boredom=P

warning!!!this might harm your life!!and you might not even understand any single line below!!=P
YOU KNOW YOU'RE OBSESSED WITH DBSK WHEN YOU:

those that i have highlighted the whole sentence in red means that i have done that before or these are what i m doing right now. the one in bracket is just my comment=)

1. Buy a new phone because the old one didn’t let you put DBSK ringtones

2. Set your internet passwords to go along the lines of ‘Yunjaeyoosumin♥’ and 'DBSKHwaiting!'

3. Have your computer desktop icons moved because, ‘they were covering Jaejoong’s face’.

4. Cry when you see them perform…on tv.

5. Have already thought up the names of your future children with them.

6. You want a p*n*s so that you can join the fun you KNOW is going on.

7. Hear people call them gay and you get excited and say ‘Really? Who do you think is dating who?’

8. Refuse to call them a ‘boy band’ and call them ‘man band’ or ‘acapella dance group’.

9. Place health, family, and school 2nd behind watching streaming DBSK and fangirling.

10. Date an Asian just to be one step closer.

11. Hum DBSK songs when passing Asians in hopes they’ll talk to you.

12. Cut your hair like one of the members.

13. Start learning Korean or Japanese just in case you ever meet them. ( but nt because i want to meet them i just want to understand them well =P)

14. Curse Cassiopeia, but praise them for their fancams.

15. Realized you were a pedophile the first time you watched Hug.

16. Realize you have more fangirl friends than real friends…

17. Celebrate the members’ birthdays, but not your significant other’s.

18. Have turned your mother into a fangirl, and have moved on to your dad.

19. Debate whether you should eat for the next month or get that new photobook.

20. Read Fanfiction at work/school.

21. Write Fanfiction at work/school.

22. Start believing Mpreg might be possible.

23. Learn Photoshop just so you can draw naked fanart.

24. Have at least one Photoshoped photo of the members as girls.

25. Rank the men you meet from ‘not even human’ to ‘godly like DBSK’.

26. Buy a 1TB external hard drive for all the HQ & HD DBSK goodness.

27. Have uploaded a video on youtube related to DBSK.

28. Hear the word OT5 and get mental pictures.

29. Have made it your life mission to convert everyone to the DBSK way.

30. Join LiveJournal just for the DBSG community.

31. Join Soompi for the same reason.

32. Buy their album…all 4 versions…

33. Snarl like an animal at any female they get close to (or in some instances, wish you were that girl).

34. Get confused in biology when they tell you ‘Sheep’ and ‘Bunnies’ can’t have babies. ( this is really waaaay too funny..for those who dunno dbsk wont be able to understand this but i do!!anyway dont really agree with this =P)

35. Squeal w/joy when you find out ‘Lions’ and ‘Tigers’ CAN have babies. (same as above!=P)

36. Expect every singer to be able to sing in 4 languages.

37. Know the Korean fan chants and scream while you watch them perform.

38. Hear people talk about them breaking up you yell, ‘5-1=0, 5-1=0!!!!’

39. Ask your significant lover to ‘squeal like a dolphin’ and get upset when they don’t do it right. (i think junsu squeal it in a nice way to yoochun if i m not wrong tho i have not heard about it)

40. Associate the word ‘duck’ with Xiah’s generous posterior.

41. Expect ‘Eu Kyung Kyung’ to come out in the dictionary. (this is way too naive..lolz!!!)

42. Realize you channel Sir Mix-a-Lot every time you see Junsu’s butt.

43. Find yourself understanding and laughing at Xiah’s oyagi gags.

44. Don’t think playing soccer on someone’s forehead is impossible. (perhaps i m not fanatic enough i dont really get this)

45. Think Chunglish is an actual language, and study it.

46. Start to think guys that cry in public are ‘f*cking sexy’.( not sexy la but acceptable =P they cry in a really handsome way!!!)

47. Begin wearing shoes w/o socks because Micky does it. (oh so he wears shoes without socks? i din know that!!)

48. Find that Micky Mouse ears turn you on. (kind of )

49. Swear MinxFood is your OTP.

50. Found yourself shopping for Mangdoongie at the pet store.

51. Expect all Asians to be as tall as Max.

52. Freak out that the songs on the radio don’t have a ‘sonic scream’.

53. Start to think Max’s so snarky he might be Snape’s nephew.(he is sometimes but he is way too good looking to be snape's nephew=P)

54. Think all leaders should be like Yunho, and get disappointed when they aren’t.

55. Have read/written a haiku about U-Know’s lip mole.

56. Love that U-Know thinks Bambi is a girl.

57. Acquire an obsession with moobs.

58. Ask your significant other why THEY don’t have a small face like U-Know.

59. Swear that Hero could win the title of ‘Miss Universe’ if only they allowed men to enter.(he is pretty bt i dont really like to use this term i prefer handsome or superbly good looking!!!)

60. Know Hero can’t dance (well) and Don’t F***ing Care. (i din know that he cant dance well )

61. Think Hamtaro PJs are the sex. ( thought of buying one too=P but not because it is sexy but it is simply too cute!!!)

62. Find that expressionless men are your ideal.

63. Realize you’re a sadist when you see Jaejoong tied to a wall.

64. The top 30 songs on your iTunes are all by DBSK. (right now not only top30!!all of the songs in my mp3 are all from dbsk!!)

