garhhhhh!!!

okay
i had a break like 5 hours!!!!
=.=
ll start my revision once i m done with this =.=
anyway
just some random crap
pls bear with me
(my advise is dont read!!) =P

i always find that he looks the ugliest and so worried about his popularity since he is so ugly
but dont ask me why
i like him though i find him ugly
anyway
i just found out that he is a CHRISTIAN!!!! *grin grin grin*
Lord pls guide him so that he ll stop smoking (not sure whether he has really quited smoking or not)
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one out
the other in
should i grieve
or should i feel happy?

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this coming thursday
my greatest wish is to wish him happy birthday in person
but i couldnt
TT^TT
cant even give him a card
just hope that he ll receive my wishes and blessings which come all the way from prague for him no matter where he ll be on that day
just checked the distance btw us is 8241km @ 8905km!!
thats the nearest
the furthest is more than 10000km T_T

nonetheless
i hope you hear this:

pls!!! i demand you to EAT more!!!
do you know that you are so skinny and look so exhausted?
i m so scared that you might fall sick or maybe get infected by some severe disease
i ll cry until the whole prague flooded by my tears if this really happen *cross my fingers and ll pray for you*

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it really amazed me that how mature you can be some time
you have your own future planning
you have your own thinking
you care so much for your family
but me
i m still like a little baby
you show so much of you passion in fulfilling your dreams
me?
how much passion have i shown to my dream
the knowledge that is needed for my future patients
i take it as a burden
T_T
i wish i can at least be like you
being so determined
at the meantime
i pray that God will strengthen me
and guide me throughout this whole journey!
so as you
keep on trusting Him =)

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a card
i still owe you
i hope the card will reach you soon!!
sorry ya
since i am busy and couldnt get you a card and send it to you on time (as in during your birthday)
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sooner or later i ll be having delusion
as in
the ppl around me
they have been ehem
telling me the 1% ( or maybe lesser than that) possibility
and i started to consider it
anyway
i dont guarantee that i ll still stay the same if i really meet him in person
to be frank
i kind of scared to meet him
i dunno why
maybe because i know what he wants, what he thinks, whats his aims etc
and that scared me
=.=
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okay stop that crap
get back to my book

PS: believe it or not
this is the first time that i stay up so late (as i slept at 830pm consecutively for the past 4 days!!!!)

^^Y

CreBeau-Kiss

(135-010) 서올 강남구 논헌동

241-3 SK 허브블쿠 505호

this took me like an hour to figure out!!!!
the process of how i get those words are kind of complicated
luckily finally i figured it out!!
i typed those words on my own!!!
anyway
ahahaha
there is a story behind this address (or there will be a story behind this address!!)
i hope is a happy ending!! ^^

O O
O

*brick myself*
go back to book la duh!!!

爸爸妈妈说不要喜欢朴有天

爸爸妈妈说不要喜欢朴有天 !!!!



妈妈说太清纯的男人是天使...他有一双隐形的翅膀...
偷走了你的心...却随时随地会飞走...

妈妈说清纯的男人会让你饮泉般甘甜...却如毒药般欲罢不能！！
远离毒品...健康人生...

