biochem

i just dunno why
i just dont understand
my brain is refused to function when it comes to this sub
or to be precised
when it comes to reaction in organic chem
maybe having it postponed to tuesday isnt a good idea!!!
but God has His plan
maybe He thinks i should study more on it

but but
i seriously hate this feeling
the uncertainty when i m revising my chem
is like my mind ll wander whenever i touch this topic!!!!!!!
hate it hate it!!

this weekend
is packed
with my so not going to finish revisions and iGames!!!
harper's is yet to be FLIPPED through,
physio block test is yet to be revised
genetics (final is on jan Yet i started nth!!)
physio basic is yet to be revised
organic chem (test on tues) is on the way to be finished
biochem (test on the 7th week) should started years ago but i dunno what m i doing

seriously
no Utube ever since the sem started
then what m i doing??
i should really hide my laptop
unusual sleeping habit
i guess is all because of that!!!

concentration
concentration
focus focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really hate this feeling
when i have so much to do
and i dont know where to start
my mentality is not stable so to say!!

how how
yesterday is wasted!!!!

hate it hate it!!
hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God pls show me the way!:)

我恋爱了:)

天空 是晴朗的
梦想 燃烧着快乐
相信 我和你 是最酷的
汗水 痛快流着
勇气 让爱闪亮着
勇敢 不怕累
直到我们 都笑了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
天空 是晴朗的
梦想 燃烧着快乐
相信 我和你 是最酷的
汗水 痛快流着
勇气 让爱闪亮着
勇敢 不怕累
直到我们 都笑了
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
你一定很爱我的
我要你给我一个紧紧的拥抱
手牵着心就暖和了
你一个微笑 我就知道了 都笑了
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得

opps..
i know i know
you must be amused by the title of this post
but too bad
is the title for the song above:(
haha

my only love (japanese drama)

bryan:"yer!!i thought in the photo there are 2 girls inside!"
lee peng:" i thought both of them they are girls"
aruna:" he is prettier than the girl!"
xiang yan:" i ll watch this drama not because of this guy but because of the girl'
bryan again:" i ll consider watching this drama IF this drama is talking about lesbian"
i say:" kan dia kacak" (asking nabi)
nabi:"......"
i say:" okay la dia nampak macam perempuan saya tahu tapi dia nice looking kan?"
nabi:" ....hah ya"
ezra:" wah why so sissy wan"

i know i know
he looks like a girl
but then hor
he is not that bad lah
:P
anyway got this drama from AMELIA!!!
yay she likes him too!:)

thanks AME!!!:)
i ll help you to keep this drama :P
so no need to return it to you right?:P

loves all the songs that he played!!!

whenever i listen to all those songs that are played by him
how i wish that i can meet him in person
and seeing him playing piano in front of me!!

too bad
this cant be realised!!:(

anyway
loves all the songs that he played!!!!!!!!:D

he also tried to compose a few songs
and the one that i love most is I believe:)

postponed

okay
my chem exam is postponed to tuesday!
whee
more time to study!!:)

i believe

i have been a spoilt teenager who is going to be an adult in a year for these past few days!

i still remembered how i promised God after the challenge He has put me in
i still remembered how determined i am

now i m very scared
seriously
i m very scared

there is this unspoken feeling deep down in my heart
it has started to bud and grow
i m really a spoilt child (or whatever you want me to be)
i do not trust myself anymore
those promises that i have made
those determinations

i feel moody
i feel like i m being caged by myself
actually i look down on me

i m scared

this melody
tells how i feel now
tells you my feeling right now

the title is I believe

yes
i should believe in God
but i started to question myself
do i deserve to being able to believe in God
when what i have done has totally disappointed Him

these few days
this thought keep on occurring in my mind
what can we do for God
what has caused us to qualified for God to forgive us
cause
we always ask for forgiveness after we have sinned
is like
this is a cycle which ll never end
we sin then we ask God to forgive
we disappoint God
then we ask Him to trust us again
He loves us and He choose to forgive us
what we have done to deserve His unlimited Love!!

His love is so great untill i cannot imagine
untill i couldnt believe that He actually loves us that much
i feel sad
as in
what have i paid Him back in return for His love?
nth but sin
nth but pleading
yes!!
really nth!!

and
can you imagine how "thick" is my face is
though i have sinned and disappointed Him
yet
i m still asking for His forgiveness
i m still asking for His mercy upon me

and now
i get fed up on myself
how selfish i m!!

i m scared Lord!
i know
again i m asking for your mercy
but You are my rock and stone
You are my fortress
for You ll forever be there
open your hands widely
welcoming us!
no one but You
can i trust and cast my burden and hope on You

so Lord
i just pray that
may Your mercy be upon me!

I believe in Jesus Chirst the Son of God!
yes I believe!!
this song is moody
this song represent how i feel on my own as in how much i have hurt God!
this song shows how scared i m now!

God!
i m scared
i want to stay underneath Your wings!!

