when..

when you are too free
(i m not saying that i m super free right now, is just that i havent yet felt the stress of the new sem,and yeah so to say i m kinda free at the moment)

anyway
when such time comes,
i ll feel lonely and the over whelming emptiness is all over the place
and thats the time
when my self-reflecting session starts
(thats how i used to call it, as it sounds nicer than dreaming etc)

well
you see
my self-reflecting session mainly consists of these questions
1)hmm..wouldnt it be better if there is someone whom you can share your feelings with especially at moment like such?
2) should i go out and have some fresh air? BUT there is no place for a lone ranger like me. In the end i ll stay at my room forever and start my self-reflecting session.
3) am i too ambitious? am i being too picky? come to think of that, i m already 21 years old!! hmmm not to say that i m old but is about time to plan about my future (ehem as in the future which consists of FUTURE family XD)

yeah! so mainly when i m not preoccupied with my study, all these stuffs will pop out and they will stay untill when the stress and pressure come back to me again. By that time, i ll relieve and feel somewhat happy that i m all on my own since time is so little to even space it out for others.

but again!! since now i m NOT preoccupied by books, my tiny brain seems to be not very satisfied to the current situation i m in right now.
*sigh*
i m still waiting the day to come when i can really end this on and off self-reflecting.
BUT you see
no matter how hard i try to let my neck grows longer, i still cant see whats waiting ahead of me, and i m not certain whether this day will come or not.
i have not lost my hope as God has planned everything for us and He has His perfect timing to let everything works out perfectly.

and yeah
sometimes i m a weirdo. (sprry it sounds so abrupt to talk about this as it does not match with what i have written above anyway nah who cares =P)
a self-obsessed 21-year-old immature woman (so to say XD),
with all these weird imaginations and wild thoughts and abnormal way of thinking going through this tiny brain which seriously need to clear up some space for the medical stuffs.
YET!!
when she is complaining that her brain is not enough to contain such a large sum of medical info,
she sill can squeeze out some space to let those unecessary thoughts to stay in her brain FOREVER!!! XD
*sigh*

at the moment,
i am a lone ranger who is so obsessed about kyuhyun to a stage where i call it as UNBELIEVABLE and INSANE!! =P
BUT
worry me not
as this ll come to an end very soon, i can foresee a hectic schedule is awaiting for me and i ll have to use all my energy to fight against it!! trying to survive under such buzy schedule!! all in all, i am longing to go back to malaysia next year and i really cant wait to go back XD

though i do not really fond of such self-reflecting session,
as this ll make me look a direction-less person,
yet
such moment ll be a moment which i ll be craving for when school starts.

SO SO SO
stop complaining!! XD

ps: kyuhyun-shi is having a busy schedule. Poor him *sigh*