如果

如果时间倒流，带我回到那年的夏天，我是否会鼓起勇气，告诉你其实我也喜欢你？

如果时间倒流，带我回到那年的时光，你是不是也会更勇敢地我握紧的手，不会放开呢？

如果时光倒流，我回到了当初，你是否会发现到我眼睛的闪烁是因为你？

我想，如果我们都勇敢一些，那，现在的我就不会对这份青涩的感情，多一份不舍的留恋。因为，至少我们相恋过。

但，这一切都只是如果。

所以，今后的我，不会不敢果敢地走向爱情。

即使知道会受伤，我也一定会大步大步地向前迈进，向着我的幸福出发。

回忆是什么？
回忆里的人、事、物又代表了什么？
当回忆里的一切不断地向前迈进，不断地转换，
那，这段回忆是否该是时候放在过去，不再缅怀？
因为，怀念这举动只是自己一味的抓住自己理不断的情感，
试图从这儿寻找一丝的希望。

号码又意味着什么？
当你恍然发现，即使你拨通了这号码，
电话另一头却早已不是你凭着回忆寻回的的感动，
那，这号码也就没有了意义。

但，
偏偏瞬间的感动及当下某件事物所给予你感觉，
即使在多年后，即便你深知无论你多想努力地找回那份只有在回忆才得着悸动也无法实现时，
你，
依然不肯放下，往前迈一步。
抑或者是，即使你已展开了步伐，
你对于以前的那份执着，依旧捆绑着你，
时刻提醒你，你在前进的同时，
好像有什么在拉着你往后退。


所以，我说
人的知性及感性应该是最难以操控
却也是最容易牵动的,
韧性是最强的亦是最脆弱的。
亦复杂却是人类最简单的原始情感！
我们想档却挡不住，想抽离却无法一笑置之放弃情感。


呵呵呵！由于本人实在是太无聊到都快要长草了，所以随便胡写一通！！！
都是一些登不上大雅之堂的想法，纯粹太无聊了呀，呵呵呵，才来胡闹一番。 =P

纯粹发泄对韩剧的不满

真的是超讨厌的！！！！！
最近看的韩剧，那编剧都跟我作对！！！！！
我喜欢的couple到最后一定跟别人在一起！！！！！
害我看剧看到一半都半途而废（heh 本人因为读了那该死的pps评论而得知结局）,虽然。。虽然。。剧情真的是很好看！！！
但是，但是，只要一想到我看好的恋情到最后无疾而终，就超级不舒服！！！！
所以，只好放弃！

《咖啡屋》 也是这样，《穿透屋顶的highkick》 也是这样！！！
现在我只能给予我所有的希望在《坏男人》 和 《烘焙王金桌求》 的身上~~~~~

其实，其实~~~~~《穿透屋顶的highkick》真的是超搞笑的~~~集集都搞笑
唉！！我期望的俊赫、静恩恋竟然~~~竟然·~~~~~~~~~~~无法成型！！本人又十分讨厌他心水的那个女生！！！*生气*
再再再说，刚才得知这恋情是如何被编剧编导告吹的~~我更加的无法接受！！！！！>.<
真的，我现在好在心痛着~~~为何他们没有在一起！！！！！T.T

heh其实，这篇我纯粹是要发泄我对《穿透屋顶的highkick》 的不满！！！毕竟、毕竟，我好不容易找到好看的长寿剧看，竟然告吹！！气死我了！！气死我了！！！

《泡沫之夏》我又不想看，因为本人已经阅读原著了，对整个剧情了如指掌，所以，看了也没有意思！

话说回来，讲真的~~~~
怎么韩剧里的男主角都被拍成那么的好看！！！
唉！他们的帅度真的是惊为天人啊！！！！！！
当然，有些的帅度只止于剧中~~（也不是说不好看，只是，下戏了，可能没有那么帅）

