limitations

i m amazed by my limitation
as i have no limitation when it comes to food!!

i seriously couldnt walk properly
and my stomach was so going to explode yesterday
after having
sushi buffet
a cup of hot chocolate
a piece of blueberry strudel (sth like that:P)
a glass of american lemonade
i cannot believe that i seriously finished my all three desserts!!!!

crazy man
this is really insane
insane la me

and now i m having stomachache
to be precise
my whole abdominal cavity
it is aching

i guess it is because
my stomach
it has expanded way too much
untill it compresses my diaphragm and my liver
and indirectly compressed my rectus abdominis muscle
i am really aching now!!

need to on diet for today and tomorrow
i ll just take in some liquid food
maybe i ll just drink milk
i have to do so
after eating abnormally for like 4 days!!!
luckily
douglas and yee yong they have postponed their cooking to 12th instead of having it today
if not
i guess
i ll have to find myself new pants!!
and clothes in the near future!!!

strictly no food for today (if i can:P)
anyway i ll make sure i ll starve myself to death for two days!!
thats for sure
cause wednesday night
is ying hoey's birthday celebration
so i can expect myself eating again:P
eheh
so so
ya a diet plan is going on for maybe 3 days :P

maybe i ll just follow what bryan did last time
1 cup of milo per day
untill i get my desire weight
ya this is not a bad idea:P

oh ya oh ya
yay!!
ezra thinks that the shirt that we bought for him is not too bad :P
but i hope the shirt is not too big for him
cause seriously after buying it
i just realised
walau eh
how come their M size also so big one!!
eh paiseh ah ezra
should have bought you S size
anyway MUAHAHA
kononnya baby blue is okay for you:P

twilight

yesterday was a day full of adventures??

anyway
yesterday
had biochem test
(a tough one)
of all the definitions
i din define absorbance!!!!!!!TOOOT!

and
my formula is TOOOT!!!

arghhhhh!!!

i m so worried
so worried

anyway
despite that
overall the day was great (i supposed)

watched twilight with lee peng
in love with robert pattison (actually i think i m in love with the character that he is acting as)
EDWARD!!!!i love you so much!!!
i dont mind if i ll have to turn into a vampire just to be with you forever!!:P

b4 i left the cinema
i double checked my seat
just to make sure
my hp did not slip out

BUT
it did!!!

er i dunno why

i was like SHIT not again!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes AGAIN!!!!

my last hp was lost when i watched ironman :P

anyway
God is good!!:)
he sent an angle to me:)

apparently
the one who picked my hp
he is a good guy
he even sms my parents (er i think he chose the first phone number which i have called)
to tell them that he is having my hp
(imagine how terrified my parents would be:P sorry papa:P)
but then
xiang yan sms him
and he says
he ll be waiting for us to come and get my hp
yes
and i got it back!:)
din really manage to give him a proper thank you
though i said thank you very much to him after getting back my hp (but i was in a rush cos i did not dare to disturb him watching movie anymore:P)
special thanks to xiang yan for his fast and quick respond in helping me to get back my hp!!:)
AND
helping me to sms the person who got my hp :)

having dinner at chinese restaurant AGAIN!!:P
lolz!!
the most important part is
i finished the whole glass of beer (0.3 l)
all on my own!!
i couldnt believe that i actually managed to finish that:P
and i did not get drunk
:P
so it seems that my alcochol dehydrogenase is sufficient to keep me not to get drunk:P
MUAHAHA
anyway
once is enough
would not like to have another beer or whatsoever
CAUSE
it does not taste good to me:)

so
a day for relaxing just ended like that


PS:
er i skipped bible study
ish
Lord
pls forgive me
i ll try my best not to skip it:)

虽然会很痛
但是
但是
我应该选择割舍

真的真的很痛

我会慢慢的习惯
我会学什么叫做距离

真得很痛
我无法想象
我是否能微笑的走开
是否能坚强的面对

我无法再负荷了
很累
很累
是时候
趁我还能有把握微笑挥手时
我选择
现在
说
再见

真得很痛
但是
会愈合的:)

死猪

死猪
死猪
死猪
死猪

累啊
累啊
累啊

决定醒来了:)

pls do not fall

yes
again i have this strange feeling

Lord
i m scared
i do not want to fall
i do not want to fall
i do not want to fall

i m scared
i m scared
i m scared

i ll do my best
Lord
pls guide my heart
pls guide me
so not i ll be on guard

yes Lord!!
i do not want to fall
have mercy on me

so
i m left to play on the stage alone

so
this is how you ll feel

and
finally i have realised
books they are really the best companions!!

they ll never disappoint you!!
not once!!

so
conclusion
study hard!!!
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i have to say
i have accepted my failure
yet
somehow sometimes
i m not ready to tell the world
but
the whats the best is
you are able to face your failure openly and are not ashamed of it!!!

