yesterday jessi asked us
so do you really like medicine?
she asked so as she hasnt decided which course she should takes up as she is now on a gap year
i hesitated
and i asked myself
do i like medicine?
unsurprisingly, the answer was and it will always be is i don't know
well, of course i did not choose this course randomly
cause i seriously dont like physics
chemistry (nah still okay but not my stuff)
so i ended up "likin" biology
and when i was trying to figure out what should i apply for my JPA scolarship
after reading through the list
medicine and denstistry look appealing to me
at certain point, i nearly wanted to change my course from medic to dentistry on my application form
BUT THEN, i dont wish to just face the teeth all my life
so in the end, medic stays on my form
*to be frank, during primary and secondary school, i have always wanted to be a lawyer. Why? i don't know, this profession just attracts me ever since i got to know this profession.*
and even if i dont get JPA, i would still stick to medicine after form 6
why?
i dont like bioscience etc well let put it into a simple word
i dont like lab works!
yeah,
sometimes i really have no idea why at the first place i have chosen to study medicine
and i ll try to give up some crappy reason which sounds very noble and great
for example
because i would like to help those needy ppl, because i would like to contribute to the society by saving others ppl life etc
but if i give it a deeper thought,
yes i DO want to help others with the knowledge that i m going to learn within the 6 years course
but i have such thoughts AFTER i started my medical study not BEFORE my medical study
but then
i thank God that as time passes by,
the will of wanting to help other and be a good doctor has been growing stronger and stronger
yet,
weird enough to say,
there is no specific reason for such changes.
i really dont know why i have chosen medicine
and i dont see a reason why i should find myself a reason
as the time will tell me why
besides that,
i have never thought of giving up to study medicine
and this reason is more than enough to assure me that i need not find a reason for that.
anyhow,
sometimes
i might be wondering
why God grants me JPA scholarship to study medicine
when at times i might be thinking such a person like me who is lazy and hope for an easy life
has been given the privilage to study medicine under scholarship.
He indeed has been gracious to me all the time!
but
seriously, sometimes i ll be wondering, i should just get married to some one who loves me and willing to 养我(sorry cant find a suitable english word for that)
and
i ll just be a housewife.
taking care of household chores, looking after my children etc
isnt that sounds very wonderful and nice
you have your own family to take care of and they ll be bonded to you FOREVER, like it or not =P
and when i m old, i just need to take care of my cucu-cicit (grandchildren), having them sitting around my rocky chair *awwwwwwwwwwwh*
most important thing is, you wont be pushing yourself to hard, squeezing your brain like crazy, tension like hell, heart throbbing everytime sitting for exam, waiting for the result..
you wont be exploiting your cortisol and torturing your adrenal gland whenever the alarm of stress rings!
ANYWAY, i m not questioning God.
in the other way, i give thaks to Him and He opens a door for me which makes my future looks clearer, He gives me the frame of my future. If not, i guess i m still wondering what my future ll be looked like.
YET
a person like me who ll get bored with the same thing over some times (yeah i hate to admit it but i m such person *sigh*)
i know i ll never be satisfied (somehow) with an easy-going life though i m longing to have 1
therefore, i know i can only fulfill my dream(yeah is my dream) when i m old enough and have already retired.
at that time, supposedly, my grown up children ll be getting married and getting me grandchildren.
at that time, hehe i ll be busy of taking care them, telling them story while sitting at the rocky chair (forgive me, i have this fantasy on grandparents should sit on rocky chair with theis granchildren around them)
with this NOBLE task occupying me
i know i ll be satisfied and wont get bored.
oh-oh!! should start finding 1 now so that my dream will come true=P
and yes! i m a family person (i hope) =)
PS: sorry for the crap on the last part XD
i ll end with the verse that we have learned last week
May the words of my mouth
and the meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
O LORD, my Rock and my redeemer!
psalm 19:14
Amen!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
what if
It seems as though the accumulated time is being greedy
Seeing as it hurts more today than yesterday
Oh girl
It was after I realized that I couldn’t be totally happy with that smile towards me
That there was nothing special, baby
Seeing as it hurts more today than yesterday
Oh girl
It was after I realized that I couldn’t be totally happy with that smile towards me
That there was nothing special, baby
What if
It seems like you’re going to love me
Because it seems like you’re going to come to me if I wait just a little
With these anticipations
I can’t leave you
Even though I know that as time accumulates
It becomes pain
Oh girl
Even though I wanted to believe that that smile was just for me
It probably isn’t, right?