哈哈！我也不知该怎么结尾。
总之，我就是很气！！！！！！！很气！！！我的俊赫、静恩couple~~~就这样泡汤了！
刚开始，我真的还以为他们会在一起！！为什么？为什么！！！！
*大声呐喊！*
不会在一起，就不要有那么多令观众误会他们会在一起的情节么！！！！
*生气！*

哈哈！！不好意思，这真的是一篇很不健康的post! =P

God's grace

all in all is really God's grace!!
without Him, i would be nothing.
Is not because of how good i am but is because of how AWESOME he is.
How merciful and gracious He is that He would take care and bless me such a sinner like me
how i repay Him with all my evil thoughts, deed and attitude.
how many times i have not walked according to His teachings,
how many times i have hurt Him

But He still choose to love me and bless me
His grace and provision are really sufficient
who am i that i should have such blessings from Him?
i give thanks to Jesus for He died on the cross for our sins so that we could get near to the thrown!
how unworthy i am!
but because of Jesus, my sins are paid by His blood!

All in all, what i've gained is because He gives! not by my might nor by my deed!
is because He provides!
He cares for us, every single one of us!
His love just cant stop from pouring down on us no matter how much times we've doubted on Him, questioned on Him and sometimes might be get angry at Him.
But He just cant stop from loving us because Love is His nature!

God is Love!!

I really really really really really give thanks to God for His blessings are really beyond my imagination!!!!!the wonderful counsellor and saviour!!!!

i wouldnt be able to go back during CNY if it is not by His grace
i wouldnt be able to finish my exam now if it is not by His grace
everything wont come into an order if it is not by His grace
but because of him everything becomes possible!!

how many times i've doubted on Him
how many times my faith is so weak and shakeable by anything
but He remains faithful as always

one thing encourages me
If you doubt on God, look upon the cross!
Lord has sacrificed His one and only son to die for us on the cross!!
His love for us is SO deep and even if we have doubted Him, we still couldnt change the fact that Jesus has died for us!
yes!! His love is unchangeable!!! He remains faithful as ALWAYS!!!!

Lord,
pls continue to teach me each and everyday and draw me closer to you as the day passes!!!!

again all in all
Our God is an AWESOME god!!! He indeed is!!

May God bless you!!! =)

Do not fear for I am the Lord

these few days,
there are these 2 songs which keep on popping out
they are
There is a fountain by waterdeep(also known as who can satisfy) & give me jesus by Jeremy Camp

You know,
is really amazing that i somehow will be humming(in my mind) those two song alternatively when i just woke up or when i was dreaming. srsly, no kidding. =)

and just today,
when i was studying
i feel very depressed for no reason. well, there is 1(exams approaching ma, what else can it be wor) but i just feel uncomfortable with this feeling and got very nervous.

and when it was almost time for me to get myself prepared for the patho class
kevinwoo wrote this
"I repeat, be strong and brave! Don’t be afraid and don’t panic, for I, the Lord your God, am with you in all you do." Joshua 1:9

a superb verse which i've yet come to realise!!
it really somehow calmed me down.

and when i got back from patho class
another song popped out again
Do Not Fear by Hillsong^^

He is the God who could move the mountain, the God who fed the crowd with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish. I've been keep on wondering, when the basket never get emptied despite of the crown, how does it look like?
i mean, like how?
isnt it an amazing scene, if you see the basket is always full of the food no matter how much you have distributed to the crowd?
yet, Jesus' disciple still could not understand what has just happened. They were slow like what the bible has written.
and my pastor likes to ask this question
would we be any better if we were put into their shoes?
DEFINITELY NOT!
cause,
how many times i have doubted on God and do not understand that His grace is sufficient for our needs?
Despite the fact that i've actually experienced His love over and over again, each and everyday.

And yes, I have to admit, my faith in God has to be stregthen again & again each &everytime
like what pastor has quoted from CS Lewis
~Relying on God has to begin all over again everyday as if nothing had yet been done. ~
I pray that God will continue to mold me as i give myself into the potter's hands.