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i have to say
i m in a bad mood
to be precise
my mood fluctuates
i hate the feeling that i m having it right now!!!!!!!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

tell me what you think
cause i do not what to be bothered by it!!!

perfect moment by MARTINE McCUTCHEON

PERFECT MOMENT - 17/04/1999
2 weeks at #1 - 20 weeks on chart

This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
This is what God meant
This is my perfect moment with you

I wish I could freeze this space in time
The way that I feel for you inside
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you

Tell me you love me when you leave
You're more than a shadow, that's what I believe
You take me to places I never thought I'd see
Minute by minute you're the world to me

I wish I could frame the look in your eyes
The way that I feel for you inside
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you

And if tomorrow brings a lonely day
Here and now I know I haven't lived in vain
I'll cry my tears in the rain
And if love never comes again
I can always say I've been
To paradise skies in your eyes, eyes, eyes

Tell me you love me the moment you leave
You're more than a shadow, I've got to believe
I wish I could keep you all of my life
The way that I feel for you inside

This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
With you

wow!!i never knew that this song is sooooo OLD!!

but ya should be around that period cause i got to know this song through meteor garden OST

and i crazy about it during that time:P

anyway it still has the impact on me whenever i listen to it:)

random

part A
why is everybody going back to penang
and i m stuck in prague

part B
ever since friday
i couldnt focus on my study
i have a very bad feeling about this
cause this is what i used to be when the sem just started
GARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
stop it stop it
i should keep myself away from the laptop

part C
isit because of the weather has been getting colder and colder recently
which caused my appetite to become bigger
or it is just merely that i want to chew sth??

part D
worried worried
my eyes cant really fixed on the books!!!

part E
again!!
i m jealous those who are now in penang for their sem break

part F
i m looking forward for tomorrow
(but only partly)

my niece getting her passport

actually every month
my cousin
she ll be sending sunita's photo (my niece's name) to us
showing us her progression :)
and
i feel
hmmmm
dunno how to say
is amazing to see how a baby grows
and i m even more amazed to see
that in every picture
she never fail to SMILE!! :)

we sometimes
have to force to smile when coming to photo shooting
but
she as a baby
nobody teaches her to smile
yet
she ll put a smile on her face naturally when it comes to photo shooting
(well you might say maybe her parents are trying to do some funny stuffs in front of her to make her smile)

YET
the reason for baby to smile is so simple!:)

anyway
i have dragged the topic too far away

what i wanted to say is
i particularly like the expression of hers on the first photo
is sooooo CHARMING!!!!!

Love, Hope and FAITH:)

i have this key chain
and on it
it says

"patience with others is love,
patience with self is hope,
patience with God is faith"

i bought it in penang b4 i came back to prague

when i chose this key chain
i m attracted to those sentences
though i din actually understand them well

but just now
as i read them again
suddenly
Lord opens my eyes
and touches my heart

yes
if you can bear with your own mistakes and still give yourself a chance to adjust yourself
still believe in yourself
that is HOPE!:)
cause you do not give up yourself

if you still continue to believe in Christ and praising Him even tough you have a hard time or whatsoever
even you have doubts in your life
that is FAITH!:)
the degree of trusting in God shows how strong your faith is in Him!

even if you have found out
sometimes
the world is not as cute as you think is it
ppl are not as nice as you think they should
yet
you do not give up in trusting them
that is LOVE!:)

hmmm..
i almost stumble and fall for today
falling in Devil's temptation
almost started to question God

and as i woke up from my so called nap :P
and i had a look at my key chain
suddenly
i have hope
i have love
the most important is
i have FAITH!!!