But still
Just maybe
What if
I met you first
No, if I didn’t know you
These thoughts are useless
For I’m already living in the deeply set times of you
Even though love increases as much as time’s weight
Even though pain is heavy
Still, I feel like you’ll love me
Because it seems like you’re going to come to me if I wait just a little
With these anticipations
I can’t leave you
Even though I know that the accumulated time has made today
Oh girl
oh lady
Even though pain is heavy
Still, I feel like you’ll love me
Because it seems like you’re going to come to me if I wait just a little
With these anticipations
I can’t leave you
Even though I know that the accumulated time has made today
Oh girl
oh lady
hurmph...what a sad song yet i like it so much =P
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so i guess i really need caffeine during the night to support my eyelids from dropping down and to prevent my mind enters "coma" state whenever the clock strikes 830pm! *sigh*
Sunday, October 25, 2009
how great thou art ^^
heh is me again
today at the church service we sang this song How great thou art
and okay i have to admit
i started to like this song when i got to know kyuhyun sang it 2 years ago after his accident
actually right, i know this song for quite some times but i never take it into my heart
and when kyuhyun says in his cyworld,that this could be 1 of the best hymns
and i started to listen to this song again
and INDEED it is a great song!!!! =)
before the lyrics is being put up
just want to say sth more =P
i just figured out why kyuhyun chose this song when he was requested by his pastor to sing on the stage and showing others how God has changed his life etc
yeah this is definitely what kyuhyun has wanted to say to GOD
How Great Thou Art that You have saved me and bring me back to life again
we can never measure how deep and how great God can be as we ll always be amazed by the love and blessings that He has poured out to us every single seconds!!
okay enough from me, here's the lyrics and the video of him performing at his church ^^
(pls do bear in mind that he was discharged from the hospital in july of 2007,been through critical period in ICU etc, and he performed this in august of 2007! isnt it amazing how Almighty our God is seeing how well in shape kyuhyun was during that performance? Hope you guys out there can see the miracle that God has performend in kyuhyun's life and know that Jesus Chirst indeed is the 1 true God, our savior!)
ps:okay okay i know i have been mentioning kyuhyun for like zillions time untill you guys want to puke whenever you read his name or any story that is related to him and i think by now right, his story is somehow being imprinted in your heart ALREADY!! hehe
cos i can see that i mention him untill his name also going to turn basi =P
but then right, the incident that he has been through is really a great testimony which shows God's grace and awesomeness perfectly!! so it is worth being mentioned ALL THE TIME!! *winks*
today at the church service we sang this song How great thou art
and okay i have to admit
i started to like this song when i got to know kyuhyun sang it 2 years ago after his accident
actually right, i know this song for quite some times but i never take it into my heart
and when kyuhyun says in his cyworld,that this could be 1 of the best hymns
and i started to listen to this song again
and INDEED it is a great song!!!! =)
before the lyrics is being put up
just want to say sth more =P
i just figured out why kyuhyun chose this song when he was requested by his pastor to sing on the stage and showing others how God has changed his life etc
yeah this is definitely what kyuhyun has wanted to say to GOD
How Great Thou Art that You have saved me and bring me back to life again
we can never measure how deep and how great God can be as we ll always be amazed by the love and blessings that He has poured out to us every single seconds!!
okay enough from me, here's the lyrics and the video of him performing at his church ^^
(pls do bear in mind that he was discharged from the hospital in july of 2007,been through critical period in ICU etc, and he performed this in august of 2007! isnt it amazing how Almighty our God is seeing how well in shape kyuhyun was during that performance? Hope you guys out there can see the miracle that God has performend in kyuhyun's life and know that Jesus Chirst indeed is the 1 true God, our savior!)
ps:okay okay i know i have been mentioning kyuhyun for like zillions time untill you guys want to puke whenever you read his name or any story that is related to him and i think by now right, his story is somehow being imprinted in your heart ALREADY!! hehe
cos i can see that i mention him untill his name also going to turn basi =P
but then right, the incident that he has been through is really a great testimony which shows God's grace and awesomeness perfectly!! so it is worth being mentioned ALL THE TIME!! *winks*
O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,
And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.
When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeur
And see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,
And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.