爸爸说性感的男人是香水。。。。散发着迷人的味道。。。
勾引你的欲望。。。一步步扼杀你的纯洁。。

爸爸说性感的男人黑色般迷惑众生。。
黑洞很大很深。。一失足便跌入万丈深渊。。。

妈妈说可爱的男人是宝贝。。。他会撒娇发嗲。。
弄的心酥酥麻麻。。。却想虐人！想虐死他。。。。

妈妈说可爱的男人像糖糖一样甜美可口。。。却沾牙？！
我们的目标是没有蛀牙。。

爸爸说百变的男人是彩虹。。他有七种颜色的光芒。。
愉悦你的心情。。却有着七色障。。你会死在每一色中。。

爸爸说百变的男人如幻灯一样五彩缤纷。。却摸不透他的心。。
。。男人心。。海底针。。

妈妈说哭泣的男人是受伤的猫咪。。。。惹人疼的直想抚摩他。。。。
他的毛发很温顺。。。。却温顺的善良的不想吃老鼠。。。

妈妈说哭泣的男人像飘雪般伤感。。。。
一不留神。。你会抑郁而死。。

爸爸说有才华的男人是太阳。。。。光芒万丈。。。
射的你眼睛昏花。。。。头冒金星。。。

爸爸说有才华的男人如星光般闪烁。。。却使你忘了其他生物的存在
这样会练成目不转睛。。严重者会导致死鱼眼

妈妈说帅气的男人是杀手。。。。他会描中目标一枪毙命
也会慢慢的置你于死地。。。

说帅气的男人像油画般精致。。。。。
瞧着。。心跳加速。。呼吸急促。。偶尔出现晕厥极限。。

爸爸说认真的男人是雕塑。。。。静态中神奇的SHOCK到你的心房。。
懊恼你喜欢木头人。。山上有个木头人。。

说认真的男人像高山般伟岸。。。。。
有爬山的冲动。。。。冲动是魔鬼。。。。

妈妈说美丽的男人是花朵。。。。娇艳欲滴的惹人采摘。。。
惊谔的发现传说中的踩花大盗原来是自己！！！

说美丽的男人像洋娃娃般梦幻
太美丽。。自卑导致逃避现实。。严重者怀疑自身女儿身的精神衰弱现 象

爸爸说高贵的男人是名酒。。。一滴入口醉入君怀。。
头脑发胀的醉生梦死。。。。颠倒白天黑夜。。。

说高贵的男人像假面王子般神秘。。。
不自觉的仰视他。。导致颈椎酸痛。。

妈妈说狂野的男人是魔鬼。。。刺激鬼魅。。
噬着你的心脏。。一点一滴被他勾去。。

说狂野的男人像海洋。。。波涛汹涌。。
内心翻滚翻滚。。。没有一刻平静。。。。

截至micky天吧。
一篇奇文！！！ XD

smile =)

both of you just make me smile =)
the sweetest and most adorable friendship that i have ever seen =)

~cant stop smiling~

go dolphin!!
change the sleepy polar bear!

ps: pojedu k doktorovi na kontrolu v 6 hodin 30 minut rano ve dejvicka!!!!!!! velky(?) daleko!!!!!!!!!!!!!! musim pojedu metrem beckem potom pojedu metrem ackem potom pojdu asi 20 minut to reach that stupid dental clinic!! (sorry zapomela cezky protoze napsala testy minuly tyden. )

my short term memory work way better than any other kind of memory
=.=


ps: happy birthday in 1 week time =)
sorry that i couldnt send you a card
hope that you will recieve my blessings and wishes from prague (a country which you have been to b4 =P)

God is good!! indeed He is!!

i just have to write down how amazing God is!!

1st. I passed my credit test for biochem
(really by God grace, the teacher somehow decided to let me have the credit!! Praise the Lord!)

2nd. met a good dentist (an old lady) she was so kind!!!! directed me straight away to the other dentist for surgery and lend me a map so that i would not get lost! =) yeah without the map i wont be able to get my tooth extracted!( to be precised is surgically removed not just the usual tooth extraction)

3rd. finally my problem-causing wisdom tooth has been surgically removed!! (you wouldnt want to know the process how they removed it)
this tooth which has caused my mentality not stable and almost wanted to end my life on my birthday
yeah i was crying in my blanket at my birthday night and hitting my head so hard so that this stupid tooth ache and head ache can disappear!
having salonpas on my face to ease the pain
crying so hard during the weekend
meanwhile try to concentrate on my study
the whole half body is aching etc
anyway now is gone
what left me is a big whole in my mouth which is still bleeding and it is still painful and i couldnt open my mouth properly cos it hurts alot!
anyway God will take care of it =)