AGAIN:P

sometimes
when you feel you are not good enough
do not give up your hope to becoming a better person

sometimes
when you can feel the presence of God
do not give up in trusting Him

sometimes
when you feel that you feel disappointed to the ppl around you (though right now i do not feel that way)
do not feel sad or angry (any negative feelings) on them
give them time
or even try to accept them :)


yes Lord!!

i ll learn to trust You more and more!
i ll learn to trust myself and push myself harder as i believe that i still have the potential to improve myself :)

巨蟹座

保护自己是巨蟹座的本能。他很少会一下子让你了解他太多，他很少会把自己的情绪或感情赤裸的表白。他本能的保护着自的脆弱多情的心，你要给他很多安全感。大多数的巨蟹男子都很害羞，很害怕自己被拒绝。就算他在追求你的时侯，他也尽量做到好象不是在追求你的样子。



天啊！！
我已经是绝缘体了
巨蟹座竟然还跟我有得比！！:P

请原谅我
我真的、真的不知道我在想什么。

我刚刚googled 巨蟹座的一切（我本人不是很相信星座）
因为我不了解他。

但是，
我读完后
天啊！
跟我预测的大概很准！
看来我看人及解读人还蛮准的嘛:D

lalalala
musim studovat
ale
jsem vesela
proc?
protoze...hehehe
hmmmm nevim proc jsem vesela

疯了，疯了 （a weird title for a song:P)

七六五四三二一
倒数一句我爱你
我的世界因为你
而开始透明

就让我沉沉睡去
从此不想你的名
越到夜里你的笑容
就越清晰

疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了
你应该知道

卓文萱 - 疯了疯了

一二三四五六七
追我的人很多滴
我的世界因为你
而全面封闭

多说一句我爱你
又不会要你的命
想要生气
却不敢随便生气

疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了
你一定都知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了

你一定都知道

couldnt concentrate on my study WHICH I SHOULD!!!!!!!!
yes part of the lyrics somehow reflects how i feel now
especially this part
疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

haha i sendiri also swt at myself
cos actually i dunno why i take that as a positive sign:P

i just pray that
i ll be able to see things clearly
and make sure the mistakes that i have done in the past (last year) wont occur again
as it really gives me a nightmare

i tend to lost myself
and lost control
and become blind
this time
i shall learn how to control it:P

still

i feel sorrow
somehow

yeah is like a scar
is a mark over there

and
it somehow prevents me to move on

anyway
the mark is there
as a reminder
i should always remember how it has caused me to feel the pinch
yet
not to be bothered by it

is a difficult task
but
Lord has His own plan :)

weird

shouldnt be over reacted

what i m scared now is
the more i gained
the more scared i m
i scared that i ll loose them in any moment

books
somehow they are our good companions
at least
they dont run away from you
unless you run away from them (that would be your fault:P)

so stay calm:)

i have grown up!!:)

well
throughout this whole week
i have been experiencing God's love:)
He has shown me His love and mercy on me
He has taught me how to see through things
He has adjusted my attitude towards life
He has somehow transformed me into a new me:)

I just want to give thanks!!!
I just want to Praise Him!!!

now i have peace in me
is so strange
is a feeling that i never had b4:)
is true that God is prince of peace and God is love!!!:)

Thank you Lord!

I ll continue to strive and work more harder
Halellujah Praise the Lord!!!

and now i truly understand what i m so into this song
title: Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman
- - -
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

to be frank
all this while in my life
i have never been once (shame to say)
fully understand and appreciate what the lyrics of the hymn is all about
i just sing because of the melody is nice
but now
i like this song
because it reflects how i feel and what i have been through!:)
Yes Lord!!

You give and take away
my heart ll choose to say
Blessed be Your name!!!!!:D





my facebook status says
Praise the Lord!! Blessed be Your name
and one of my friend
Phillip he asked me why
when i was trying to explain why
i couldnt find a suitable sentence
as He is indescribable!!

actually
i just couldnt believe that
i have grown up (spiritually and mentally)

Lord really has His own plan
a good one!:)
He knows what is the correct time
cause if few years ago
if i m in what i m now
i ll surely stumble and fall
but not now

as
i learn to trust Him more and more!!!:)

Blessed be Your name!!!:)

了解它，摸索它然后爱上它！！！！！

了解它，摸索它然后爱上它！！！！！
advised by the teacher in the movie I Not Stupid 1

gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously
my mind is refused to even read the sentence properly when it comes to biochem!!!!

i seriously DONT LIKE biochem

depressed depressed!!!!

i woke up at 3 sth am
started my day with biochem
after SO MANY HRS!!!!!!!!
still i haven even finished with the enzymes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cannot
cannot
i love biochem
cos
biochem is interesting
biochem is so fun
biochem is sooooo cute
how can you hate biochem??