65. Automatically classify anyone who doesn't know who DBSK are as clueless idiots as inferior human beings.(er i m not that extreme)

66. Feel the need to listen to DBSK 24/7...even in your sleep. (true true true very true!!)

67. See a mirror and think 'MIROTIC'. (ILU JJ FOR THAT)

68. Acquire a fetish for black silk. (THX MIROTIC)

69. See the number 69 and you wonder which members are at it right now.

70. Cry when people say DBSK is getting old.

71. Play word-association and the first thing that comes to mind has to do with DBSK...even the word sardine.

72. Think men look better with eyeliner.

73. Have a spontaneous orgasm at the mention of anything DBSK related.

74. Think it's normal for men to wear more bling than you.

75. Don't know Korean, but can correctly sing every single song with perfect pronunciation. (but i only know how to sing precisely right now only one song which is insa from hero=P)

76. Cosplay/Consider-Cosplyaing as one of the boy's Balloons outfits, and going to an anime convention to see how many people glomp the shit out of you.

77. Name your new puppy 'Max' or 'Hero' in honor of DBSK.

78. Start adorning your msn-chats/text messages with emoticons (when you used to hate those things) after you found out Jae does it.

79. No longer think purses aren't gender specific. (oh so this is how their purse looks like?? gotta go and have a look!anyway i think it ll be fine even if they use a female purse)

80. Know & celebrate their birthdays, but can't remember your friends' OR parents...hm...

81. Compare the age of every person you meet how old they'd be in relation to -insert member here-.

82. Buy things with the color red simply because it's DBSK's color.(lolz i love red from the beginning !!)

83. Have pictures of them on your school supplies. (not yet since here i cant get anything with their photo on it=P)

84. Have had to explain who they are to a teacher because he/she noticed the pictures on your school supplies.

85. Have learned the moves to more than one of their dances.

86. Would gladly date one of their siblings, if only because that would mean you were related to them. (well i prefer to get closer to their siblings and date with them in person rather than their siblings!!=P)

87. Move a guy closer to the top of your 'who I'd date list' just because he is a fanboy.

88. Are confident you'd be instant friends with just about every other DBSK fangirl, even if you didn't speak the same language.

89. Giggled when you first heard the new album was called Mirotic, because you knew they wanted to call it 'Erotic', but couldn't.

90. Spontaneously orgasm every time somebody says 'HEY!' to you. (thank you Mirotic Album)

91. Swear the Cartier Love Rings prove, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that Jaeho is infact real.

92. Love the fact that some people still believe they are straight.

93. Get mad when a non-fan calls them gay, since they are using it as an insult, but when a fan says it, you spend the next few hours debating parings and end up remembering ot5 is the real heart of the matter.

94. Say red is your favorite color, even if it isnt.(red is my fav!!=P but i seriously dunno why dbsk is related to red!)

95. Curse Lee SooMan for knowing how to rape you of any money you planned on having, ever.

96. Have convinced yourself that 6 years (or more) is not really that big of an age difference when it comes to dating/getting married (just because you'd like to believe you had a chance with them if you met them). (well for me the age gap the most ll be only 2 years old!! so i ll definitely have the chance!! MUAHAHA!!)

97. At one point or another you joked about/seriously considered nameing one of your current/future children after them.

98. Are determined to turn your current/future son into a fanboy.

99. Realize the most organized folder on your computer is the one that holds your pictures of DBSK, all 1,000+ of them...

100. Laugh when you realize jae's nickname is 'BooJae', because now anytime Yunho says, 'My Boo' (which is often), it's more proof of the Jaeho lovin'.

101. Notice that Yunho used to say JaeJae was his BFF4L, but now he says its Minmin, thus implying that Jaeho MUST have accepted Min into their lovin'. Tru Fax.

102. Utterly LOVE the person who came up with the idea that the boys turn and sing to each other during their powerballads (whoever that was).

103. Swear that X-Man was the greatest show ever invented, since you could watch dbsk do the most random shit ever.

104. Learn how to play korean games, like OF COURSE, just because DBSK play it (and cuz you, like Min, want to intimidate your friends into telling everything). (i definitely like this game!!!!)

105. Know MinMin watches porn, and love it (he's one of us!).

106. Know more about DBSK then you do your own relatives (oh yes, its true, and you know it).

107. Watched 'the lion king' and decided what DBSK members would be which characters.( why must it be lion king?)

108. Meet DBSK fans whereever you go, including a Dir en Grey concert (spend the 5 hours in line fangirling dbsk, not diru).

109. Immediately blame any outfit and/or hairstyle you don't like on the boys' stylists, even if you're looking at stalker pictures and its obvious the boys chose it themselves.(well when i look at stalker picture they look superb is just those album cover that they are shoooting or magazine they are shooting for, i ll complain especially yoochun's hairstyle!!why they always like to change his hairstyle!!)

110. Believe DBSK is a health hazard, because you are seriously worried they might give you a heart attack one day (yoosumin sexy counting anyone?), though you would die happy.

111. Have written "I love DBSK" or something similar in the sand on a beach.

112. Have learned to write in Korean, but only the boys' names...(haha maybe sooner or later i ll learn how to write their name in hanggul=P but right now i haven done this yet)

113. Have used DBSK in more than one school project for which you earned a grade.

114. Have wished more than once that you were one of the boys' microphones.(well i do not think it in this way..well that means i m really a crazy fan like those who think in such way! )

115. Have fanfiction as the primary source of literature in your life.

116. Stay up all night watching an award show streaming live from halfway across the world in a language you don't understand, just to see them perform and see which awards they won, and even end up late for work, but it's worth it.

