a fresh start

after 3 months break
without touching all those so-gonna-make-me-headache books
without thinking things that i have learnt in the past 1 year

yes!
i have had enough my break (seriously)
so
2/9 a fresh start
at least i hope i ll FLIP through the pages that i m supposed to when school starts:P

my brain is rusted
tibial nerve, hippocampus, leucocytes, vy, ty, dobry den and blah blah blah
i couldnt recall them spontaneously
and that makes me feel guilty

then

i started to think
oh my goodness
what if this happened at the operating theater!!
what if this happened in front of my patients!!
NO!! NO!!

this is SOOOO NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!

then

i started to wonder
i started to be very ambitious
thinking
i must be that kind of person
you know lah
very science related person
must read this lah
must read that lah
must know this lah
must know that lah
must be more intellectual lah
must be more professional lah (at least i should sound more professional heh?)

then

my wild dream still goes on
i must read more books lah besides medical text books
i must improve my general knowledge lah
i must learn other languages lah besides mandarin, malay, english and czech


anyway
i have always wished that i can have the so called
scientist look
philosopher look
researcher look
aiyah to be simple
i hope to be......
those ppl who always like to do critical thinking and concern about the world progression more than anything
and
be the person
who seems to know everything from the field in which he is in.
every single word that he says ll be taken as advice ( to be precise they treat his words like GOLD!!!!lol)

wookay
that seems to be a mission impossible

and

i have drag the topic too far:p

anyway
a fresh start
determination
desire
passion
hardwork
i need those back

be the best and rock the world!!!

ps:i dunno how to carry all my stuffs back to czech
pps: i m worried about my visa
ppps: feeling headache when i think about the lining-up-thingy that i have to do

i am looking forward to my next summer holidays

thats why

work hard!!will ya!!!!

in case you are confused and got all mixed up and have the idea that i m going back to czech on the very next day
here comes my clarification to clear your doubt
my last day in malaysia is on the 27th of sept