i ll try to learn
learn to like or even fall in love with biochem in the shortest time!!!!

from excited state to stable state:P

starting from yesterday
i have been in excited state
NO NO NO!!!
i should stop it
return to a stable compound!!!

need to study study and STUDY!!!

oh ya oh ya
i have just bought physiology coloring book!!!YAY!!need to buy real good color pencils !!
feel quite excited!!i actually want to color them!!!

and
i have been having curry mee as my dinner for THREE days!!!!
with prawns and fish
WALAO prawns leh
high in cholesterol
hmmm..maybe i should drink 2 cans of beer to reduce my cholesterol level:P
anyway STRICTLY no CURRY in ONE month
getting sore throat now:P

okay
musim studovat!:P
cau!:)

o pek gong 2

gua ng nya si eh
bo eng gai ga yi lang gong
an neh kuan
mia zai
guo boi ga yi explain gun be sai liao lah
aiyo
an zuo eh a ne
guo ying gai di am di am
ga gi zi le lang zai tiok ho liao
an zua boi ga yi lang gong
an zua eh a neh
but then hor
guo gam ga
yi d ia tiok u kua email eh
tak kan yi bo kua
ngin wei
guo da ma check liao
yi ga na u sa zhap go leh peng you
so yi leh
bo ko leng yi bo kua eh
aiya
pun teh leh
boi xia dua di yi eh wall eh
mana eh zai
guo gong cut lai liao
be liao lo

men kin
men kin

bo an zua eh lah
an neh kuan nya ma:P

just now during genetics
b4 the test
i was going around
telling mohan, sean, shrujan, lee peng and pok
telling them
about
DORAEMOn
about the hero thingy
mohan is the funniest
he says
:" oh ya he sure DOES have the hero's look!!"
LOLZ

okay in case you dunno who is doraemon
go GOOGLE him!!!
the all time favourite anime character!!:)
this is how He looks like


Did you know?

Doraemon has recently been
voted by the Time Magazine as
one of the Asian Heroes, in
recognition for his consistent
effort in helping Nobita

taken from here

Praise the Lord!!YES!!

as i opened the email
tan - 8/10
koh -9/10

i just couldnt hold it to myself
i ran to her room
knocked at her door
and i showed her such post:" you are the WOMAN!!!:P"

yes!!!
we were so happy
i m happy !!!!

Praise the Lord!!!
i dunno what else can i say
besides praising Him!!Give thanks to Him!!!

Yes Lord!!!
i ll study as hard as i can
and
DO THE BEST!!!

i ll leave physio and genetics' result into Thy hands!:)
May them glorify Your name!!:)


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part 2:

天啊！！！
他问我！！！
他问我！！！
他问我！！！
啊！！！！！
为何我刚刚会不在！！！
啊！！！！
啊！！！！！！

嗯, 好啦
不要太花痴
可能他只是对基督徒类似这样的话题好奇
所以他才问我

但是！！！
啊！！！！
啊！！！！
为什么！！！
为什么！！！！！
为什么！！！！！

要不要跟他解释
要不要
要不要
要不要
！！！！！
啊！！！！！

gentle vs soft spoken

tram stop
me:" what la!......(forgotten what i said actually)
ezra:" eh speak softer la..lower down ur voice.
me:" (lowering down my voice) eh~

on the way to church
me:" even i dont interested in Blah blah blah
ezra:" eh try to be more soft spoken lah
me:" (trying to do so) e~v~e~n ...
ezra:" HAHA eh i asked you to be more soft spoken but not asking you to talk so gentle okay?"
me:" to me they are almost the same

okay
i have to admit
i seriously couldnt control the way how i speak, my over -reacted body language
when i talk (especially when i m in excited mode)
those who know me
should know that ever since secondary school
i m the one who always( well maybe not always) come up with stupid and idiot body language, stupid quote, and NOT TO MENTION my ANIMATED and pat chi expression
for example
for my highschool mates
do you guys still remember the "yun dong yun dong" action (gosh thats soooo...er stupid)
or
i stab you with the stupid action (couldnt remember whats the action)
or
the fainted expression

my Ktt apartmentmates
i think they know the most
i laughed like a chicken which is going to be beheaded soon (laugh histericallly-if you dont understand how a chicken sounds when it is going to die soon:P)
i sometimes will call them by the name that i give them with "horrible" intonation
i ll speak like a cartoon character or even sing using that voice (which EHEM annoy esther the most:P)
i ll suddenly gone wild and be very excited for no reason


so
is hard for me to change
to have smaller reaction
to lower my voice
not when i m in excited mode:P

i m who i m
so
MUAHAHA
not going to change:P
well maybe i will when i m too old to even speak or laugh:P

worried!!