117. Use their scant, and awkwardly worded, English phrases in your daily life. Ex. "Let's do this!"

118. Have looked up Jaejoong's hamtaro PJ's up on E-bay and Seriously considered buying them.

119. Know more about gay sex than some actual gay people. Yes, you've read THAT MANY smut fics.( i m not that extreme so you can feel relieved for me and i promise i wont turn into such fan Never! i m a good girl!! and i hate those things!)

120. Dream about DBSK or DBSK related things almost every single night.(sad to day i have not even dreamnt about them once how i wish that i can dream about yoochun or jaejoong once=P but is okay if i dont)

121. Spazz when one of them looks straight at a fancam even though you know they aren't exactly looking at you.(well i do not react like this this proves that my day dreaming ability has not yet reached to expert level =P)

122. Buy a new computer just to do DBSK stuff. (well i m not that dedicated yet and in the near future unlikely i ll be doing this =P)

123. Go to korean cd section, the first thing is to look for their cd.( this one is for sure what else should i look for if it is not heir cd?=P)

124. Start to imagine how Yunjae's babies will look like whenever you see some cute babies.

125. Jam out full blast in your car to DBSK. Rollin'!

126. Ignore your severe lack of wallspace and order the Mirotic poster, cuz of the Ho!nips.

127. Give DBSK names to all your electronics. (thats kind of lame)--no offense =P

128. Then cry when you drop 'Junsu' the cellphone. (this is lame as well i would say that person who do this is abit childish --to make it sound nicer=P)

129. Proudly display your DBSK collection despite disapproval by the parentals. (well my parents wont dispprove me to do so but i did show my dbsk's wall paper collection to my friends despite how uninterested they are towards those photos--well i just showed to 1 or 2 and they were being nice to me at least they did listen to my "admiration"=P)

130. Write your name + a member on every piece of blank (and sometimes not blank) paper you find.(you have just reminded me that i can do that when i m bored =P)

131. Have your 'ideal man' list consisting of DBSK attributes. (big butt, small face, broad shoulders...)

132. Think Yunho's scar is so sexy, you almost want to cut up your boyfriend's face so he has one too.( i din know that he has a scar on his face.)

133. Try to figure out who's last name would fit better with your first name...in case you got married...

134. Support all SM artists, since they've probably talked to DBSK. (no i dont like super junior or any other boy band i take them as a competitor to dbsk =P)

135. Stand next tall people and pretend they're DBSK. (er thats kind of lame as well)

136. Have joined every DBSK related community on Livejoural & Soompi...EVERY community.

137. Find any possible excuse to use some of Changmin's UFO replies in real life.

138. Stay up into the wee hours of the morning checking what you've done off this list. ( i actually read this whole list for the second time the first time was during the morning and i was checking this list to see how obessed i m with dbsk and i realised i m just a normal fans not like those really fanatic fans=P--erm tho i might sound like one but i to make it clear i just simply like to exaggerate things=P)

139. Send videos of the boys singing 'Happy Birthday' to your friends on THEIR birthdays.( i dont have one but ll do so if i have=P)

140. Find out that lonely girl int he corner of the classroom is a DBSK fangirl and you become friends.

141. Sit in class and all the people around you now know who DBSK are.

142. Think of Jaejoong anytime anyone mentions Heroes.( yes for sure..if not who else ll it be =P)

143. Sqeal with delight upon discovering your school color is going to be red, and yell out 'DBSK HWAITING!' at pep-rallies.

144. Add '...in bed with DBSK' when reading out your fortune cookies.

145. No longer find 'trap stamp' tattoos on men strange.


well out of 145 items, i have just done THREEE out of the 145!! so this proves that i m really normal. to my friends, i am normal. =) but i seriously could not iamgine that other fans would seriously be so obessed with dbsk to such an extent that would be too much dy!=P
i m a rational person you see! =P

anyway if you really finished reading this post, i would like to say thank you especially for those who are not a dbsk's fans and might not even know who are they!!
but i doubt anyone ll finish reading this as it is way tooooo long!! =P

i wanted to post this simply because i m too bored tho biochem test is next monday and i m not 100% fully revise them!! *aiks!!*

(SERIOUS!) CREDIT: hoshiko_malfoy @ LJ

my new 'layout' --sort of =P

okay it has been nearly 1 week that i did not update my blog=P
actually i have no inspiration to write any new entry not until now!!

super excited and super super proud of myself
i have finally created my own DBSK music player on my blog!!!
love it love it!!!!

ll try to update those songs that i like from them as often as possible!!

love the new ehem icon?
anyway
love my playlist so much
MUAHAHAHA!!!

重温

不知为何，想再补充一下我想表达的“习惯".我想我还是打个比方吧！就好像当一个人每每用餐时已经习惯了饮用柠檬茶，所以渐渐的，他不清楚自己到底是喜欢喝柠檬茶，还是因为他习惯了，慢慢德在潜移默化之下，他理所当然地认为这，就是他最喜欢的饮料。同样的，今天我们由于太过于习惯生活上每天你认为都应该发生的事情，当有一天它不如你所预期般的习惯性发生，你会因此而沮丧。其实，很有可能你并不是因为那件事的本质而沮丧，而是为了你的不习惯而沮丧，为了你的习惯而沮丧。但，人啊！往往都不察觉到，总以为那就是你心里的写照，因而遗忘了你那最初的的感觉。就好像现在的我，已经渐渐的习惯某些事，与其说是某些事，更正确地说是一件每天都会在我生活里发生的“习惯”事件。每当这个我习惯的事情较迟些发生时，我都会浑身不自在。渐渐的，我已经搞不清楚我是因为“习惯”而沮丧，还是为了这件事的真正出发点而失望。是的，我曾经质疑过自己，也曾经问过自己这到底是我想要它每天在我生活里发生，还是我只是不希望这个习惯不见掉而造成我的不习惯。但，最终我还是失败了，我听不到我心里的声音，我的声音最终还是被这个习惯淹没了。现在，我可以说是拿这个习惯没辙，我，已经不再漩涡中挣扎，就让这个习惯顺其自然继续成为我生活中的一部分，而我就跟着它随波逐流吧！我真正想说的是我不知道我是因为习惯而把它当成理所当然，失去才懂得珍惜呢，还是我只是纯粹的不习惯罢了。（哎，小姐原来这才是你的重点哦，干嘛长篇大论呢？哈哈，真是那我没辙！）