When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeur
And see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
Friday, October 23, 2009
in a split of few seconds =)
i give thanks to God that He has let me made a correct decision in a split of seconds=)
able to save it for the 1 who is supposed to have it as a whole ^^
be patience as this day will come
when you can truly give it as a complete "it" to the 1 who will take it as a precious gift and handle it with care and love =)
just as what flo has said
we dont have much space
so just try to save it as hard as you can
i m still keeping it nicely in the place where it is supposed to be (i hope) ^^
able to save it for the 1 who is supposed to have it as a whole ^^
be patience as this day will come
when you can truly give it as a complete "it" to the 1 who will take it as a precious gift and handle it with care and love =)
just as what flo has said
we dont have much space
so just try to save it as hard as you can
i m still keeping it nicely in the place where it is supposed to be (i hope) ^^
His strength is perfect ^^
I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me;
No great success to show, No glory on my own,
Yet in my weakness He is there to let me know . . .
CHORUS
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone;
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His power, the weak become strong;
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes;
His strength in us begins
Where ours comes to an end.
He hears our humble cry and proves again . . .
(chorus)
Song by: Steven Curtis Chapman
heh it seems that nowadays i have turned my blog into a music blog
but it just impossible to hold on good songs to myself when good songs are supposed to be shared with others =)
yes i got to know this song last sunday when i was joining my church choir
and yes! i fell in love with this song ever since the first time i listened to it
i like the chorus part the most especially this part
He'll carry us when we cant carry on
i just like the way how this part is being composed
as in the melody =)
definitely is the best part of the whole song
nontheless, the song itself is very meaningful
yes INDEED He is our Rock and our Redeemer!!
in Him our souls are secured! =)
here's the song!! enjoy and God bless!! =)
Through Christ who gives me strength,
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me;
No great success to show, No glory on my own,
Yet in my weakness He is there to let me know . . .
CHORUS
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone;
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His power, the weak become strong;
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.
We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes;
His strength in us begins
Where ours comes to an end.
He hears our humble cry and proves again . . .
(chorus)
Song by: Steven Curtis Chapman
heh it seems that nowadays i have turned my blog into a music blog
but it just impossible to hold on good songs to myself when good songs are supposed to be shared with others =)
yes i got to know this song last sunday when i was joining my church choir
and yes! i fell in love with this song ever since the first time i listened to it
i like the chorus part the most especially this part
He'll carry us when we cant carry on
i just like the way how this part is being composed
as in the melody =)
definitely is the best part of the whole song
nontheless, the song itself is very meaningful
yes INDEED He is our Rock and our Redeemer!!
in Him our souls are secured! =)
here's the song!! enjoy and God bless!! =)
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
who am i by casting crowns
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours..
I am yours..
this is definitely a nice song.
how i got to know this, from siwon ^^
i like particularly this part
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
yes, who are we to deserve such magnificent love from the ALMIGHTY God?
and there is only 1 answer, because He is the Lord our God! =)
oh ya and this part as well
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
nothing could be better than to be known as God's children ^^
yes I am Yours!!! May i draw to you closer as the time passes by! =)
here's the song
enjoy!! =)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
you are borned to be loved ^^
how i got to know this song?
because the church members sang this song to kyuhyun after his recovery from the accident
and
he cried while listening to it
besides that, it is also sang by a 5 years old blind girl who can actually play the piano without learning it
she can play perfectly!! seriously!!
and she performed this song in a show
is really a touching 1
yes sometimes some babies, since the day they are borned, they are borned with some defects
sometimes, they might carry this defect throughout their life
they might ask why, well, we dont really know
the only answer we can give is
God has His own good reason, like there is this pastor who are borned without extremities,
God uses him to spread His word to others, and indeed, his story has touched ppl's heart.
in a conclusion
what we can tell the them is
you are borned to be loved!!because GOD is love!!!
He loves us first before we are borned!!
and His love will be with us forever and ever!! AMEN!!!
just like what the song is all about!
here's the lyrics
ps: garh!! have been lagging these few day!! stop being lazy!! wake up wake up!! hwaiting!!^^
because the church members sang this song to kyuhyun after his recovery from the accident
and
he cried while listening to it
besides that, it is also sang by a 5 years old blind girl who can actually play the piano without learning it
she can play perfectly!! seriously!!
and she performed this song in a show
is really a touching 1
yes sometimes some babies, since the day they are borned, they are borned with some defects
sometimes, they might carry this defect throughout their life
they might ask why, well, we dont really know
the only answer we can give is
God has His own good reason, like there is this pastor who are borned without extremities,
God uses him to spread His word to others, and indeed, his story has touched ppl's heart.
in a conclusion
what we can tell the them is
you are borned to be loved!!because GOD is love!!!
