worried!!

just when i was doing my pH calculation from the faculty website
i feel sooooo depressed!!!
TOOT!!TOOT!!
they are some REAL difficult questions!!
i gave up halfway as i felt too miserable to finish all 17 questions!
i stopped at quest 10 cause when i scrolled down
TOOOOOOOT!!
more difficult questions!!

and
they some how
reminded me how bad my biochem is
reminded how i answered my last biochem test
thinking of them
i m sinking!!

i DO NOT look forward on tuesday!!
i just DONT!!!
i feel scared

since when
study is never sufficient for me to answer the questions
not in my past 11 years

medicine is hard
REAL hard
you have to put in more than 100% effort
yet sometimes they are just not sufficient

medicine
is not a field where you can just study
without digging more info on ur own
without squeezing your brain
haih
depressed
having them in your brain is one thing
digesting them is another thing
depressed!!

i dont really like biochem (especially organic part and physical part in term of calculation when we are taught how to calculate them!!)
i like physio
(but just thinking of the test i have taken..i can say i like physio but this does not really help me much cause after taking the test i feel like i should study more!!TOOT!!!to be frank i studied quite in detail for this test - or actually i think i have covered everything for the test.)

Lord,
pls forgive me for the wasted time
Lord,
have mercy on me
i ll really try my best and study as hard as i can
i have learned the lesson (which i have it at the very beginning)
so
Have mercy on me
i ll do my best
for the two tests that i have taken
i leave them in Thy hands
i pray that
what they are ll glorify Your name!:)
for the coming test
pls equip me with wisdom, understanding and a brain with big capacity
and
most important
is to handle the time that You have given to me wisely!

ARGHHHHH!!
depressed and worried!