凭空想象，还是它们真实的存在着。

一幕幕的情景、一幕幕的憧憬、

一遍遍的演练，不断的排练，

一阵阵的悸动、一阵阵的心痛

即使是在脑海中，它们确实是那么真实的存在着啊!

放下了咖啡杯，

我，紧闭双眼，真诚地向上帝祈求。

我对牠说，

我只想认真的拥有那一次，不问结果，不求完美，

只想确确实实、明明白白、堂堂正正地感受一次。

受伤也好、开心也好、流泪也好、大笑也好、平淡也好、轰烈也好、心痛也好、心烦也好、雀跃也好，

我只想好好地在这过程中，体会一回。

太阳缓缓地失去它的彩衣，

黑夜笼罩了大地，

我的嘴角也只剩下咖啡的苦涩，

皎洁的月亮，盈亮般的照亮了我的身影，

我，

在落地窗前看到了他的投影。

我，眼眶红了，

眼泪模糊了视线，

倒影也在泪海中逐渐消失。

如果这是梦，

我只期望我能永远的把这一刻记住，

好让我即使醒了，仍然能回忆起此刻的感动。

ps:以上情景纯属虚构，若有雷同，纯属巧合。 lolz!!!! =P

Mother Teresa " Do it anyway"

feel like sharing this. got to know this from vanesswu's twitter =)

this is the version found on the wall in Mother Teresa' s home for children in calcutta. Credited to Mother Teresa.

She seriously is the greatest woman i have seen so far!!! ♥

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

observant (updated =P)

hmm done with tests

and there will be 1 week free of test and then test agin =.=;;;

imagine i took 1month to prepare the tests that i've just done

and mind you, within this 1 moth, i wasnt taking my revision serious O.o

*sigh* now 1 week? i shall not repeat my old mistake

anyway,

did i ever mention that I am quite an observant person?

i couldnt give you an exact example

but the 1 that i could think off now is

if it happened that a stranger catch my notice and i find him/her very interesting,

this means i would probably take note on him/her as in look at him/her properly

then if next time (as in after very very long time or i meet this stranger after a few hours at diff place), i could easily recognise him/her O.o

okay now there are 2/3 solid examples that i could think off

there is this handicapped person who sits on a wheelchair and i've met him twice in like 1 year and last week (thursday) was the 3rd time i met him. yes, i could still remember him

just now, b4 i went for pathophys, there were two homeless persons sat in front of albert supermarket and when i was on my way back from pathophys, i saw them at the park as i passed through the park.

some random (very random) czech students whom i sometimes will bump into them and i can easily notice that they have gf/bf after a few times .eheh i can remember the faces of their gf/bf also =P How can i tell that? cause they always walk together and have some intimate touch =P thats why i know. seriously i just bump into them occasionally and i dont think they know i exist!! XD

hmm..i can also easily remember the clothes and jeans that ppl once wore b4 (can you call this observant?) for example, two of my classmates they are having the same shoes but just diff colour, one is beige one is green. yeah,i know, how on earth that i know this? cause i was too bored during psycho class and i accidentally noticed their shoes. thats all!

updated part:

just found out this =P

our year has 2 erasmus stud from denmark.

and you know what? 1 of them does wear specs but this is not important

the most important part is i realised he only wears contact on monday!!! =P

er..i just know it. i didnt really force myself to notice it..i dont know why on earth that i can realise that. hehe maybe thats because his specs really look so old fashioned. thats why i know when he is NOT wearing specs.

again!seriously, i did not do all these things that i've mentioned above purposely, just that if something or someone catch my attn and i take note of them, i probably will remember them, perhaps for a very long time.

and er, i can link things up very easily and solve my doubt quite easily by connecting all the tiny observations that i have with me (of course, unintentionally!)

so, what do you think?

am i being too observant or i m just being normal?

anyway, sometimes i hope i m not so observant cause is very hard to ignore things which it would be best if i dont know them. you get what i mean?

