a new journey

actually
few weeks ago
when i was saying that i m looking forward for school to start
i really mean it

but not now

can i keep on staying in penang??

yes
i m going back to prague

i have to work harder
i have to work very very hard
i want to be a good doctor
i want to go home earlier next year

another new challenge is waiting ahead of me
maybe this is the reason why i feel so unwilling to go back

pray harder
fix my eyes on God

Guide me and lead me Lord
as i embark on another new journey

Dad and Mum
take care ya
just leave you two at home
once i m back in prague

i have to be more determined
i have to be more tough mentally and physically:)

ps:
to xiang yan
i also dunno why i didnt want to join you for the poland trip
haha i have 1 german phrase book i think should be okay:P
yeah i m trying to gather all the informations about frankfurt (if possible:p)
hopefully we wont get lost:P

not again!!

woke up at 845am this morning
should have got up earlier as in 7am??
gone lah my plan
am supposed to go for a morning jog !!!
ish ish ish
gone lah my healthy life style:P

actually i did set my alarm
but
i didnt use the snooze fuction
ish
i should learn how to use the snooze
and not trying to off the alarm subconsciously!!!

recently
there is sth wrong with my digestion system
i can tell
and maybe my kidneys as well
they have caused me having back ache
my whole abdominal compartment
it makes me feel uncomfortable
i can feel my rectum ( iew)
it is compressing my uterus and my bladder (well i hope that i remember their position correctly:P)
gosh
am i sick??
then
i tell myself
be more optimistic
it helps
isit?

一磅的福音
it is really a nice japanese drama
is funny and warm
and it makes me to understand one thing
God has His own plan for us
hmmm
i think i have totally cleared my doubt

ja musim studovat
ja nemusim divat se na televizi (lolz)
ja musim nakupovat a cestovat
ja jsem chudy lah!!


ate too much raw onion (which i know that i shouldnt have)
now having headache
gosh my oral cavity
is full of onion smell
i have learned my lesson
say no to RAW onion!!

random

hmmm..
i once know where should i go to, what should i do when i m facing my laptop
but not now

thats weird!!

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just got my new timetable
gosh!!is sooooooooo packed!!!
i wonder from whom i got the idea that being a 2nd year medical student we ll have more free time!!
but
i m looking forward to it
seriously
i cant wait for school to start:P

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just bought a new handbag (a huge one, REAL HUGE!!!)
it has got 4 coulours for me to choose
among white, black, striking pink, yellow
i have choosen black
the safest colour
moreover
it ll never get dirty
kind of regretted
i wanted to buy myself a white one
i considered to buy the pinky bag (too bad is too striking!!)
is always like this
after i got over the buying emo
i started to regret
i kind of not satisfied with the bag that i have bought
it is way tooo simple.
ish
should have waited patiently till i found 1 REAL GOOD one!!:(

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been trying to figure out how to decorate my room and how to make use of the spaced that i have in my room
you know
i m trying to improve my living quality:P

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i still wanting to buy more clothes
but there are none
wondering
isit because my fashion sense has become worse
or the other way round
i just cant find clothes which are simple yet nice
and
still wondering
am i growing fatter and fatter
or
the trend of today is to produce
smaller clothes and t shirt
my gosh
you just look around
clothes are getting smaller in sizes
whats happening to the world
is the world trying to force us to become skinny??

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bought 5 pairs of earrings for myself
5 pairs for my mum
nowadays
inflation lah
what the *toot*
the earrings are getting more and more expensive
last time
3 pairs 4 rm10 or even rm5
you can get nice and awesome earrings!!
but now
the price is double or triple
ish!!

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just found out
i actually love to read stuffs which are related to health or medic
so
does this prove that i m meant to be a doctor??

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these few days
by chance
have been watching lots of drama or movie
which are somehow related to christianity
is Lord trying to tell me something??
i know
i have been neglecting my spiritual growth and bible study
ever since i came back
the passion and the eagerness that i once had in Chirst
has reduced
why?
because i do not take the initiative to love God and feel His love.
yes Lord
pls guide me!