just when i was doing my pH calculation from the faculty website
i feel sooooo depressed!!!
TOOT!!TOOT!!
they are some REAL difficult questions!!
i gave up halfway as i felt too miserable to finish all 17 questions!
i stopped at quest 10 cause when i scrolled down
TOOOOOOOT!!
more difficult questions!!

and
they some how
reminded me how bad my biochem is
reminded how i answered my last biochem test
thinking of them
i m sinking!!

i DO NOT look forward on tuesday!!
i just DONT!!!
i feel scared

since when
study is never sufficient for me to answer the questions
not in my past 11 years

medicine is hard
REAL hard
you have to put in more than 100% effort
yet sometimes they are just not sufficient

medicine
is not a field where you can just study
without digging more info on ur own
without squeezing your brain
haih
depressed
having them in your brain is one thing
digesting them is another thing
depressed!!

i dont really like biochem (especially organic part and physical part in term of calculation when we are taught how to calculate them!!)
i like physio
(but just thinking of the test i have taken..i can say i like physio but this does not really help me much cause after taking the test i feel like i should study more!!TOOT!!!to be frank i studied quite in detail for this test - or actually i think i have covered everything for the test.)

Lord,
pls forgive me for the wasted time
Lord,
have mercy on me
i ll really try my best and study as hard as i can
i have learned the lesson (which i have it at the very beginning)
so
Have mercy on me
i ll do my best
for the two tests that i have taken
i leave them in Thy hands
i pray that
what they are ll glorify Your name!:)
for the coming test
pls equip me with wisdom, understanding and a brain with big capacity
and
most important
is to handle the time that You have given to me wisely!

ARGHHHHH!!
depressed and worried!

enjoy ur diet doesnt mean they are low in calories :/

enjoy ur diet!!
this is what crocodile company says
and i thought the calories should be around 300-400kCal
which is the amt of energy that we should have for 1 portion
but when i got back and checked the calories
i couldnt believe it
9.54kj X 230g / 4.2 = 552kCal!!!

i am stunned!!!
is just a bagety
yet it has so much energy in it compared to a proper meal (well at least to me the calories for this bagety is way too much!!)

i have learned my lesson
i ll never have a bagety
i would rather eat ice cream which probably has the same amt of calories as a bagety has


say no to bagety!!

o pek gong

gua gam ka guo dia tiok boi xia lok lai

ji gui jit
gua diam diam xio tiok lu
guo kak yi lu
guo zai ji le xi bu ko leng eh
ta pi guo still xio tiok guo lang eh bi lai
a neh gi guai eh
guo xia ji le xi
bu a neh xio lu
an zua eh a ne kuan

bun lai
guo gam ka lu gun si kak yi guo
dan si xio xio ji ye
da bai guo eh prediction or sixth sense diam diam eum tiok
ngin wei when guo kak yi ji le lang
guo eh interprete he le lang eh reaction and response as eh pun kak yi guo
haih
yi yiar eh lah
yi bo kak yi guo
ngin wei
eh ga guo gong gui eh ua
eh long zong be gi ki
ga nya guo eh gi
okay lor
suak liao lo
dan xi
xio tiok zi leh
guo still eh gam ka sad eh ma
an zua gong
gun xiu shi lian la


men kin men kin
guo boi teng lang
ka beh u a neh ze eh bo xiang

go zai gong
guo ju zai lu
guo ju bo su ka lu
an zua lu boi an ne kuan
ta pi an neh kuan kun hor

LOLZ
i wonder will i understand all those things that i have written when i read them back few weeks later:P

纪念 by蔡健雅

纪念歌词-蔡健雅(Tsai, Chien Ya Tanya)
想念变成一条线
在时间里面蔓延
长得可以把世界切成了两个面
他在春天那一边
你的秋天刚落叶 刚落叶
如果从此不见面
让你凭记忆想念
本来这段爱情可以记得很完美
他的样子已改变
有新伴侣的气味 的气味
那一瞬间 你终于发现
那曾深爱过的人 (嗯)~~
早在告别的那天
已消失在这个世界
也许那一次见面
是生命给你机会
了解爱只是人所渴望的投射面
只是渴望会改变
他的爱已经不见 已不见
那一瞬间 你终于发现
那曾深爱过的人 (嗯)~~
早在告别的那天
已消失在这个世界
那一瞬间 你终于发现
心中的爱和思念
都只是属于自己 曾经拥有过