and it has taken up too much space in my brain! dont you think i should leave these occupied spaces for other useful things like memorise my notes instead of having all these things being "installed" in my brain. Well, i cant control them they just save into my brain chip automaticall without giving me the 'save/don't save' button. =.=;;;;

ps: hehe..hence, leepeng says my bf would be in a deep trouble if he tries to cheat on me. lolz i dont think he can cheat on me cause he would be the one that i would care of so much. so, i would definitely remember/try to rmb everything single detail about him even his clothes eg what kind of shirt he has, when did he wear it, is this his new shirt etc. just a shirt or maybe even pencil/ pen will catch my eyes, so what more to say when it comes to other stuffs =P ( so dont cheat on me XD)

//已是过去式，就没有了所谓的留恋。

是时候放下，追逐梦想；

达成了，我，才能有筑下一个梦的勇气。//

childhood

okay..cause i was super sleepy just now and was about to doze off

so i decided to change my blog layout to keep me awake

and now

my concentration is all gone!! O.o

pharmaco and pathophys tests next week!!

and i am not really well prepared!!!!!!!!yet, i still can be so lay back =.=;;;;

pls do pray for me as in i ll gain back my concentration and my motivation, so that i can study!! =)

anyway

as i was talking to leepeng on and off about how i was like back in primary school

seriously, i din realise that i was quite naughty when i was a kid.

OH!! some of them i dont even want to recall cause they are so EMBARRASSING!!!

but i can only tell you, i've changed alot from naughty, mischievous to EHEM proper, decent, obedient blah blah blah (all those good characteristics that you can think off LOLZ!!just joking)

but i did change..compared to how i behaved back in primary and perhaps secondary school

and also thinking back how i view on religion,(just to let you know..i grow up in a christian family)

it DID has a TREMENDOUS change.

seeing that i once convinced myself that i should be a buddhist and i LITERALLY getting myself a necklace and counting them while i meditate..in the meantime..telling God that He is not "my cup of tea"!! at that time, i was pretty sure all religions have the same core so it doesnt matter which you believe.

and i have no idea how on earth that i came out a conclusion that i should be a buddhist.

seeing that i rarely went to church throughout the whole primary and secondary (not untill form 3), i just went there occasionally (i can count them by fingers). And now, i tell myself i HAVE to go to church every sunday cause this is when i regain my strength and i somehow feel secured after church service.

amazing right? how God changed me and He is still molding me!!! =)

anyway

speaking of my childhood,

seriously I REALLY REALLY never thought that i was so mischievous,bad tempered and naughty.

i am told by my parents i was a very bad tempered BABY!!

and yeah is true, cause there is this photo showing me that i was LITERALLY pulling my ears and showing my anger when they tried to take a photo on me just because i HATE camera.=.=

see how bad tempered i was even being a baby lolz!!

in primary,

i acted as a 大姐头 when i was in standard 1 and trying to control the class when i was not even selected as a monitor. Practically, everybody scared of me XD (thats what i can recall, i rmb i got such remark from 1 of my friends). But then i got scolded by my teacher =P hehe still i continue to act like 1 (if i m not wrong)

i used to lost my homeworks and my teacher knows where on earth i put them!!

UNDER THE BED!!! lolz! BUT i tried my best to deny them =P

i used to get the money from a "coin box" from my grandma's drawer so that i can buy more snacks. and yeah got scolded by my parents and gradma cause this act, they considered as stealing =P

i used to watch tv illegally when my mum was not at home and quickly switched off the tv b4 she stepped into the house =P well, i managed to finish my homework that was given by my mum, how? hehe copied all the answers..no matter how my mum tried to hide them, i still able to find them XD

oh ya..i cried and got beaten by my teacher when i was in standard 1. why? cause i used to write VERY VERY fast.hence i can finish my hw very fast, but my this particular best friend asked me to wait for her..she kept on bothering me and i just cried.