4th. passed my czech credit test (now left medical czech and physiology block test which are yet to be revealed very soon)

5th. clear up my mind about my exam dates! =) (God will definitely make a way for us! just keep on trusting Him!) though still worry but i ll do my best and leave the rest to Him! =)
yeah keep on trusting God ! =)

God is really good!! indeed He is good!!
His love is beyond our imagination!!
seeing how i responded to His love
yet
He has never given up on me ( He never give up every single lost sheep!)
and
keep on showering me His love!
what more shall i ask for! =)

a testimony should be written down to let you know how He has changed my life and made my day!! =)

He is the one and only!!
Through Him, eternal is in your hand!


seek His kingdom first, and the rest will be added upon you =)

marry you (super junior)

okay i hate to admit that i actually like some of the suju(short for super junior) songs
but i have to say
this song is nice
and is currently the top on my list!! =)

yoochun ah!! could you sing this for this??
i ll die of happiness if you ever sing this to me!!!! =)
*hug hubby XD*
anyway ahah they are back to korea again!!
have a good rest i know you are sick =)
hwaiting!!!

oh ya ahaha i still haven introduced what song is this
is Marry you by super junior
this ll be best played during wedding ceremony!!
the best is sang by the groom himself to his bride!!!!!!

yoochun ah!!
pls sing this to me
i ll totaly melt due to overdose of happiness
*day dreaming*

okay stop the crap and enjoy the song

ps: opps b4 you listen i just want to say why they couldnt keep this song for dbsk!!! let them sing ma instead of super junior!!! XD

tak!!! budu psat cestinu!!

budu psat cestinu na blog
ale nemuzu dobra cestina

tak
co napisu??

při blog
napsala jeden obraz

pro koho je ten??

aha!!!
jo jo jo

pro moje lasku
yoochun

yoochun narodil se 6 cervenu 1986
tak!
rozumite??
jeho narozeniny je tady za jeden mesic!!!!

tak
musim planovat co je darek pro přitela
a to je darek!!!
obraz s slovnik!!!
zajimavy slovnik!!!
inspirujici slovnik!!!!

on je skaladatel
on potřebuje inspiraci!!!!

To je důvod, proč udelala obraz pro yoochuna!!!

tak!!
to je fajn
myslim že nerozumite co napsala

to je neni problem
protoze
potřebujete nerozumite nic!!
rozumim je fajn =)

to je vsechno!!
cau !!!

lolz!!
i was thinking that i should write in czech
but the words that i know are very extremely limited!!!
well we ll see how it goes =)

erm..

watcha think??
yea my friend said that this looks like a brochure
an encouraging brochure specially for those who feel so badly to commit suicide
aha!!
ya kind of agree XD

ps: as if i m very free Zzzzzzzzzzzz
*hit myself with brick!!!!*

what a weird day

today is the weirdest day ever
hmmm cant tell you how weird it is

3 more weeks
a kick off for finals!!!

anyway
i m a total failure
cant express it as well
is too complicated to explain

totally disappointed with myself


Dear Lord
Pls strengthen me
from all aspects
i m weak
in all aspects
little in faith
hard to explain
You know me the best
pls supply my needs
pls help me to fix my eyes on You
determination is what i needed

Dear Lord
I must have disappointed You
but pls dont forsake me
You are the only person i can cling on
besides my family members

Dear Lord
Keep me close to You!!!


ps: pa and ma i will try my best to keep up the hopes that you have on me

pps: finally the techno music has faded away.still cant figure out from where the sounds originated. look out from my windows..all i can see is ppl who are waiting for their tram anc cant find the source of the noise. perhaps not. my ears still can detect the techno music!! GOSH!!! dont tell me that they are having some kind of party at the park!!!! SWT =.=

ppps: just realized how uncovenient it is for ppl who have small hands when it comes to peeling off the papaya skin. it just happened on me. i just peeled of a papaya. and my hand almost cramped cos i used too much of force to "grip" the papaya so that it wont fall.