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ish
stupid mosquitoes!!
they keep on wandering in my room!!
keep on targeting me!!!

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i missed the chance to meet up with him
which i should have
if i follow what my parents told me
stay there for awhile then leave
i should have listened to what they say
then
i ll be able to meet him
and then hor
this would make it two in 1 week
as in
ran into him by chance twice in a week!!
how lucky i would be if this is real:P
ish!!
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still
i dunno whats his name
though he did wear the name tag
though he just stood besides me
though i did have the chance to look at his name tag
though we chatted
ish!!
haha
wonder if he still remember my name:P

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i should really work hard
and try to adjust my time
and
be more prepared when school starts

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actually
i dont like ppl to know that i m actually studying medicine
dunno why
i have this feeling
ppl kind of like to see how high your IQ is
since you are studying medicine
i somehow feel that they are judging you
whether you are fit to be a doctor or not
and
there is another reason
nowadays
there are thousands of ppl
who are applying for medicine course
which makes doctor sounds so cheap (sorry for that word)
you study medicine ah
ooo icic (OS: cheh nowadays so many ppl study medicine lah)

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brother ah
pls lah
exchange your laptog bag with me lah
i dont want such a big laptop bag
i regretted buying a big one
is a burden to me
so can i change with you
WHAT
cannot ah
then sorry lor
i have to take it by force
no matter you like it or not:p
anyway
i think i can manage to persuade you
muahaha

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Run papa Run
is a nice movie
though
i dont like how they write the charecteristic of rene lee in this movie

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一磅的福音
it is a nice japanese drama
so far
i enjoy it very much!!

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i still haven picked up my czech language
i still haven started to learn german
what a waste!!

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just found out that
there is a guitar exsists in my house
thats a shocking news!!
i think i have figured out how to play a guitar
but too bad
i do not know how to tune it
and
thats why
whenever i m trying to play c major
it just doesnt sound like c major

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wanted to learn some recipe
so that i can cook sth new when i m back in prague
but too bad
all the recipe that i have read
meat are involved
i m lazy to cook anything which i have to deal with meat
so
what can i do?
i ll just stick to the old recipe:P

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wanted to make some cakes and cookies
but mum is not free
and buying all those ingredients
is a hassle for me
okay i know
i m a lazy bug:P

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i should go back to my high school
but
my parents they cant send me there

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i have decided not to watch
爱情占线
for no reason
though
i still like
霍建华！！
he is cute!!

phew
i feel better now:P

excited?

you know what
actually i m quite excited to go back to prague
despite the long queue that i need to do just to get my visa
despite that i actually have to make sure that i manage to register myself on the 29th at the foreign student office AND at the same day i have to get my visa (by God's grace)
despite that i ll have to study very very very hard once i get back in prague

yet
i am excited
cause i just cant wait to travel around europe

yeah!
xiang yan you are right
i regretted not travelling with you guys to poland
anyway
i have made my decision
no matter how
i m DETERMINED to go for a tour!!!!!!!so count me in for any backpacking around europe ( i ll make sure that i can make it by finishing all my exams in time:) )
gosh!!
what a waste!!
i wasted 1 year for not travelling around europe, ish!!

study to the max
but
enjoy to the max as well!!!!

我是猪！

天哪！！！

你难道连打招呼的勇气都没有吗？
只是一个微笑、一个招手
有很难吗？？

诶诶
你怎样都跟他相识一场
怎样也算一起并肩作战过
干吗这么害羞？？
又不是没有交谈过！！！

天哪！！！

就算你对他又一点好感
但是
你知道一个在东， 一个在西
所以
是不可能的
那、那、那
你到底在害羞些什么！！！

你明明看到人家了
人家也明明看到你了
干吗啊你！！！

人家会以为你摆架子的啦！！！！

唉！！！
真拿你没辙！！

其实
我也没那么激动了
但是想到刚才
我好是很气我自己！！

都已经20岁了！！
再闹什么别扭啊！

看来
我还是老样子
呵呵！！

对有好感的异性
还是采取不理不睬的态度。

唉
不是我不睬
而是、而是
我
我
我怕会露馅嘛:p
而且
人家害羞嘛 （我呕！！！！）

你在那边
跟人家害羞个什么劲啊！！！

结论
我是猪！！

对了
这次
他、不、是、眼、镜、佬！！！
奇怪:P

one world, one dream? does malaysia realise that?

