gentle vs soft spoken

tram stop
me:" what la!......(forgotten what i said actually)
ezra:" eh speak softer la..lower down ur voice.
me:" (lowering down my voice) eh~

on the way to church
me:" even i dont interested in Blah blah blah
ezra:" eh try to be more soft spoken lah
me:" (trying to do so) e~v~e~n ...
ezra:" HAHA eh i asked you to be more soft spoken but not asking you to talk so gentle okay?"
me:" to me they are almost the same

okay
i have to admit
i seriously couldnt control the way how i speak, my over -reacted body language
when i talk (especially when i m in excited mode)
those who know me
should know that ever since secondary school
i m the one who always( well maybe not always) come up with stupid and idiot body language, stupid quote, and NOT TO MENTION my ANIMATED and pat chi expression
for example
for my highschool mates
do you guys still remember the "yun dong yun dong" action (gosh thats soooo...er stupid)
or
i stab you with the stupid action (couldnt remember whats the action)
or
the fainted expression

my Ktt apartmentmates
i think they know the most
i laughed like a chicken which is going to be beheaded soon (laugh histericallly-if you dont understand how a chicken sounds when it is going to die soon:P)
i sometimes will call them by the name that i give them with "horrible" intonation
i ll speak like a cartoon character or even sing using that voice (which EHEM annoy esther the most:P)
i ll suddenly gone wild and be very excited for no reason


so
is hard for me to change
to have smaller reaction
to lower my voice
not when i m in excited mode:P

i m who i m
so
MUAHAHA
not going to change:P
well maybe i will when i m too old to even speak or laugh:P