He loves us first before we are borned!!
and His love will be with us forever and ever!! AMEN!!!
just like what the song is all about!
here's the lyrics
You are borned to be loved, you are being loved in your life
You are borned to be loved, you are being loved in your life
Through our meeting, God's love that has been from the beginning comes to bear fruits
How great is our joy because of you in this world!
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now
Through our meeting, God's love that has been from the beginning comes to bear fruits.
How great is our joy because of you in this world!
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now
You are borned to be loved, you are being loved in your life
You are borned to be loved, you are being loved in your life
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now
You are borned to be loved. you are being loved now.
the lyrics is simple yet is a nice one. same as the melody!! is easy to be picked up and is also a lovely 1. ^^
too bad i couldnt find an english version or chinese version of this hymn. anyway in whatever language it might be, the meaning behind this song ll never change. Yes! God loves us!!! and He ll always love us!!!FOREVER!!AMEN!!
AND
ps: garh!! have been lagging these few day!! stop being lazy!! wake up wake up!! hwaiting!!^^
Friday, October 9, 2009
lately ^^
have been addicted to lately sang by stevie wonders
though the version that i listen to is sang by sung si kyung
how i came to know him?
heh because he is kyuhyun's favorite singer and i can see why
as he has a good voice
anyway
AM LOVING THIS SONG TO THE MAX!!!!
is really a sad song, very very sad,
yet is a nice one!!! i like it very very muchie!!! XD
is actually a song talking about how the guy feels when he found out that his lover no longer loves him. so heh dont understand why i like it though since this is trying to voice up the guy opinion XD
anyway i find that there is 1 sentence from this song which probably somehow can fit into the picture
which is:
what i really feel, my eyes dont let me hide, cause they always start to cry!
yes sometimes, i just have to try to hold back my tears for a little longer and try not to be so emotional at times when i am needed to be strong and firm =)
ps: i dont like household chores, but i ll always say yes to dish washing ^^ dunno why, i like to wash dishes =)
pps: i did cook my pumpkin soup but it tasted rather like pasta cos it was too cheesy XD nonetheless it was a nice one i guess =)
ppps: waiting for my hair to dry and regretting why i finished a packet of wafer at such a critical period when extra energy input is not needed. *yawn* when can i climb up to my bed ? waiting endlessly for my hair to dry
pppps: floor mopping and toilet cleaning need to be done tomorrow. yeah is time to do so.
ppppps: i dont know why, but i feel sad now. maybe i m too sleepy dy =)
God bless! and good night ^^
oh ya 1 more thing, as i was hunting for sweet potatoes, i saw this cervena brambory i was so excited and i bought 4kg of red potatoes!!! well obviously i know they are not sweet potatoes which i need them for the soup, but i decided to buy them!! *sigh* i can be so blind at certain times when i ll loose my rational and do some silly stuffs XD
though the version that i listen to is sang by sung si kyung
how i came to know him?
heh because he is kyuhyun's favorite singer and i can see why
as he has a good voice
anyway
AM LOVING THIS SONG TO THE MAX!!!!
is really a sad song, very very sad,
yet is a nice one!!! i like it very very muchie!!! XD
is actually a song talking about how the guy feels when he found out that his lover no longer loves him. so heh dont understand why i like it though since this is trying to voice up the guy opinion XD
anyway i find that there is 1 sentence from this song which probably somehow can fit into the picture
which is:
what i really feel, my eyes dont let me hide, cause they always start to cry!
yes sometimes, i just have to try to hold back my tears for a little longer and try not to be so emotional at times when i am needed to be strong and firm =)
ps: i dont like household chores, but i ll always say yes to dish washing ^^ dunno why, i like to wash dishes =)
pps: i did cook my pumpkin soup but it tasted rather like pasta cos it was too cheesy XD nonetheless it was a nice one i guess =)
ppps: waiting for my hair to dry and regretting why i finished a packet of wafer at such a critical period when extra energy input is not needed. *yawn* when can i climb up to my bed ? waiting endlessly for my hair to dry
pppps: floor mopping and toilet cleaning need to be done tomorrow. yeah is time to do so.