曾经拥有过 曾经拥有过 的纪念

i did go for shopping:P

am i trying to release stress?
thats why i go for shopping?

this morning woke up at 7am
while i was having my breakfast
i listen to 纪念by 蔡健雅
and out of sudden
i feel like having a walk
BUT
i ended up shopping at novy smichov:P

i was searching searching for ANOTHER winter jacket!!!
so i searched and searched and searched
and finally i found one
and i have been trying to same coat for more than 40 mins:P
cause i wanted to buy another sweater so that i can wear it with my jacket
thus
i searched for a suitable sweater
mix and match
and the other reason for that is
i couldnt decide what size i should go for
34 or 38
cause 34 is ngam ngam
couldnt wear a real thick sweater in it
38 would be too over-sized
so i went in and out from the fitting room
so i tried and tried and tried
compared and compared
at last
i decided to get myself the 34 one

BUT

the story has not ended yet
i still feel like buying a sweater
so i went to terrinova
searched and searched
and ta dah
i found one
a gray sport's jacket
(i chose gray as i have too many pink or red shirts AND all my jackets they are in RED!!!)
mind you it took me like 30 mins?? to find the right sweater:P

i dunno why i went for shopping???
i dunno why i bought those two jackers
nah
i dont really want to know the reason:P

haih
time is running out
i seriously have to study!!!

ciau!!

唉

我知道
我有点想得太远
我知道
我很喜欢口是心非
我知道
我太过敏感
我知道 我知道

我不能控制我的口是心非
我不能控制我的白日梦
我不能控制我的过敏
我不能 我不能

现实与童话
毕竟还是有一段距离
虽然是场自制的可能
但是
想到这虚幻的可能
如果发生
它依然还是得跟现实妥协
差距太大

突然
心跌到谷底
不会的
这一切都是虚幻
我
太过敏了：）

is weekend!!!!!

i would not say that i have a tough time for this week in term of doing my revision
cause most of the time (especially during the night) i ll be sleeping
but had 2 tests which are tricky
Lord
i ll leave the worries to You
part of me know that i would have done it better
yet
Lord
pls ease my worries
i ll try not to think about them
well hopefully the adaptation system is working:P--- too much worried ll turn into no worries!!!LOLZ cause no new info is being trasmitted:P
(adaptation means that if you are having the same stimulus for a long time your nerve would not recognise them as a new info like what it did at the beginning which means there wont be any effect on your body --er sth like that)
i ll continue to strive and work harder:)
Lord
i just pray that my result can glorify Your name!!

so
friday
(which has just ended 2 hrs ago)
i pampered myself
to have a short break

after the biochem test
went out with friends at pizza colloseum
had a nice dinner though my pasta is not fully cooked which has made my stomach started to protest..stomach was aching just now

and YES!!!i DID manage to go to bible study!!!
at one time
the temptation was so high and i almost fell into it
but Thank God
He kept me away from the temptation
YAY!!YAY!!YAY!!!
feel so happy as i finally attend bible study
:) :) :) :)
keep it up!!!!

watched bond's movie after attending bible study
i would not say that it is a nice movie
anyway
at least i watched a movie:P
lolz is better than nth

hmmm
am thinking
should i go for a shopping on sat
cause i suddenly have the urge to spend some of my money on buying stuffs like new clothes
( but but but i have told myself not to do any shopping as in buying new clothes:P)
well i ll see how
if tomorrow i m not lazy then maybe i ll go for shopping:P
window shopping MUAHAHA

and i have just realised
i m over reacted and over animated
and these do not reflect that i m actually a 20 years old girl
hmmm
i should change
to become more quiet and more decent and nice in my action, expression, reaction etc
(song supplier i know what you are thinking right now)

is 213am
time to sleep

anyway
1 last sentence
AJA AJA fighting!!!
study study study!!
result
leave it aside!!
:) :) :)

nah
cau!!:)

pozor!!!