one world, one dream

the slogan of the 2008 Beijing Olympic

we,
Malaysia has participated in this event as well

BUT

does that mean that Malaysians especially politicians
they have agreed with the slogan??

one world, one dream

for malaysia
one nation, one dream

that would be enough for now
i DARE not ask for more

wake up!!!
we are all Malaysians!!!
since when you guys are going to stop playing all these dirty tricks!!!!!

think about the future
think about nation
think about the world

WE ARE NOW COMPETING with THE WORLD!!!!
we are not competing with one another

the world
looks we as MALAYSIANS!!!

they dont care whether you are malay, chinese or indian!!!
to them is the same

to them
we are just MALAYSIANS!!!!

so could you just stop that????

we should learn from the history
we should respect history

we (malays, chinese and indians)
together
we fight for the independence of Malaysia!!!

do you know what does that mean??

that means we care for the NATION!!!!!

our true identity
in the world
is MALAYSIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do you realise that???

is not about malay
is not about chinese
is not about indian
is not about orang asli

is about MALAYSIAN!!!!!

POLITICIANS!!!

DO YOU GET IT!!!!

is a shame that
after all these years
you still dont get the point!!!

immigrants??

we WERE immigrants hundred years ago

but

we ARE not now!!!

what?
what?
what did you say??

we do not deserve the rights that we are having them right now??

oh
it is soooo funny!!!!

i have been thinking

okay is fine since you said that it is a fact which you are trying to tell

can i know whats your motive??
what we should looking now is
how to unite the nation
51 years of independence
yet
race card
is still what politicians and leaders been playing all this while
no wonder
malaysia is still a developing country!!
i believe years later
we ll remain the same
if the leaders remain the same attitude!!

eh eh
come on lah

if your scope is still so narrow
if all those leaders had such narrow thinking

i wonder ll malaysia progress?

we
raised up as a malaysian
educated as a malaysian

and now
this is what you are trying to tell the world??
chinese are immigrants??
what msg are you trying to convey??

seriously
i have lost my hope in malaysia
i do not see any future in malaysia

you cannot blame those who have decided to migrate to other country
cause
they have lost their hopes!!

dark ages
i would say
this is the era that malaysia is having it right now.

sigh!!

i can say
all malaysians are now in a desperate state
just look at the results that BN has obtained on the 8th of march

oi
politicians!!! (so to say gov)
have you heard our voice??
the results has shown how desperate the ppl are!!
disappointment is what we have right now!

i love malaysia
it is really a beautiful country
it is really a nice place to stay
despite the political issue that we are having it right now.

but
now i really have to think about it
with such leaders and politicians
can malaysia be considered as a beautiful country??

i m now trying to convince myself
there is hope in malaysia:)

废话连篇

好的，
我又要废话一番！
请原谅我，
因为我实在是太无聊了:P

昨天，
看了地下铁（林心如与霍建华主演的）。

故事
太烂了！！！
因为，他们爱的死去活来，
到最后，
霍建华竟然

死了！！！！！！（我晕！！！）

我就在那边想，
如果你心爱的人在你们相爱得浓烈时，突然永远离开你（就是去世的意思啦！），
你会怎办？

意思是
你会把心永远只留给他/她
抑或着是不排除你会爱上另一个人的可能？？

但是，
我又觉得，
怎么可以这样呢？
若你心爱的人没有离开你，
你们可是会厮守一辈子的啊！
所以，这代表你心属他/她一辈子的啊！
怎么可以因为离开了
把心交给别人呢？