this has really made my day!!! =)

owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!

they are WAY TOO ADORABLE
especially YOOOOOOCHUUUUUN!!!!!!!!!!

i just keep on smiling throughout the whole cf!!!!!
how can you not smile while watching this clip

they are really too cute!!!
of course YOOOOOCHUUUUUN is the cutest with the most charming smile!!!!!! =)

anyway i find the ending part is kind of scary
you ll know why if you watch it
nonetheless!!
another CUUUUUTE cf!!!!

waiting for other version from the rest of the members
(though i sincerely hope that theirs wont be as nice as yoochun*opps!! did i just say that =P*

PS: it does not fail to make me smile despite the fact that i have actually watched it for at least more than TEN times!!! =)
*humming the commercial songs*

present from malaysia=)

the card from my mama and papa touches me the most!!!!
it says for a great daughter T_T
i ll work harder
to make you both proud of having me as your daughter
thank you papa mama
love you 2!!

anyway there is no need of word to describe my present
the pictures speak for themselves XD

check list =P ( yoochun's ideal gf)

b4 i off my laptop
i would like to share this XD

yoochun's ideal girl:
1. a girl who looks sexy when dressed up and looks pure when not----> no idea
2. love to flirt in a cute way----> *scratch head*
3. lively----> does noisy count??
4. have beautiful body figure and face----> totally out of the list
5. confident and cool---> i m clumsy again OUT!! T_T
6. a straightforward character which love to play ----> i m not very straight forward but i like to play la XD (anyway dont really understand what does he mean by this)
7. have beautiful neck line ---> not sure whether i have one but i m sure i have fats somewhere along the neck line!!XD
8. a woman who ll take care of him like his mum----> this one dont worry!! i can assure you i ll take care you as if i m your biological mum XD
9. healthy----> swt healthy?? huh got ppl like unhealthy partner one meh??
10. good in dancing----> i can swing here and there is this counted??
11. serious when doing her own things------> i m =D
12. understanding-----> i m =D
13. good hair quality-----> erm i only use shampoo and my hair looks okay..so i think if i take good care of it..it ll look better!! so yeah the "QUALITY" of my hair is GOOD XD
14. has a sense of humour-------> well sort of =P
15. feminine yet adorable---------> feminine??er..er..er..
16. dislike girl who use vulgar words-----> well i dont use it and i dislike ppl say that as well =)

conclusion: kind of OUT OF THE LIST!!! T_T XD
*run away and cry at a corner*

hmmm i have read through the rest of the members
more or less their ideal type of girl is the same
have to be pretty, good in dancing, singing, sense of humor etc
swt=.=
they ll end up dating the same girl AHAHAH XD

三条线的事

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定要让妈妈知道，
因为妈妈是最爱你的人，而你也深爱着他。
一个很近一个很远，而你是将两个无关联的生命体糅合于同一空间的凝结点。
告诉她，你很喜欢他，甚至爱他，也许不被理解，就算不理解，也落得个心安。
不需要太刻意太直接，可以是个简单的暗示——妈妈，看，觉得他怎样？是很棒的一位歌手哦。
让心爱的他若有若无自然而然的在亲爱的妈妈眼里浮光掠影而过，留下片刻印象。

这是我几天前我分享的文字。



天啊！
想不到，今天我竟然实践了这件事！！！
=.=
老妈子还问 huh mickey mouse??
啊哈哈！！！！
她还误以为他是日本人，
然后她提醒我小时的我不喜欢日本人=.=
我还真的没有印象，不知老妈有没有唬弄我？

天啊！！
啊哈哈！我跟老妈说
他是韩国人啦！

总而言之，我对于我这个举动，是还蛮三条线的XD

ps: 燕丽找到她的归属了！！而且真的是很好的对象！！啊哈哈！替她感到高兴的同时，却有一丝的落寞XD
啊！我的要求不高啊！只要对我好，本性善良就够了。
其实，也还好啦，嘴上虽然嚷嚷着，但是却还习惯了现在的生活。
无法想象，我的生活，还需为另一位他的事情而烦恼 XD
总而言之，替她高兴！！

PPS: study !! study!! study!!!