as i was floating for the past few days
suddenly i got this msg (somehow)
is like there is a voice telling me
dont be pig headed!!!
dont float too much!!!
and suddenly i got so scared
so
study study study!!!!
be calm and stay on the ground

anyway
just got my parcel today (mind you i shipped it on 17th of sept)
and less than 2 months
it is here!!!
hooray!!!
i would say they arrive just in time!:)
God is good!!!

yesterday night
had such a weird dream
in my dream
my ex-smsmate (i know this sounds weird but i dunno how to define him:P) appeared
is kind of weird:P
as i have not contacted him for like 3 years
and suddenly he is in my dream
in my dream
it just helped me to convey the msg that i wanted to tell him long time ago:)
is like an explaination
weird weird weird
but it was a good dream tough:P

nah
musim studovat
tak
cau!!:)

ill and sick

still feeling not good lah
having sore throat
having nose block
having flu
having cough
head feels dizzy
whole body aching
difficulty in breathing (now is okay but not yesterday i was suffocating for yesterday)
good thing that i dont have headache
now i suspect that i m having a slight fever cause my body feels warm!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

yesterday din study much
cause i kept on resting AKA SLEEPING!!!!!
gosh!!!
next week physio and biochem
but i haven even finished studying half of the syllabus that is going to be tested in the test!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

why suddenly fall sick at such time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good news to those kaki botol:P

yesterday physiology lecture
prof kittnar he was talking about HDL and LDL
and he came across this term
france paradox
saying that french ppl they drink so much of wine
yet they are healthy and the risk of having arteriosclerosis is lower
then
he said we can estimate the risk by the L curve
this is the L curve graph
a.c stands for alcohol consumption
m stands for mortality
and here from the graph
we can deduce that 2units of alcoholic drink/ day is good for health
so
what does this mean
means
2 beers/day
2 small cups of whisky/day
2 glasses of red wine/day
then one of the students asked
if we din drink for like 5 days
then we ended up drinking 10 beers or so in a day to make up the loss
it this applicable for the L curve??
prof. kittnar laughed and the answer is No!!:P
he says we have to drink alcohol consistently
only this ll help to reduce the risk of having arteriosclerosis

so
lets have party and get DRUNK!!!!
opps..we are allowed to have 2 units/day
*blek*

my first flu in prague for 2nd year

out of sudden
i caught a cold for no reason
well maybe this is because i was having sore throat for the past 3 days
and i did not take good care of it:P

anyway
am feeling much better now after take a LONG good rest
slept from 7 pm till 12am!!!! (haih)
feel sad though as now is really critical period as in i seriously need to do my revision
two big tests are coming!!!!

at here
i would like to say thank you to lee peng and xiang yan
1stly, (ceh like a speech pulak:P)
thank you for helping me to change my money into czech crowns
2nd,
thank you for the offer to help me to prepare my dinner

really appreciate that!!!
thank you so much!!!
very very much!!!
dekuju moc!!!!!
jsem vesela že mam dobre kamaradky!:)

aja aja fighting!!!
fight like a warrior for His sake and for His glory!:)

ps: haih again was not able to attend bible study
today's topic was a good one :)
no more missing and skipping!!
Forgive me Lord

pps: oh ya oh ya i have got my picture dictionary (it looks weird though and it is weird cause i din realise is actually a story book --kind of is with pictures and en-cz explaination for certain words in it. aiks i was blur and dizzy while i was choosing which one to buy)

ppps: have changed my phone line from vodofone to O2

random 2

so just now
waiting to enter the room
philip asks:" so tell me the all the amino acids' names and their stuctural formula."
shrujan says:" i have just memorised the 1st 13 yesterday night."
and here they go listing out the names and formula

i was there
staring at them
couldnt figured out anything
i cant even searched anything which would have helped me to answer the question
the least i can give are all those names which have jumbled up

next week
biochem and physio
yet
i m not prepared at all!!!!

so what m i doing now??
go back to the books LAH
gosh!!
what are you doing?

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kgopolelo was asking me the meaning of my name
hmmm
that was an interesting quest
cause seriously
i feel weird to split out my name word by word
and seriously i feel funny when i am trying to explain the meaning of my name
as supposedly my name should have the other meaning instead of what i have now
so here it goes
妍 (yeng): pretty (i feel shy when i say that to others:P)
彤(tong): red (which i feel like HUH??)
and
supposedly if my grandpa he did not insist my mum to follow the family tradition (stuffs like that)
my name is like this
彦 （yeng): smart
彤（tong) : red
i still dont get why my parents they want me to be in red:P

for like 5 - 6 years
not b4 i started my primary school
my name is written like this
陈彦彤

yeah my name has such story (a long story:D)
oh ya oh ya
with the diff yeng
my name pronounced differently
if it is 彦彤 it sounds like yan4 tong2
if it is 妍彤 （which is my name right now) it sounds like yan2 tong2
and there is such a confusion
as to ppl dont really know how to pronounce my name
like my senior
she called me yan1 tong2
like my class teacher
yan4 tong2 (not to mention that she is actually my chinese teacher)

okay
enough for that；）

cau
musim studovat!