你明白吗？
我的意思是
不可以因为在你身边
才把心永远给他/她
离开了
心也因时间的冲淡
而
慢慢的离他/她越来越远。

嗯，
不知道耶。
总觉得，
因为心爱的人离开了
而爱上另一个人 （当然不是马上,书中常常都会说当事人会在一开始排斥对方，但是却在不知不觉中爱上他/她。然后，经过一段争扎，才会接受对方。）
*以前的我，若是看到如此的剧情，我都会骂当事人很笨！人都死了，赶快接受对方吧！*
*但是，现在想想， 话不能这么说， 如果他们之前是爱的死去活来的，仍谁都不会这样轻易接受另一段感情吧!*
*我想如果是我，我可能不会接受吧！会一辈子坚守当初的诺言！（渍渍渍，说到酱，好像我有过轰轰烈烈的恋爱经验酱）*
*当然，我不希望酱的事情发生在我身上！！（呸呸呸）
话说回来，
我觉得
这样有点怪怪的。

废话在此打住！:P

哦，对了
我讨厌悲剧！！准确地说，我讨厌以悲剧为结尾的剧情！！
天哪！！
爱到死去活来后，好不容易在一起，
然后，
主角最后因为某些原因死去！
我看到酱的剧情，
我气到想骂粗话
他XX的!（请原谅我:P)

哇！废话连篇后，感到十分舒服（说的恶心一点的话，就是所谓的通体舒畅！！！！）
哈哈！

range:)

warning!!! you have now entered my territory!!just by reading this will make you vomit!!so do not say that i didnt warn you b4 you read this!!










yes..this is what i mean

the RANGE!!

anyway

as i was sitting on the couch just now
i just realised
hollywood guys have never been my favourite:P

so what does that mean??

means

i like asian more so to say CHINESE lah
(though sometimes i do not deny that guai lou has their own charisma? not in term of the how good looking they are compare to asian*you un lah* this is what asian does not have it)

YET

i still prefer asian

ps: pls kindly ignore me as i m too free to write such lame entry

here comes another master piece due to my boredom:

pps: what has inspired me to write this down?

i have always wanted a mixed-race child
mix with ang moh is the best LOLZ
cause
mixed-race babies usually they are adorable and cute andthey are either good looking or pretty
you know lah
i m considering my children future mah
so
in order to make sure that they have good features
my solution
marry to an ang moh!!!
thats the best way as in to ensure that my children really have the best features!! *ehem*

and was watching a show just now
introducing all mixed-race children
then
i think about this topic

ta - dah

this is my conclusion
i was talking to myself
"you know what?i think you prefer chinese lah. see all those stars that you have been crazy about them b4 they are all chinese!!see see? so i think you prefer asian's features lah."

"hmmm true also. but then hor, having a mixed race baby is still in my to-do list wor. so how ah?"

"like this ah? i tell you, if you are not getting married and you are considering as in whether you should adopt a child or not...by that time, if you really want to adopt one, adopt a mixed-race one lah or you adopt an ang moh kia better still!!"

"hmmm...can also, can also."

okay
this sounds stupid + idiot

anyway
this is just my wild dream
OKAY?

again!!i m talking crap!!