=.= and i dunno how i ended up by being beaten by my teacher.

i hated her so much and i even carved her name on my cupboard when i was back at home (and =.= i wrote her name wrongly lolz!!!)

my dad taught me BM since standard 4 to standard 6

and i quarreled with him during his class and ended up being beaten by him when i was standard 4/5

reason: cause my dad scolded 1 of my best friend i got so angry so i quarreled with him. and it ended up i was the one who got the punishment.

i cried so hard and you know how embarrassed it was, being beaten by your own dad in the class,being witnessed by all your classmates!!!!!!

and his colleague aka my english teacher nagged on me also cause it happened that the next lesson was english!!!

and just imagine that i still have to go back home together with my dad on that day and face him the whole day!!! =.= still i refused to admit my mistake..

that is primary

oh ya oh ya,

can you imagine that i cried over my spilled- off lunch box during standard 4/5 just because a standard 2 student knocked me down. Well, she did not hurt me but my lunch was gone!! bak gua with bread!! lolz i still can rmb!! OMO so embarrassed. i was on duty that time ( prefect mar) and i cried in front of this little girl =.=

and yes..hehe i was a librarian back then, but i never went for duty. still i can be so shamelessly got my certificate from the teacher which proved that i was a librarian.

and did i tell you that all my classmates including i, myself..used to get out from the class whenever we liked and went to the canteen to buy snacks though we were not allowed to do so?

yes, i did that all the time esp during standard 6. LOLZ!!

din even bothers about school rules (well, the school was also not that strict at that time) and can you imagine i was a prefect =P

hmmm

how about secondary,

well secondary, i was well-behaved cause i was a prefect.

yet, my EQ was so low that i would blow off in front of you. i din even bother who are you etc.

If i dont like you, that's it. i wont hold back my temper. i would just walked off and did lots of things to show my anger.

and after several MAJOR incidents that had happened, i totally changed.

i know showing temper and declaring LOUDLY " i dont like you" to the person you dont like wont help much in solving the problems, you will just make them worse.

so i've changed compared to who i was back in secondary.

besides all these, also,i did many stupid stuffs to the boys( yes boyS!! =P) that i liked (only primary school----er i came from a girl school during secondary, so no boys that would allow me to do some stupid stuffs *phew*)

OMO those memories are so EMBARRASSING and i wouldnt want to talk about them and i still feel embarrassed whenever they come across my mind.

well...

i am very very convinced that if i did not come to know God..i would be worse than what i've just mentioned above.and i m glad that I have been saved by His grace.

cause i know i m a bad person. very very bad indeed. ( i came to admit that not long time ago..cause all this while..i used to think i m good person cause i m not as bad as what the world has defined when it comes to bad ppl. BUT i was wrong!!! and i m glad that i realised that ^^)

God's words have saved me from falling into the pit of sins though i cannot say that i will never ever fall into the temptations again (how i wish this is true) but His words will try to keep me from falling into all the temptations around me and let me be able to grab on them whenever i am tempted. And enable me to find a place to secure my hope and also the worrisome that i have. Cause in Him, i can lay all my burdens to Him!! =)

is 11pm!!! O.o time for bed but i still haven finished revising the stuffs that i plan to revise!!

*sigh*

anyway, this post ended up to be a somewhat my testimony on how christ has changed me. and i hope you can get the message : God has changed me and he can change you as well!! in fact, He can change anyone, you just need to open your heart and say yes to Him so that He can enter it!! ^^ Experience the changes that He will bring to your life and let me tell you, you will never regret that you make the move to invite Him!! =)

ps: (very random)i feel very old now..i was once a 17 teenager!! and i thought that was like 2 years ago. But NO!! it was almost 5 years ago!! =.= i can no longer call myself a teenager >.<

紫色太阳花

倘若紫色的太阳花自然的存在，

或许，所期盼的就能继续地有所等待。

倘若静静地期待、不断地想念、无数的期望，

就会有所谓的起点，

或许，世界就不会如此的大，

距离也不会显得如此的遥远。

如果我说，都是在同一片的蓝天下，

会不会，起跑点就离我更近了一些？

地球，是圆的，

但是为何“世界真是小” 却得不到我的认同呢？

有时，一些微妙的感觉，说也说不透，

它，在瞬间，就像呼吸那般的自然。

但是，无论这感觉有多真实，

终究还是飘渺不定，

犹如薄纱，

时而真实，时而虚幻。

然而我说，

只要你许我一朵紫色的太阳花，

彩虹就会在不远处，

你相信吗？

heh just have to write them down,cause they keep on staying in my mind, disturbing me and i just couldnt study properly.