哈哈，写得很玄！但是讲真的我现在对习惯这两个字有些敏感。
哈哈，好一篇的话中有话，字字都是玄机啊！（虽然是几经辛苦才讲到）
哎，你们是不懂我在表达些什么的啦，如果你们知道的话，那我不就惨了！


因为无聊，去读一读我的myspace
发现了这一篇，
哈！我是觉得还不错，所以就拷贝了份，放在这儿。
当作奇文共赏。 =P

yoochun micky yoochun!!

insa &忘れないで

insa

insa (performed by: Dong Bang Shin Ki)
romanization by: asn_aishiteru (also credit: aheeyah.com)

Barami momun gu shigan jocha
Naegen nomu mojarangol
Hanbone miso majimak insa
Saranghamnida gudel

Shigane jichodo sarang-e apado
Gu shigan jocha chuogigo majimak insal haneyo
Saranghamnida saranghamnida
Fly away Fly away LOVE
Fly away Fly away LOVE
Fly away Fly away LOVE

Neseng-e dan hanbone sarang-a anyong

Greeting (Performed By DBSG)
translation by: bangku (also credit: aheeyah.com)

Even that time when the wind stays
Its not enough for me.
I smile one more time and give my final greeting:
I love you.

I am tired now and love hurts but
Even if that time is just a memory
I have to give my final greeting.
I love you, I love you.
Fly away Fly away LOVE
Fly away Fly away LOVE
Fly away Fly away LOVE

In the afterlife I will greet my love again

Music/Lyrics: Jaejoong~

忘れないで
Don't Forget

I can feel your presence on the path we always walk on
Quietly closing my eyes wishing
that this feeling will never go away

I want to become the wind and envelop you in my arms
I want to fly to the world you're in
I want to see you, I want to see you
I will always wait for you
Because I just can't forget you

The night that I felt you
was already broken
The sweet drifting memories become stronger, Baby
I never want this to end
and hold your hand tighter
I can't leave you

I want to become the wind and envelop you in my arms
and fly to the world you're in
because I want to see you, I want to see you
I'll be waiting for you
I'll be waiting for you

Because I just can't forget you
I'll always be here, I won't forget you

Credits: whisperpuppies

Romanisation and Kanji

忘れないで
WASURENAIDE

ベッドに座って　君のことを考えていた
beddo ni suwatte kimi no koto wo kangaeteita
逢えなくてもいい
aena kute moii
逢いたいこの気持ちだけでいいから
aitai kono kimochi dakede iikara

強く残っている記憶　
tsuyoku no kotte iru kioku
君からの短いメッセージが
kimi kara no mijikai messeji ga
切なく胸締めつけるけど　
setsunaku muneshi metsukeru kedo
永久の幸せ僕が守り続けたい
towa no shiawase boku ga mamori tsuzuketai

*
風になってそっと包みたい　
kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい
kimi ga iru sekaini sugutonde yukitai
逢いたくても逢いたくても　
aitakutemo aitakutemo
待ってるから
matte rukara
だ忘れないで
tada wasurenaide


いつもの歩道に
Itsumono hodouni
君の影を感じていた
kimi no kage wo kanjiteita
静かに瞳を閉じ祈る
shizukani mewo toji ino ru
いつまでも消えないように
itsumademo kienai youni


深く傷ついていたこと　
Fukaku kizutsuite itakoto
気付かせず笑っていた君に
kizu kasezu waratte ita kimi ni
ずっと大切にするから
zutto daisetsu nisurukara
叫び続ける ありふれた言葉でも
sakebi tsuzukeru arifureta kotoba demo

*
風になってそっと包みたい　
kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい
kimi ga iru sekaini sugutonde yukitai
逢いたくても逢いたくても　
aitakutemo aitakutemo
待ってるから
matte rukara
だ忘れないで
tada wasurenaide


君に触れた夜
kimi ni fureta yoru
壊れてしまうほどに
kowa reteshimauhodoni
漂う香りに また想いが募る Baby
tada you kaori ni mata omoi gatsu no ru baby
いつまでも果てないように
itsumademo hatenai youni
もっと強く繋いだ手
motto tsuyoku tsunaidate
離れないように
hanarenai youni

*
風になってそっと包みたい　
kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai

君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい
kimi ga iru sekaini sugutonde yukitai
逢いたくても逢いたくても　
aitakutemo aitakutemo
待ってるから
matte rukara

*
風になってそっと包みたい
kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
君がいる世界に すぐ飛んでいきたい
kimi ga iru sekaini tsugutonde ikitai
逢いたくても逢いたくても
aitakutemo aitakutemo
待ってるから
matte rukara
ただ忘れないで
tada wasurenaide