... ... ...

a week is gone like this *sob*

the target that i have set for myself this week,
i just hit 30% (maybe lesser) T_T

have to work harder
have to focus
have to use my time wisely!!!!

Lord pls guide me as i m preparing my finals
You know what i need for=)

For Your sake and for Your glory

*sleepy+yawning*

i must persevere
sleepy bug pls go away!!!

分享

他是你感知世界里无可取代的全部，但他也是你未知世界里永无交集的一点。

他在那个最绚烂的舞台，光华交汇，歌舞升平，绝世华丽；
而你在最普通的街头，行色匆匆，人头涌动。

两点之间的距离仅仅是思念，别无其他，仿佛触手可及，却遥不可及。

全文（撰之 蔡康永）：

【蔡康永】如果你喜欢了一位偶像

如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定要去看一场他的演唱会，
亲自去，要亲眼看看他，好好看看他。
因为舞台上的生命可能持续很久，也可能转瞬即逝。你不知道他是属于哪一种。
你无法预测那发光发热的时间究竟还有多少，你猜不到下一秒他会消失到哪里去。
你什么都不知道，什么都无法把握，
他是你感知世界里无可取代的全部，但他也是你未知世界里永无交集的一点。

　　
如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定要让妈妈知道，
因为妈妈是最爱你的人，而你也深爱着他。
一个很近一个很远，而你是将两个无关联的生命体糅合于同一空间的凝结点。
告诉她，你很喜欢他，甚至爱他，也许不被理解，就算不理解，也落得个心安。
不需要太刻意太直接，可以是个简单的暗示——妈妈，看，觉得他怎样？是很棒的一位歌手哦。
让心爱的他若有若无自然而然的在亲爱的妈妈眼里浮光掠影而过，留下片刻印象。


如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定要为他写一些文字，
不追求华美，不强求确凿，
只要轻省记录你所有的思念与颤栗，所有的真实与感悟，所有的明媚与忧伤。
爱如水一般蔓延，浸过你的神经，划过你的指尖，温柔地抚过你敏感的心。
多多少少也要写点关于他的文字，零零碎碎记下自己的心路历程，
别让心情在岁月中灰飞烟灭，云消雾散。
不求深刻，但求简单，记下活在你的世界中的他。


如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定认真地喊一遍他的名字，
用含糊的、哽咽的、明朗的、虔诚的、温柔的、宠溺的声音。
在每一个平常的日子里，在每一个心慌意乱的瞬间，
在每一个患得患失的叹息间，在每一个幸福感动的晕眩间，
在每一个想念他的夜晚，轻轻喊他的名字，
认真地发好每一个音调，屏住呼吸读出，
一个念头升起又落下，道出刻骨铭心的覆水难收。


如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请一定为了他更好地学会生活。
那个已经慢慢渗入你生活点滴的男孩子，
那个使你常常热泪盈眶的男孩子，
那个笑容干净而甜美的男孩子，
那个无论如何长大你始终只愿叫他孩子的男孩子。
你再最美丽的时刻遇见了那个最优秀的男子，但是上帝没有让你们彼此相遇。
他在那个最绚烂的舞台，光华交汇，歌舞升平，绝世华丽；
而你在最普通的街头，行色匆匆，人头涌动。