微妙的氛围

so as just now
you looked through my eyes
i can see the unspoken changes
risen within you

i can feel the changes
i can sense the difference
(i hope these are not my hallucination)

as i look at you
i smiled
can you hear my whispers?
i would not forget the way how you look at me
it is special to me:)

微妙的氛围
the best conclusion that i can make

Praise the Lord!

tuesday
took the wrong test for biochem
to solve this problem
we have to sit for another test on wednesday
tuesday afternoon
genetics results
a frightening experience
the teacher was actually calling those names who have failed the test
i was counting and counting
and my name is not in the list
i said
Thank God, My Lord!!

today took the biochem test
it was tough and i was stunned
cause i didnt study those
which was a good lesson for me
i have to study more and harder
anyway just got my result
7/10
not so bad:)
way to go!!!!
have to get a better result for my next test!!!

though weekend is not here yet
but i can conclude
what i have been through this week
it itself is a testimony to others!!
and a testimony to myself as well!!

the message is so clear
study hard and study in details
do your best and leave the rest to God!!

Yes Lord!!!
i ll do my best and study HARDER!!!!!
For Your sake and for Your Glory!!!!:)

random

my school has started for 1 month plus
what do i think?
so far so good
as the timetable is not as pack as i thought it is
but
nowadays
especially the "incident" that i had
my mentality is not stable (i m not saying that i m crazy)
is just that
my mood ll change in a sec
i ll feel sad for no reason
i ll feel confused out of sudden
i ll lost my direction and started to question myself why am i here
i ll be thinking what am i doing
and these are happening to me more and more often
starting last wed
i have been questioning myself
i have been trying to convince myself that everything is okay
God is looking after me
and
thats the point which i have diff kind of mood at diff time
cause i m trying to adjust myself
few hrs ago
when i just found out that my works are piled up
and i have to sort them out
i feel like escaping
i dont want to face it
since when i become so weak?
somehow
i hope i can have a mental breakdown
just to make me feel better
at times
i hope i can grab on someone
this is when my desperate state comes
i need shoulders which are wide and warm

eagle wings
this song perfectly describe how i feel right now
i want to feel His presence
which nowadays
i cant really feel Him
which makes me even worse
i am scared that He ll just leave me here
yet
on one side
i know that He ll always be my fortress and my rock!

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chocolate martini
my first alcoholic drink
which turns out to be a disaster
i can really make a conclusion
I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND why there would be so many of them like ALCOHOL!!
they just dont taste nice!!!

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a Mar was not there lah
so no castle can be built in the air

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i have somehow
figured out how to fix my sleeping prob (well hope it ll work)

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i dont looking forward for this coming tuesday
can we just omit that day?

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is time to get back to my books:)

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another dream
is going to be kept in the inner part of my memories
i m just going to leave it in a place
which i couldnt find it

er..

here again..
acting like a 白痴 for the whole day !!
biochem haven revised yet
physio lab is still hanging in the air
genetics here we go haven started
harper's not even 1 page!!
what the TOOOOOOT!!!

oh ya anyway there was 1 meaningful event took place yesterday
which was
i had my first strike in prague!!!
this is the first strike that i have in my entire life!!!
LOLZ
i have never had a strike b4 when i bowl!!!
MUAHAHA
anyway yesterday NIGHT was not very fun
not untill our last round
when suddenly ismail became so excited and "heated" the atmosphere up
and there i went yelling like a crazy women!!!!
that was the most fun part of all the events that i have participated

and
yesterday due to boredom
i played basketball while the game's going on
and i found out that i can become a good side shooter if i train myself
cause you see
i can shoot it accurately if it is from the side (almost every single shot)
and i defend quite well when i played with my friend yesterday with azhar (muahaha i think i defended the ball quite well:P)
nah
even though i found out that i might be good in basketball
yet..
er..
他们太过恐怖了！！ 我不想受伤！！！