ここにいるよ 忘れないで
kokoni iru yo wasurenaide





muahaha
so the fever continues =p
but most probably it ll come to an 'end' when the new semester starts and i ll pick up the heat again when i have free time like this =P

anyway
these two songs
the first song insa
i know exactly how to sing it *sign of victory ^^V*
and the 2nd song
忘れないで
i have successfully memorizing the chorus part
i doubt i ll learn the other part
as it takes up alot of my memory space =p
but ll try to learn if one day i really wanted to sing it so badly
tomorrow their 3rd asia live tour ll begin
1st stop SEOUL
lasting for 3 days =)
lets see the petition for dbsk to have their concert in malaysia works or not
and if it works, i hope they ll have it when i m back in malaysia den i ll definitely go and watch it =) *cross my fingers*

思绪

靠在你的左边
听着你的心跳声
规律的呼吸声

就这样
静静的
等待黎明划破天空
都不愿睁开眼

那一瞬间
是否能幻化为永远。

哈哈！
最近真的真的太闲了，
翻开书，眼皮就不听话地渐渐合上。
懒洋洋地躺在床上，又无法入睡
（嗯，虽然那时是中午时分=P)
聆听着我最爱的歌曲
都是伤感的旋律
心中莫名的忧伤=P
每每这种旋律响起，我总觉得应该一个人静静的走在河堤旁，温暖的煦风轻拂我的脸颊，头发随风起舞，然后若有所思地边聆听着如此优美的旋律边望着远方。
请原谅我丰富的想象力，但是如此的景象会时常蹦出来=p

啊！离题了。
就在我懒洋洋的聆听着歌曲，
望着鹅黄色的天花板，
偶尔传来外面的车笛声，
不知不觉，
就编起了以上的段落（不要问我为什么=P 因为我也不知道MUAHAHA)

其实，
就在我漫无目的地躺在我温暖的睡床时，
突然觉得，
好不想忙碌的学期开始。
但是，
躺了一会儿 ，
又觉得怎么失去了原动力。
才发觉，
原来我的原动力，
来自于学期的忙碌，
来自于学业，
来自于想要归乡的冲动！

该来的总是要来的，
虽然好不想翻开我的书。
我会慢慢地重新调整我的脚步，
来应对新学期的忙碌！

越扯越远=P

但是，
此时我的心情，
还是满满的惬意，
完全没有想要开动我的‘火力’的意思。

ps:
让我充满无限伤感的两首歌是
忘れないでby DBSK　作词，作曲：英雄在中
insa by DBSK
真的是很美很美的两首歌！

窗外飘起了纷纷的雪花，
仔细地望着飘落的雪花，诶！好细小的雪花。
小得会被人忽视。
但是，我喜欢如此的雪花，
飘落在空中，
瘦小的的它们，
在空中翩翩起舞。
^^

marble cake

dont ask me why T_T
my cakes always have the moon surface thingy
i supposed it is my trademark
ARGHH
kind of sad la
i expect it to have a smoother surface
anyway i hope that it ll taste good
as it is Lee Peng's birthday cake :)
hope it really turn out to be a nice one
cannot have a try on it
not untill we sing birthday song, cut the cake and eat it
really hope it is a nice one!!

anyway today ll be the last day i ll be doing pastry (at least for winter sem)
summer sem
GARRR
wait till i have finished my exam and all :)

till then
no more baking =P
have had it enough :)

anyway
Happy Valentine to all

too bad
dont have the other one
of not MUAHAHA i can bake cookies or maybe doing choc truffle for him *blek*
=P

black dot .

i thought that i have already erased the black "dot" in my memory
and
i thought i can handle it in an easier way
thats why
i choose to be more carefree when i talk about it
i choose to look and sound normally when i talk about it
sometimes i choose to talk about it as i wanted to make it as if it is just any other normal "thing" on the earth
yet i m wrong

i should have tried to avoid it
cause now it is haunting me again

who can i blame
is my own fault
being stupid and naive(?)
i m sure that it was not me during that time
even now
i wanted to make it sound normal
but when i m trying to convince myself about it
it somehow failed

another solution for it
i shall avoid it from now onwards
seriously
i dunno why
now it is haunting my mind
this black dot
can never be erased
though i thought i have got over it
ppl might not think so if they have seen the way how i handle it
but i have no choice
i got a shock as well as in the way how i handle it
this is not the way that i wanted
really
but the 1st time when i did it
i have left no choice other than acting normally
though at the first place i wanted to ignore
BUT
i cant!!!
and it has lead me to the wrong conclusion
which is
i thought i have erased it
and i can face it normally

i m getting worried now
but then
again
this time is my own fault
i shouldnt be so "carefree" when it comes to this matter
cause it has been a long time that i have not been reminded about this black dot
untill i have forgotten that i should at least set a limit on that
so
now the outcome is
i m being haunted by this black dot again

ARGHHHH!!!!

i hope everything ll turn okay
Lord,
i really pray that things ll not happen in the way that i do not wish to
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
and i just realised
i feel ashamed of myself
it is always when i m down or stress or having any negative thinking
then i ll think about God is being with me all the time
other than that
i tend to leave Him aside
i know He ll never forsake us
Is us who ll tend to stay far away from Him
He ll always be there waiting for us
extending out His hands to greet us
Is us who ll ignore Him