ppppps: i dont know why, but i feel sad now. maybe i m too sleepy dy =)
God bless! and good night ^^
oh ya 1 more thing, as i was hunting for sweet potatoes, i saw this cervena brambory i was so excited and i bought 4kg of red potatoes!!! well obviously i know they are not sweet potatoes which i need them for the soup, but i decided to buy them!! *sigh* i can be so blind at certain times when i ll loose my rational and do some silly stuffs XD
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Because He loves us
i was told
the treatments that they give to the patients in ICU mostly are in vain
but
he left the ICU after 3 weeks and stayed in the normal ward despite the fact that he was slipped in and out of consiousness for many times, with fracture hip, ribs, having pnemothorax etc.
even if they ever recover from the sickness and leave ICU, normal life is not possible,
but
he now can sing, dance, laugh, jump, having hectic working schedule, running here and there, being a cheeky 1, in short sentence, having a normal life , although there was once when he barely can walk, muted due to shock etc. he took 3 months to recover.
how it is possible?
yes it is possible, because of the love that Jesus Chirst has for us!
Is our God, our Abba Father in Heaven who has poured out His love to him, which make things that are impossible to possible as He is the Mighty God! Hallelujah!
yeah maybe you might think that i m exaggerating, nah being treated in ICU doesnt mean that your life now is in a critical period and it deosnt mean that you are dying soon..they ll still recover.
i never thought that patients in ICU can be at such a critical state, not untill i witnessed it myself and told face to face by the doctor that most of the patients, they are really waiting for the day to come,despite the fact that they are recieving treatments.
when you look at them, you cant find any sign that can show you that they ll recover and become healthy as before. the possibility is so small. to be more cruel, maybe the thought of expecting that they ll recover is really a joke.
what you have seen on hong kong drama, korean drama whatever drama, showing the condition of the patients, hmmm, is a lie. in reality, patients in ICU, their conditions are much worse than what they have shown in the drama!
cho kyuhyun
i have to say, i really dont know him in personal.
but whenever i know he is still there, living healthily even he was once almost died and he could possibly left the world at that critical moment, i ll be amazed.
Amazed by the miraculous, wonderful work that God has done in his life.
i m really moved whenever i just think about this.
i really give thanks to God that He indeed is a healer, the MIGHTY GOD.
and seeing kyuhyun staying healthily, can always remind me that GOD is LOVE.
In Him, we are secured!
In Him we have hope!
Nothing is impossible in God!!!
ah!! even now, i m touched and moved by the love that God shows us, it is really beyond our imagination!!
kyuhyun is still healthy. he himself indeed is a living testimony.
i wish those who know kyuhyun can come to know God by the testimony that he has in his life!
again, kyuhyun i dont know you personally, but pls do stay healthy and keep on trusting in God!!
Do not ever forget that God loves you!!! Stay strong in your faith, will you?
and pls do not forget to let other ppl know how has God blessed your life okay?
kesok haengbok kaseyo!! =)
God bless and good night! ^^
ps: wonder hows the patients that i have seen in the ICU, i ll never know. What i can do is to pray for them! Amen.
pps: i know i have been mentioning about kyuhyun "personal history" forever, but a good testimony shouldnt be forgotten right? so sorry if you think i m long wided =P
ppps: a real good night *yawn*
the treatments that they give to the patients in ICU mostly are in vain
but
he left the ICU after 3 weeks and stayed in the normal ward despite the fact that he was slipped in and out of consiousness for many times, with fracture hip, ribs, having pnemothorax etc.
even if they ever recover from the sickness and leave ICU, normal life is not possible,
but
he now can sing, dance, laugh, jump, having hectic working schedule, running here and there, being a cheeky 1, in short sentence, having a normal life , although there was once when he barely can walk, muted due to shock etc. he took 3 months to recover.
how it is possible?
yes it is possible, because of the love that Jesus Chirst has for us!