*ang moh means 洋佬
* ang moh kia means 洋佬小孩

其中一首

最近，
无所事事，直瞪眼前的电视荧幕
瞪啊瞪
瞪出了一部正在astro热播的一部戏

爱情占线：）

才发现，其实我蛮喜欢霍建华的嘛:P
嘿嘿！我会追看这部剧多半的原因是因为他。

他，
真得蛮适合演戏的。

我喜欢看他演戏，
仅此而已。

不相信？
我自己也不相信。
哈哈！
以我花痴的程度，疯狂的程度应该不仅于此吧！

但是，
我确实只是喜欢看他演戏。
看他演戏，
心里感到很踏实。 （哇！有酱夸吗？！）

其实，
我的重点不是这个。 （离题了）

一个人的抒情歌
这部戏的主题曲
我、喜、 欢！

不为什么，
跟以往一样
只要任何歌的旋律是这样的调
我都喜欢！

这，
证明了
我是真的喜欢苦哈哈的歌。：P

韩雪-一个人的抒情歌-歌词

一阵轻柔的旋律
又让我想起了你
在这无声黑夜里
倾听寂静躲进回忆
也不能够诉说忧郁
这街灯如此熟悉
握着暖暖的围巾
只是身边没了你
呼吸着冰冷的空气
一瞬间就要窒息
散场了我是哪个角色
说过了什么
有没有人会记得
空荡的房间
断了发条的音乐盒
一个人的抒情歌
剩空气陪我唱和
真心却不懂你所谓
爱情的规则
一阵轻柔的旋律
又让我想起了你
在这无声黑夜里
倾听寂静躲进回忆
也不能够诉说忧郁
这街灯如此熟悉
握着暖暖的围巾
只是身边没了你
呼吸着冰冷的空气
一瞬间就要窒息
泪干了留下爱的颜色
寂寞崩溃了
思念停住这一刻
爱情是苦涩
是最甜蜜的负荷
离开却是你的选择
散场了我是哪个角色
说过了什么
有没有人会记得
空荡的房间
断了发条的音乐盒
一个人的抒情歌
剩空气陪我唱和
真心却不懂 oh
爱情的规则

a fresh start eh?

ehem

i still remembered
on the 1st of sept
i declared to the world?! firmly (eheh)
that
i m going to do the studying starts from the 2nd

but

eheheh

this VOW?
i just realised it on the 5th!!
i just flipped through some pages of my czech language text book few minutes ago:P


nvm lah hor
at least is a good start *blek*

we ll see how it goes

hopefully i ll bring some good news on my latest progression as in how many pages i have glanced through *neh*

随笔

喜欢
轻松、搞笑、浪漫、温馨、幸福洋溢的故事

喜欢
悲伤、旋律优美、舒服、轻快的曲子

喜欢
让泪水能在眼眶打转、心情郁闷、引人深思的真人真事

不喜欢
看到年迈老人为生活忙碌

不喜欢
看到四肢残缺的乞丐被人唾弃

不喜欢
看到干巴巴的老三轮车夫吃力的为三餐而向前踩

不喜欢
看到生病中的老人


奇怪的我
喜欢把自己关起来，聆听悲伤的歌曲
却不喜欢。。。
看到一幕幕老人为生活奔波而劳累的情景及他们的心情

这算不算是鸵鸟式的做法？

不懂
为何突然有感而发。
只是
随笔而写下的零落感想:)

a fresh start

after 3 months break
without touching all those so-gonna-make-me-headache books
without thinking things that i have learnt in the past 1 year

yes!
i have had enough my break (seriously)
so
2/9 a fresh start
at least i hope i ll FLIP through the pages that i m supposed to when school starts:P

my brain is rusted
tibial nerve, hippocampus, leucocytes, vy, ty, dobry den and blah blah blah
i couldnt recall them spontaneously
and that makes me feel guilty

then

i started to think
oh my goodness
what if this happened at the operating theater!!
what if this happened in front of my patients!!
NO!! NO!!

this is SOOOO NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!

then

i started to wonder
i started to be very ambitious
thinking
i must be that kind of person
you know lah
very science related person
must read this lah
must read that lah
must know this lah
must know that lah
must be more intellectual lah
must be more professional lah (at least i should sound more professional heh?)

then

my wild dream still goes on
i must read more books lah besides medical text books
i must improve my general knowledge lah
i must learn other languages lah besides mandarin, malay, english and czech


anyway
i have always wished that i can have the so called
scientist look
philosopher look
researcher look
aiyah to be simple
i hope to be......
those ppl who always like to do critical thinking and concern about the world progression more than anything
and
be the person
who seems to know everything from the field in which he is in.
every single word that he says ll be taken as advice ( to be precise they treat his words like GOLD!!!!lol)

wookay
that seems to be a mission impossible

and

i have drag the topic too far:p

anyway
a fresh start
determination
desire
passion
hardwork
i need those back

be the best and rock the world!!!

ps:i dunno how to carry all my stuffs back to czech
pps: i m worried about my visa
ppps: feeling headache when i think about the lining-up-thingy that i have to do

i am looking forward to my next summer holidays

thats why

work hard!!will ya!!!!

in case you are confused and got all mixed up and have the idea that i m going back to czech on the very next day
here comes my clarification to clear your doubt
my last day in malaysia is on the 27th of sept