Lord,
pls forgive me
nowadays i have been skipping my daily bible study routine
nowadays prayer somehow has been lacking in my daily life
nowadays i dont even think about You (the idea ll just pop out for a sec and then disappear again)

sometimes
i just feel painful that i have taken Your grace for granted

Lord,
pls forgive me and pls give me strength and determintion
so that my spiritual growth ll continue growing :)
and i ll always focus on You :)

dunno why
after writing this
i feel much better
i believe God knows whats the best for us
if things happen in the way that i do not wish to
somehow, God ll always have a solution for us so that we can solve it :)
if not
God ll always give us strength to endure it :)

my home baked pastries : )

this is the 1st time i m baking choc moist cake and it turned out to have the ikan bilis smell (according to yee yong ) cause i borrowed the cake tin from my malay friends and probably they put their ikan bilis into the cake tin. anyway the 2nd time, when i baked it for suz, it tasted okay cause i used my own cake tin :) BUT i dunno why, my choc cake always have the moon surface appearance, i think maybe the batter is too much and the cake tin is too small hence, when it rised, the moon surface ll appear =P anyway i m planning to bake brownied instead of this cause i dont really like the texture =P
this super huge egg tart!!! it took me 1 hr plus to finish baking it tho according to the recipe it only needs around 15-20 mins. but mine is way too big so eheh..i just realised this after i put it into the oven..i am so scared that the crust ll be burnt out but luckily it did not..anyway it is okay though next time i need to make sure it is sweet enough. now only the surface and the crust are sweet enough the rest tasted a bit like steamed egg =P
anyway next time i ll make sure i buy the mould =P
i made another choc biscuit cake which looks nicer than this one even without the topping as i m supposed to put the choc topping on top of it but then i forgot to take a photo of it =P (i swear it looks waaaay nicer than this one!!) anyway this is the easiest and the nicest and is a 100% sure nice cake!!! =P i can make it everyday as it does not need oven. what you need is a fridge and a stove thats all!! :D
this blueberry pie is a disaster to me cause i think the tin too small dy and the inti is overflowing!! (although it does look okay in the picture =P i hope )
and i put too much of blueberry!! wah is so sour and sweet. my pour housemates they have to finish a quarter of it (can u imagine it is a quater of that big pie!!!) poor them =P
i feel sorry for them and i promise i wont be baking that again!! because i personally dont like it!! =P sour and sweeet what a bad combination and the overflowing blueberry inti turned out to be blueberry jam.


my next aim MARBLE cake!! :) tomorrow i m baking it as it is my friend's birthday hopefully it ll be a success :)
i ll post up the pic if it looks okay :P


ps: i also baked butter cookies and peanut butter cookies the latter one is way better than the former one but i forgot to take a picture of them =P

mbc star prettty boy top 20 ranking!!!!

*drum rolls*

now i present to you
the mbc star pretty boy top ranking

the 1st goes to

*drum rolls*

Kim Hyun Joong (ss501)!!!!!!

*claps claps claps gasps gasps gasps*

^^V

so undeniable he is the most good looking (ehem okay some might want to say that he is the prettiest wateve *blek* )
MUAHAHA

1. Kim Hyunjoong (SS501)
2. Jo Insung
3. Lee Minho
4. Jang Geunseok
5. Jung Ilwoo
6. Jang Donggeon
7. Kim Bum
8. Kang Dongwon
9. NichKhun (2PM)
10. Kim Wonjoon
11. Kim Hyesung
12. Kim Heechul (Super Junior)
13. Lee Junki
14. Jaejoong (DBSK)
15. Won Bin
16. Kim Jaewook
17. Lee Hongki (FT Island)
18. Park Sihoo
19. Taemin (SHINee)
20. Lee Seunggi


just looking through the list
i just cant believe WOO BIN is in the 15th
unbelievable
that Hyun Joong Oppa actually beats Woo Bin
though i personally think
woo bin might be better looking than Hyun Joong Oppa
BUT
<3 ♥ oppa now
so haha he got the 1st!!!!!!!!!
tho i m still abit curious
is he that good looking ??

anyway
why should i care about it =P

kind of excited
cause i didnt expect that he ll be the No. 1 :)

wait
hero jaejong
even lost to him???
hero jaejong is the champion for the prettiest guy competition (sth like that) in 2001(?)
yet he lost to Hyun Joong Oppa
and
wait wait wait
jang donggeung also lost to him??
whoa
again
*gasps*

happy happy happy
dont get me wrong
i m not like those maniac fans =P
i just simply like him :)
like a little kid who likes ultraman pokemon doraemon etc :)

turning into a BUN!!

arghhh!!
i have been saying that i want to on diet since 2 weeks before CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!
but
it has turned out that i m gaining weight instead!!

now i dont have the courage to even step on the bathroom scale
is so unbearable to see the number is increasing

actuallly hor today is supposed to be the 1st day of my on diet day
but then
it failed again due to some unavoidable reason

dont care la!!!
i must start my on diet tomorrow
if not
i m really turning into the bun
i ll be gaining back the weight that i had when i was in 1st year

i dun wan!!!!!!!

T_T
yet just now i had 1 bar of cadbury choc!!!

T_T

cannot cannot
now my belly hor
wah
my tighs hor
wah
my face hor
wah

what more can i say

i m really turning into a bun or ball
i really can bounce back or even float back to malaysia dy la!!!

i promise
i really promise
this time i ll really control my diet
cos the feeling of having a HUGE tummy
the feeling of having elephant tighs
the feeling of cant find any suitable pants or clothes to wear
the feeling of feeling my butts are expending horizontally
wah not good to have those feelings!!

no!! no!! no!!
so here goes my on diet plan!!

i ll follow it strictly
if not
if not
if not
er
er
er
i dunno what kind of pants should i go for

oh ya oh ya
the feeling of i actually can flap my arms (手臂) like a fan
can you imagine that
wah unbearable ah

so
pls remind me if it happens that i mentioned on my abnormal eating behavior in my blog starting from now onwards :P

i m not asking for a slimmer body figure
i just dont want to gain weight =P

AJA!!AJA!! FIGHTING!!!!