And
Thank you Lord, that You remain faithful as always and You are always with us now and forever!! ♥

hmm..actually i also dont really know what's the msg that i was trying to convey.
anyway, T____T have been lagging since 5pm!!!
Do not fear but at the same time Lord also says to us:' Have self-control!'
it is one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit which i've ALWAYS overlooked it!!!!

*sigh* srsly the clock is ticking and my study load is piling up!!!!! T__T

anyway, i end this post by the verse that i've come across today

"I repeat, be strong and brave! Don’t be afraid and don’t panic, for I, the Lord your God, am with you in all you do." Joshua 1:9

Amen! ^^




~But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. (Galatians 5:22-23) ~


ps: i started to compile my playlist by gathering all the SADDEST songs in this world! is a way how i let go of my depression.
pps: Thank God that He give me the perfect timing to take my patho credit test! initially, i planned to take it yesterday but sth got me postponed the test to today. And srsly, the extra 24 hours definitely change the whole story cause i got to realise my blind spots! Therefore, He who is the Lord knows perfectly what is the best for us! Just trust in Him and do our best!! =)

way toooo random

nothing is absolute and hence everything is possible~~including you and me ^^
出自妍语录

ya i know is very random =P

anyway...hereby i again introduce another SAD song!! thanks to francesca who asked me to watch the eng sub of this song. srsly, the lyrics are so beautifully written!!! ♥
hehe my 2nd(?) fav song after in my dream (dont really like the lyrics of this song though it is also a sad song=P)
sorry, you know me, i tend to like sad songs maybe is my hidden feeling which stays with me always without self-reliasation.
enough said, here's the video.oh ya the song name is coagulation (yea i know is SUCH A WEIRD NAME, it sounds so much better in chinese which is凝结if you translate the korean title of this song which is 응결 which pronouce as eung gyeol).okay i shall stop here, time is running & i have to finish one of my patho chap right now!! *haih*



ps: srsly, yesterday my biological clock broke down and i slept like no tomorrow!! TT__TT i actually planned to finish revise some of the patho chaps and the plan is gone JUST LIIKE THAT!!!!
*sigh* I'll shall work harder today and i pray to God that He would grant me what i need for my revision. And also i need your prayer as well ^^ thanks!

*sigh*

is thursday again!!!!
and friday, then sat then sunday then the week starts all over again.
*sigh*

anyway
i m excited as am now listening to bonamana album!!
seriously, i'll defnitely buy the repackaged version and the version B (perhaps if the cover looks nice) when i'm back.hehe gonna force my bro to buy them for me as my birthday present and at the same time i'll drag him to the korean palace back at our taman to have a korean feast!!
its gonna burn a hole in his poket but i dont care-e-e-e-e lolz! okie la, maybe he just need to pay for the food but the cd i'll buy them on my own cause m gonna buy it from dvd heaven which will count every single purchase on hanteo chart =b
anyway, those who like KPOP you should really listen to this album i m not being bias cause this is really a good album which has all the good songs!!!srsly, like every single track sounds very nice and pleasant to your ear (er mayb not boom boom the 2nd track though). But overall, i shall rate it 10 over 10!! is better than sorry sorry album!! hehe maybe because it has more ballad songs than suju album used to have.=b

hmmm...is thursday. and i feel so reluctant to use my brain*sigh*

i shall end here then.
gonna work hard and go back early so that i can spend more family time with my parents and also gogo esp my parents cause i just realised they are getting older and older each and everyday!!! and hence, i really want to spend more time with them! =)

last but not least,
hereby, i introduce a good song
Good person by toy. (SUJU just remake it)
if you have time, watch this video as it is subbed which means you get to know whats the song is all about!! =) it is such a sad song but very nice at the same time=)
i can totally feel the pain ^^
anyway enjoy!
just 1 short note:
pls do pray for my exams and tests ya!! ^^ need it so much right now!! =)