两点之间的距离仅仅是思念，别无其他，仿佛触手可及，却遥不可及。
如果你爱他，请你也为他好好寻找自己生活的支点，
不要为他迷失了既定的轨道，
关掉电脑的片刻回归平静，担当起原来的角色，从哪里来到哪里去。
因为你深爱的他是一个如此心高气傲的人，
他用力诠释着自己的不甘心，用力将自己最好的一面展现，　所以你也用尽全力爱着他。
因为爱他就等于爱着你自己，爱着因为他而变得更加温柔的自己，
爱他，是本性，是注定，是天然。


要对得起自己的人生，就要尽量给别人的人生添加美好的成分，
拼命地挽留自己遇到的美好的东西，拼命挽留。
他一样，你也如此

他写得有点夸张（本人认为啦）！
他所说的那么多点例如介绍给老妈认识、呼喊他的名字、记录我对他的思念等等等，
本人都没有做！
啊哈哈，你们应该庆幸我是正常的。=P
我只认同第一段，艺人的演艺生涯及其短暂，宛如流星，瞬间陨落，消逝。
啊哈哈！这也就是为什么我希望能去观赏他们的演唱会的原因。
因为，他们的演艺寿命不会持续太久（不是在咒他们啦，但是是千真万确的事实）
所以，趁他们还发光发热时，我想用我的双眼去纪录他们的成功，见证我的成长（毕竟喜欢他，应该给自己有个交待嘛）。

upset

hmmm
i just simply feel upset
for no reason
or ehem
to be precised
for tonnes of inny minni mo reason(those tiny reasons)

plus

1) physio block test (next friday)
2) czech credit test ( 18th of may)
3) biochem pratical test ( 1/6)
4) medical czech credit test ( 26/5)
5) physio final ( my progression is just like a snail)
6) biochem final (haven started yet)

sad sad sad
should have worked harder since the sem starts !! aiks no point of regretting now T_T

ahaha
okie la
feel better now
annyeokahsehyo!!
AJA AJA HWAITING!!!
study study study

"打破二奶的宿命！！！！"

for His sake and for His glory!!

ps: thank you Lord for being my gurdian throughout the whole day and pls continue to guide me through the rest of the day and the rest of my life!! =)

pps: Junsu pls get well soon!! and yoochun pls take care of yourself!!

warning!! DO NOT READ IT =P MUAHAHA

WARNING!!!
if you choose to read this post,
any harmful effect that you might have after reading
i will not responsible for it =P

this morning
i got this kind of photoshop'ed' photo from leepeng
and i was so happy =)
thanks leepeng!!
dont we look match *winks*
we are meant to be together
AHAHAHAHAHA
*day dreaming* =P

thank you daddy!!!

ahaha finally!!!

my dad has fulfilled his promise that he made with me 3 weeks ago =P
(just left the part which is how he is going to post it to me =P)

anyway
he bought
3 micky's posters for me!!!!!!!!! and is RM12 ( i told him that i dont want group poster, sorry ah junsu, changmin, yunho, jaejoong >.<) aiya should have asked him to buy a dozen lar since the price is kind of reasonable!=P
ahahah
but then right he answered me sth cool during the phone call

i asked him to make sure he choose those posters which micky looks good in it (actually i like him no matter how he looks but still have to choose the best one mar>.<)
he said
but he looks ugly to me how am i supposed to choose one which he looks good in it
it is only you who think he is good looking
=.=
hana hana so ?? =P

and he bought me stickers as well!!

muacks
love you daddy!!!!
and mummy as well
(though i guess my mum ll be asking huh why are you buying her this who is he?? well at least she didnt object it right ? ^^)

those posters ll be my birthday present!!!! ahahaha
i m looking forward to my birthday
though it means that exam is approaching as well (AIKS!!!!!)

BUT BUT BUT
there is really 1 problem left
how is he going to post it to me
fold it? (NOOOOOOO!!!!)
roll it? (huh then how to post wor??)

aiks i think he ll fold it (actually i ask him to do so)

anyway
ahahaha
my room
my room
ll be micky-mised (haha simply cojugate word=P)
so SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!

will take a picture of my room when i m done with it HIHI!!!!!