：）

好啦！我发觉我最近常常写一些有的没的，
是的我会改进的。
要开工咯！已经当了三天的懒猪。
我要看得戏，我想做的事，都已达成！ ^^V
是时候读书，为下学期准备！ ：)
*悲从中来* =P

突然担心开学时能否应付繁重的课业，
还是趁寒假有空，替下学期做好准备！ ：)

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突然想起以前在ktt的时光，
以前，最最最期待就是周末的到来，
因为可以有青年崇拜，又有周日成人崇拜。
ktt 闷吗？
其实还好，因为周末的充实，我一点都不觉得闷抑或者是无聊。

突然很想念每次青年崇拜结束后的MAMAK聚餐。
哈哈！还记得，有一次，我，esther,秀慧和jane
竟然能坚持到底，不啻就是不吃，虽然美食就在眼前 =P
还有，还有
有一次，不知为何，大伙儿说起了冷笑话
超好笑的！
还有，还有
最最最记得那个印度老兄，
被我们这些ktt的学生的坚持不叫水的原则感到无能为力 （他第一次的确是有被吓着 =p)
哈！还记得，nilai 小贩中心的那位印度小姐
一看到我们，就会自动排好桌子。
还有，我所想念的三色水。
每次不管风吹雨打（有没有酱夸:P) 我都必定要喝它！ （虽然，一杯rm3.50 如果我没记错）
哇！我刚才回想，我竟然还记得小贩摊位的排法！
不知现在怎样了
应该是不可能会在回到nilai了。
有些时候，有些事，只会有那么一次，所以要好好珍惜！

突然，也好怀念在ktt同esther,linda, rongrong 住在一起的点点滴滴。
还记得，有一次我们聊到通宵，
我们在想，alevel 后，我们是否还会像现在这样如此的熟络。
是否还会跟彼此如此亲近。
现在，答案揭晓，
的确，距离会让我们疏远。
但是，
一切的点点滴滴，
我都会永远珍惜，
不会忘记！ :）

哇！哇！哇！
哈哈！请别介意，只是有感而发！ =p

我会尽量控制！ =p

sweet dream ~~~^^V

i had a SWEET dream last night
a real sweet dream

okay la
actually i woke up at 4am cos i slept in a weird pose (you see i suddenly fell asleep while watching You tube XP)
so in that weird pose i actually had a horrible dream

but then after i adjusted my pose
fuah
SWEET DREAM!!!!!

usually i ll have such sweet dream
when the exam is near
but yesterday night is an exception

is really a SWEET dream

ah why i woke up!!!!!
why~why~why~~

anyway
baking biscuit cake later!!!^^V

hopefully it turn out to be nice!! ^^V

if i have time after baking cake
i ll try to do banana pancake

then later
i ll bake marble cake
then butter cake
(but have to buy the ingredients first;
thought of buying the electronic mixer cause the batter for butter cake and marble cake needs to be very smooth use manual mixer also can la..but i hope it ll be as smooth as what i ll get if i use electronic one :D)

oh ya
then blueberry pie!! (KEEP IN VIEW)

MUAHAHA
i never knew that i actually CAN bake cake
last time i baked choc cake it was quite a success despite the surface turn out to be moon surface due to it TERKEMBANG!!! i seriously think that is the cake pan too small XP

oh ya oh ya
then peanuts butter cookies !!

lolz
why on earth i suddenly change the topic from dream to cakes XP

this time
i ll take down picture and post it on my blog *winks*

DBSK - the best boy band ever!!!!

currently i m listening back all DBSK's album
watching their video clips

they are really really really the best boy band ever!!!!!!!!!!!!
they are not just those boy band
who really famous because of their looks

they can sing (go and listen to their accapella!! gosh perfect !!)
they can dance (is a fact tho i m nt really a person who ll "love" a celebrity just because he/she can dance very well)
they can play piano
they can compose very very nice song on their own (fox rain by micky, 忘れないで by jaejoong etc)
they have good personalities
they are talented (they really work on it !!)
they are good looking (tho sometimes when i look at them i ll be thinking actually not very good looking la,their look not really breath taking la)
yet
they are famous because of all the combination that i have mentioned above
they are really the best boy band ever
they deserve the popularity in return :D

they are great!!
i m not really a DBSK maniac
i just like to listen to their music :D

PS: right now still hyun joong oppa!!=P

bogoshipda by hyun joong

heart melted MUAHAHA
if he can finish playing the whole song
it would be perfect!!!

anyway i seriously love this song
especially the intro part
the first 2 notes
wah
it ll really make your heart stop beating

haha m learning to play this song
trying to make it perfect XD

废话连篇

突然有股想要看看我的华文造诣是否有退的冲动
再加上
我现在很无聊又不想睡觉
其实我应该有东西忙的
就是
忙着看戏
但是！但是！
哇！哇！那个超级死变态再加上宇宙无敌白痴的互联网系统！！！
联系超差的！！！！
看一趴的影片，都需要等上一整个世纪！！！！！！