Now is all done, i have got rid of them!! =)

没有原点，所以不曾站在起点上，即便是在同一片的星空下，望穿了云月.

其实，我只要有句点，就能很满足了，因为至少我还能拥有曾经的曾经。

recently

recently, my study plan has been quite messed up (or to be precised do i ever have a study plan ever since i reached prague from malaysia?)

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!!

recently, my sleeping cycle has been messed up as well!!!

coffee no longer can keeps me awake!

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!

recently, the feeling of not being able to finish what i m supposed to finish

yet the laziness is trying to take control makes me feel restless!!

NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!

recently, many thoughts have run through my tiny delicate XD brain

and untill now there are some thoughts that are still crawling in my mind and refuse to lose their grip on me

and 1 of those which makes me very much indeed still in a regretful and confusion state

(aih the timing and seeting are not in the right place..my heart still bleeding!i wont be able to find back such opportunity not unless the destined fate says the meeting shall be fulfilled in the future..hmm very unlikely *sigh*)

and the other 1 is the old, obsessive and possessive feeling has again come back but i reckon it would fade away very soon XD (i hope so, cause this really might cause me to spend my time floating in the air =P)

so GOOD or NOT GOOD by having those thoughts?

perhaps they exist not in a good way(?) cause they cant make me concentrate on my study (wow, er well the severity is not what you have thought it might be though it sounds like 1)

DECIDED

i shall start my engine and gain back my energy, concentration and get rid of my lazy bug NOW!!!

papa and mama still waiting for my summer return!!!

I DEFINITELY want to spend more time with them!!!

Order my steps with your words Lord!! =)

with all my heart

they never failed to amaze me!!!!!!!dont really like this song when i first listened to it but when today it is being played on my playlist, it did give me a goosebump!!!

they bring soul into this song =)

i have to say, nobody can really beat them ~~~~~~~~~

listening back to their songs, a nostalgic feeling overwhelmed me =)

they are really the best band that i've ever seen^^

ps: the lyrics are beautifully written

hug would always be my top favourite korean song no matter how long/how old it would be. cause today when i decided to listen to hug again, i realised i still like it very much and the feeling that it first gave me still stays in my heart! among all the korean songs which top the chart, i would say this would be the only song which doesnt have the so-up-to-beat tempo and catchy tune,yet it was able to top the chart when it was first released!!

思绪

闭上眼，还是很疲倦。

睁开眼，仍然没有动力。

深呼吸，依然不知所措。

微微笑，哀愁油然而生。

淡淡的忧伤、淡淡的惆怅，

始终笼罩着我，久久挥之不出。

长长地叹了一口气，顿时间，呼出了许多感慨！

时光滴答滴答的在流逝，我无力捕抓，只能试着充实的利用每分每秒。

但是，为何越是如此执着，我越是仍由时光从我指缝中流逝？

时光秒如烟啊！

何时，我也变得如此感慨万千啊！

不再追逐光阴，但，我会好好的珍惜每分每秒！

我会试着.....

今晚，我心中的向日葵依然迷失它应该迎风绽放的方向，因为它仍然在找寻那一丝的阳光。

(if you realised, i edited the 1st sentence,or to be precise, i deleted the 1st sentence cause i find it too disgusting!! *vomit vomit* =P)

梦里，我看见了我俩的微笑！ =)

ps: FINALLY! i've found back the motivation to blog!!! =P anyway i m supposed to study O.o but then, i think i have left my brain in penang and forgot to bring it back as till now, i have no motivation to study!!!! Zzzzzzzzzz

but for the sake of getting to see my parents as SOON as possible, i shall try my best to study!!

pa, ma i miss you!!! ^^ pls stay healthy and take care always!!! =）

and i end my post with this song!! recently like this song very muchie!!still rmb this was the song that daddy asked me , huh this song sounds nice meh？ and i said yes!! ^^

should we get married by lisa and miryo(BEG) <3