Is our God, our Abba Father in Heaven who has poured out His love to him, which make things that are impossible to possible as He is the Mighty God! Hallelujah!
yeah maybe you might think that i m exaggerating, nah being treated in ICU doesnt mean that your life now is in a critical period and it deosnt mean that you are dying soon..they ll still recover.
i never thought that patients in ICU can be at such a critical state, not untill i witnessed it myself and told face to face by the doctor that most of the patients, they are really waiting for the day to come,despite the fact that they are recieving treatments.
when you look at them, you cant find any sign that can show you that they ll recover and become healthy as before. the possibility is so small. to be more cruel, maybe the thought of expecting that they ll recover is really a joke.
what you have seen on hong kong drama, korean drama whatever drama, showing the condition of the patients, hmmm, is a lie. in reality, patients in ICU, their conditions are much worse than what they have shown in the drama!
cho kyuhyun
i have to say, i really dont know him in personal.
but whenever i know he is still there, living healthily even he was once almost died and he could possibly left the world at that critical moment, i ll be amazed.
Amazed by the miraculous, wonderful work that God has done in his life.
i m really moved whenever i just think about this.
i really give thanks to God that He indeed is a healer, the MIGHTY GOD.
and seeing kyuhyun staying healthily, can always remind me that GOD is LOVE.
In Him, we are secured!
In Him we have hope!
Nothing is impossible in God!!!
ah!! even now, i m touched and moved by the love that God shows us, it is really beyond our imagination!!
kyuhyun is still healthy. he himself indeed is a living testimony.
i wish those who know kyuhyun can come to know God by the testimony that he has in his life!
again, kyuhyun i dont know you personally, but pls do stay healthy and keep on trusting in God!!
Do not ever forget that God loves you!!! Stay strong in your faith, will you?
and pls do not forget to let other ppl know how has God blessed your life okay?
kesok haengbok kaseyo!! =)
God bless and good night! ^^
ps: wonder hows the patients that i have seen in the ICU, i ll never know. What i can do is to pray for them! Amen.
pps: i know i have been mentioning about kyuhyun "personal history" forever, but a good testimony shouldnt be forgotten right? so sorry if you think i m long wided =P
ppps: a real good night *yawn*
