garhhhhh!!!

okay
i had a break like 5 hours!!!!
=.=
ll start my revision once i m done with this =.=
anyway
just some random crap
pls bear with me
(my advise is dont read!!) =P

i always find that he looks the ugliest and so worried about his popularity since he is so ugly
but dont ask me why
i like him though i find him ugly
anyway
i just found out that he is a CHRISTIAN!!!! *grin grin grin*
Lord pls guide him so that he ll stop smoking (not sure whether he has really quited smoking or not)
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one out
the other in
should i grieve
or should i feel happy?

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this coming thursday
my greatest wish is to wish him happy birthday in person
but i couldnt
TT^TT
cant even give him a card
just hope that he ll receive my wishes and blessings which come all the way from prague for him no matter where he ll be on that day
just checked the distance btw us is 8241km @ 8905km!!
thats the nearest
the furthest is more than 10000km T_T

nonetheless
i hope you hear this:

pls!!! i demand you to EAT more!!!
do you know that you are so skinny and look so exhausted?
i m so scared that you might fall sick or maybe get infected by some severe disease
i ll cry until the whole prague flooded by my tears if this really happen *cross my fingers and ll pray for you*

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it really amazed me that how mature you can be some time
you have your own future planning
you have your own thinking
you care so much for your family
but me
i m still like a little baby
you show so much of you passion in fulfilling your dreams
me?
how much passion have i shown to my dream
the knowledge that is needed for my future patients
i take it as a burden
T_T
i wish i can at least be like you
being so determined
at the meantime
i pray that God will strengthen me
and guide me throughout this whole journey!
so as you
keep on trusting Him =)

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a card
i still owe you
i hope the card will reach you soon!!
sorry ya
since i am busy and couldnt get you a card and send it to you on time (as in during your birthday)
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sooner or later i ll be having delusion
as in
the ppl around me
they have been ehem
telling me the 1% ( or maybe lesser than that) possibility
and i started to consider it
anyway
i dont guarantee that i ll still stay the same if i really meet him in person
to be frank
i kind of scared to meet him
i dunno why
maybe because i know what he wants, what he thinks, whats his aims etc
and that scared me
=.=
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okay stop that crap
get back to my book

PS: believe it or not
this is the first time that i stay up so late (as i slept at 830pm consecutively for the past 4 days!!!!)