啊！啊！啊！
我刚考完试啦
请你乖乖听话好吗？
害我还很自豪的跟别人说的
我捷克的互联网联系超级无敌好
它说第二没人敢认第一！
哪知
原来
这世上除了进化论
其实还有退化论！！
天啊！！
我的唯一在家窝着无所事事的唯一一个‘休闲活动’
也可以说是让我懒得出门的原动力
竟然~竟然~竟然~
被外在力阻挡！！！
还我现在
真的是超级无所事事的闲晃！=P
其实是赖在床上，懒洋洋地按打键盘=p
要facebook-ing, 八一八人家的消息也不能
要在mysoju 看看我要趁凌晨（或许那时不是网络就繁忙的时候）所能看得连续剧也不能
要玩游戏，又没有劲，因为我对于电脑游戏实在是很差劲，顶多这能玩‘老人级' 的游戏，例如：叠汉堡（很闷对吗？）
所以啰，
哪里可能会撑很久！
要搜寻蛋糕食谱，现在又没有那股冲动想要烘蛋糕
纯粹想要施展我的‘厨艺‘，有碍于我只想煮，不想吃，抑或者是，没有受害者愿意吃（毕竟现在已是凌晨1231）

唉，原来没有youtube的生活是很痛苦的！尤其是在考试过后，想要松一松“筋骨”，磨一磨我的‘敏锐度', 充一充电（请你体谅我这个老人家想要‘运动’的心情）=P！！

此刻的我，
很想要把那整间提供我们互联网服务的公司给炸成碎片=P
其实也没有那么严重啦
只是本人我很很很很不甘心
我付的服务费可以说是比streamyx 多出至少两倍
但是
结果！！！
还是一样！！！！

天啊！！！
我真的是闷到发慌
又不想睡觉
所以
此时此刻的我
只能在这里废话连篇
浪费我读者的时间（如果你到此时此刻还在读者这篇，我衷心的谢谢你对我的不离不弃，因为我不需承认，这篇没有一段是有重点的-_-")
因为
我连要搜寻艺人的消息、资料、照片
都不能！！！

悲！！

好啦
还是睡觉吧！
储存体力给明天的血拚！！！
我睽违几世纪的letnany (布拉格数一数二最大型的购物广场），好啦其实我只是有一年没有踏足这片土地=p
但是
为什么我都是在暴肥时期的时候才血拚，因为这时血拚是最沮丧的，衣服都得买大一号的，
试穿裤时，更是令人沮丧到有忧郁症！！
你不懂我的痛苦！
又要吃，又要控制体重，又懒惰运动！ =P

女人啊！
为何要跟脂肪过不去！
好试着接受它。

好啦
我就此打住，
不然我会没完没了！ =P

尹智厚 or 金贤重

啊！啊！啊！
丝草：因为瑞贤姐，我才比较容易放弃前辈，我的初恋。

我的心碎了，为什么，为什么，我每次喜欢的主角都是注定找不到真爱！！
唉， 也不能怪啦，因为不管是什么般的流星花园，我都是只喜欢花泽类！！

有什么办法！！怪谁
伤心啦！

智厚还是默默守护着丝草
啊！啊！
其实他只差那一步
就那一步
就是那一步！！！
就能和丝草在一起了！！！

贤重啊！！！！！！
越看越好看！越看越好看！

啊！啊！心碎啊！

不能！我以后一定要支持对的主角，不然我看戏看到很痛苦=P

哈！我每每看流星花园，好像都会有这样的感觉=P

现在，
贤重的热潮还没褪去！
至少现在 =P

praise the Lord

all in all
is all God's grace
the quests that i got
when i first time saw them
i got a shock
but He is really at work
i was calmed down
and was able to think wise and clearly on what should i say

tho the last quest has made me feel headache
still
is all God's grace
i passed!!!

yay!!

i have learned my lesson
i ll be fully prepared for next sem exam
no more last minute work!!!!

in a nutshell
i m so blessed
Gos is really gracious and kind
His love endures forever!!!!

He ll forever be my rock, my shelter and my fortress!! :D

i promise
i ll do the best of my best
to glorify His name

study not for the exam but for the knowledge
i m still trying to tune my mindset into
this 6 years knowledge
is all what i ll be using in the clinical years
and this ll be the knowledge which i can utilise to serve God
may God ll use the knowledge that i have to do His work
(hmm dunno exactly how to express myself)
i somehow feel
is not just being a doctor
there is something more which i make out of it =)

study because of the knowledge not because of exam
bear in mind =D

God is good!!
All the time!!

^^V

emo + depressed + scared

2 more days
and the mystery ll not be resolved
not untill the the 4th of february

i ll really try to do my best
really!!

He holds the future
He knows what is the best

i ll do my best
do not panic
do not careless
have confidence
calm mind
clear speech

i really pray that i ll get the questions which i Know WELL!!
and
i really pray that the examiner ll be fair and just and in a good mood and more lineant

scared
scared

Lord
i ll really try my best and do my best
i pray that by Your grace i ll pass this exam
grant me everything that i need for this final countdown while i m prepraring myself to sit for the exam

scared la
honestly
what i know is only the surface
if the examiner dig and dig
and i panic and panic
my mind ll go blank

besides that
written test b4 the oral exam
er
open my eyes as WIDE as possible
i dont want to fail the written test due to careless mistakes
pls
be careful!!

scared scared

i WILL not repeat the same mistake anymore
this coming summer
b4 summer sem has ever started
i m DETERMINED to be fully prepared for physio and biochem!!!
i hate this feeling of not being fully prepared!!