Sunday, October 4, 2009
给，十年后的圭贤 not by me though =P
写给十年后的圭贤。
如果你能看到这里的话。就好了。
现在喜欢着你。也不再像曾经喜欢别人那般的刻骨铭心。
这是好。还是坏。
我幻想着。十年后的你。看着我写给你的这封信。微微笑着。
眼神坚定而温柔。十年后的你，也一定会像如今一样固执得要命。
也一定会像如今一样，为了自己的梦想而坚定着脚步。
也一定会像如今一样，有着温暖的笑容。
但是，你会像如今一样，快乐而满足吗。
如果十年后，我也能像别人说的那样。
能够哭着对你说，圭贤啊，曾经的那些年，我真的好爱好爱你。
只希望能有一个能够忘却所有的怀抱，让我知道，对你的喜欢都是值得的。
如果你知道，会不会笑我呢。
即使要被你笑，也要说这样的话。
圭贤啊，曾经的那些年，我真的好爱好爱你。
蔡康永说，如果你喜欢了一位偶像，
如果你喜欢了一位偶像，请你一定要去看一场他的演唱会，
亲自去，要亲眼看看他，好好看看他。
因为舞台上的生命可能持续很久，也可能转瞬即逝。
你不知道他是属于哪一种。
你无法预测那发光发热的时间究竟还有多少，
你猜不到下一秒他会消失到哪里去。
你什么都不知道，什么都无法把握，
他是你感知世界里无可取代的全部，
但他也是你未知世界里永无交集的一点。
所以一直有那么强烈地，想要见到你的愿望。
想看看你。告诉你。曾经喜欢你的点滴。
为你做的所有事。为你写的所有文字。为你唱的所有歌。为你喜欢的所有人。
十年后的你，愿意这样安静微笑着听我诉说吗。
十年后的你，已经过着幸福的生活了吧。
我希望，你身旁那个，紧握着你十指的女子。
是真的很爱很爱你。比我还要爱你。
你望着她微笑。
给她唱歌。
给她跳舞。
亲吻她。
拥抱她。
在散步时彼此紧握着手指。
十年后我已经能够平淡地面对那个让我嫉妒的女子。
我希望你是真的很爱她。
就算牵的不是我的手，也不真的难过。
偶像与我。终究是有距离的。
即使自私地希望你只属于我一个人。
只属于我一个人喜欢。
只属于我一个人心疼。
只属于我一个人夸奖。
只属于我一个人鄙视。
只属于我一个人观望。
只属于我一个人拥有的一切。
我了解你的一切，也不过只有这么多。
微笑时嘴角向左边上扬。笑的时候露出一口的白牙。
心情不好的时候沉默。心情好的时候拼命地。大笑。
疲惫的时候也会保持姿态。
有伤痛的时候也会忍着。
辛苦的时候也从不跟人说。
唱歌的时候眼里溢满情绪。
鼻梁高高的戴着眼镜也很帅。
睡觉之前爱玩游戏视力极差。
有气胸这样的病所以连军队都不会要。
有着超强的肺活量。
瘦的时候和赫在一样只剩下骨头。
胖的时候脸上肉肉的。
哭的时候，静静地低着头不想被人看见。
很少哭。性格坚强。
唯一一次在节目上哭时候，不明白的人以为你在演戏。
还说你演技好。
最在乎的人永远是家人、朋友，以及爱你的人。
性格一半安静一半张扬。
有着淳厚的嗓音和性格。
所以即使在无数种声音中也能一下认出你的声音。
演技特别的好。
智商很高。高考发挥失常才上了韩国的顶尖大学。
高中时曾经是数学部的成员。
有着可爱的笑容。和一米八几的高个子。
喜欢的是腿漂亮，只爱你一个的女孩子。
出了车祸以后，开始慢慢在内心沉淀着感情。
参加节目时总爱和周围人交头接耳。
在给Fans们留言时爱用符号。
言语机智幽默。
不笑的时候很酷。
其实是个随和的人。
好胜心很强。
队里最喜欢的是东海。
和每个人关系都很好。
说话有条理。语速适当。一看就是有思想的人。
仗着自己声音好就到处唱歌。唱完还不好意思的傻笑。
和神起里同为老幺的昌珉关系最好。
在你车祸的时候珉还去看了你。
有个在加拿大学习小提琴的姐姐。姐弟之间感情要比恋人更好。
出生在音乐世家。刚开始踏上演艺圈时还遭到家里的反对。
整别人的时候爱幸灾乐祸的笑。有时候还插上一脚。
性格调皮。但善于掩藏你调皮的性格。板着脸展示你的深沉。
其实身体也不是很好。可还是拼命展示自己最美好的一面。
很爱自己的Fan，时常为他们到网上留言。
其实也很爱吃。因为是老幺还时常被使唤去做饭。
很爱很爱Super Junior。
还有很多很多我都不知道。知道的也只有这些。
根本就不够。我想知道很多很多。
十年后的你一定比现在更稳重。
十年后的我一定比现在更成熟。
十年的时光沉淀了所有的话语和感情。
当十年后你看到这封信，才发现其实十年并不是多长的时光。
十年后你也许还在舞台上。也许不在。
十年后我也许还喜欢着你。也许不喜欢。
可是真的很想让你知道。曾经为了你所付出的一切。
曾经为了你而顶下的。
一切责备与压力。
一切谴责与争吵。
一切不解与嘲笑。
一切为难与疼痛。
可是这些都算什么呢。你说。它们都算什么呢。
十年后，希望能够依然看着你。
让我陪着你。望着你。爱着你的笑容。
十年的时光。
彼端我们坚守。为了我们说不出的誓言。
十年后的圭贤。想哭着对你说。十年前的我。很爱很爱你。
是蛮感人的，很佩服写这篇的作者，我看我应该没有这个本事写出这篇文章吧！
哈哈！现在的我虽然嘴上说说，我很疯狂的喜欢他，但是，我只是说说。与其说疯狂，倒不如说我喜欢他对主的坚信。就像，我喜欢始源那样，他那毫不犹豫地向大家述说他对主的爱！
我们彼此共同的信仰，他在主爱中的坚信，让我对他有一种亲切感。因为最终，我们必定在主的国度中相见。这是我们基督徒共同的希望及我们所相信的：永恒的国度，彩虹下的约定。
到底，愿主永远祝福你，也希望你、始源、晟敏、艺声、丽旭、东海（？）、恩赫、利特、基范继续在主爱中成长！
昨天有人问，为何你可以大难不死，我说，因为主爱你！是的，你的存在，就是最好的见证！
we shall meet each others when the harps play in heaven!! =)
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一个耳机，两人共听，幸福在即。
幸福，就是这么的简单。
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