网上。文采

幸福方程式：
一顆敢夢的心＋兩倍的努力＋三倍的行動
就能成就百分之的幸福和成功

朋 友 ， 是 你 高 興 時 想 跟 他 分 享 的 ，
朋 友 ， 是 你 不 高 興 時 可 以 給 你 發 脾 氣 的 ，
朋 友 ， 也 是 在 你 沒 錢 開 飯 時 打 救 你 的 ，
朋 友 ， 你 悶 得 發 荒 時 可 以 跟 你 一 同 發 荒 的 ，
朋 友 ， 會 甘 願 給 功 課 你 抄 ， 跟 你 一 同 出 貓 一 同 被 人 罰 的 ，
朋 友 ， 也 是 你 買 手 信 時 ， 想 買 一 份 大 的 給 他 的，
朋 友 ， 也 是 你 看 見 他 上 線 時 ， 想 給 他 ' 喔 噢 ' ！

想 要 體 會 「 一 年 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 失 敗 重 修 的 學 生 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 月 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 不 幸 早 產 的 母 親 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 週 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 定 期 週 刊 的 編 輯 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 小 時 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 對 等 待 相 聚 的 戀 人 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 分 鐘 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 錯 過 火 車 的 旅 人 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 秒 鐘 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 死 裡 逃 生 的 幸 運 兒 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 毫 秒 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 錯 失 金 牌 的 運 動 員 。

朋 友 就 是 無 形 中 伴 你 走 過 風 雨 ， 永 遠 支 持 你 的 力 量
朋 友 就 是 一 種 無 法 言 喻 的 美 好 感 覺
朋 友 就 是 在 別 人 面 前 永 遠 護 著 你 的 那 個 人
朋 友 就 是 即 使 是 一 點 小 感 動 ， 一 點 小 事 情 都 想 一 起 分 享
朋 友 就 是 當 你 抱 頭 痛 哭 的 時 候 ， 扶 著 你 肩 膀 的 那 個 人
朋 友 就 是 當 你 面 對 人 生 挫 折 時 ， 一 直 緊 握 你 的 那 雙 手

精华：
喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚....

喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你....

喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你....

喜歡在你身邊....因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

how i wish..

this guys is sooooooooooooooooooo cool!!!
i love all the songs that he plays!!!!
he plays by ear
how cool is that as in he play by ear yet he can play all the songs SO WELL!!!!!!!

how i wish i have(i do not ask more) just half of his talent
that would be good enough:)

PS: in all his posted video, i have never been able to see his face from the front (but just the side view i can tell he is not bad looking:P) because he wears specs!!!!BUT (a big gasp) in this video that i have posted in this entry, i can really tell how he looks like!:P HE IS COOL!!!!!!!!so COOL! and he wears specs!!that typo which i like:P!!(the COOLEST part is the last part when he finished playing the whole song he angguk? his kepala!!!that part is real COOL!!!for that very moment walau eh really tak boleh tahan but to admire him:P)
aiya, how i wish...(EHEM you guys know what i meant la:P)
then hor can everyday ask him to play for me MUAHAHA

conclusion: HE IS REALLY COOL for both (cool for he has the talent and cool for the way how he carries himself)

one half day wasted:'(

yesterday
i
wasted one whole day on crapping, on wondering
my mind just couldnt have peace
thounsands of thoughts
they came and went away tru my brains
i dunno why
and i behaved like a radioactive compound rather than a stable yet ignited carbon compound
words (gamma ray) came out from my mouth without thinking twice
in a simple world
i was in excited state yesterday for no reason
but luckily
i minimized this dangerous effect to only 1 person (i hope)

anyway
i was in an excited state untill i felt tired and found myself on my bed at 9pm yesterday!!!
yes!
i slept again at such lovely time!!
WOOTS!!!
no no no no no
more biochem yet to be learned
more genetics yet to be revised
more physio yet to be understood
more czech yet to be studied (my czech is in a devastated state which i seriously need to learn it well= not to the extent that i couldnt understand a simple basic sentence like uvidime pozitři ==>dont understand this word)

nah
am wasting my time again!!
say no to LAPTOP!!!
in front of it
i ll tend to touch it and loiter in the cyber world!! (WOOTS!!!)

okie
i m pretty sure that i m back to stable state (my e- they are far apart thats why:P)

have to make sure they do not come close together(muahaha)

čau čau!!

Ja musim studovat
prtože ja mam pisu dva těske tesky v stredu a patek!!!!

inspired by xiangyan(edited:P)

双子座的女性:
这是一个富有异国情调和魅力的女性。思想境界开阔，内心充满着美好的幻想，你的情感犹如一部优美的随想曲。
你聪明伶利，有些神经质。内心总是闪耀着美好、欢乐、幸福、爱情和理想的火花。你希望自己永远置身在无忧无虑的乐园中，喜欢用紧张的工作，频繁的活动来驱 散自己的烦恼。很容易唤起别人的倾慕心，但你的感情并非垂手可得。一句话就可能触动你的心弦，一点小事也会使你扬长而去。如果有人能很好地掌握你的性格特 点，预测你的反应，那么不难使你倾心相与。
双子座的女性理智很强，善于运筹错综复杂的形势并能在关键时刻作出自己正确的抉择。你期待美好的爱情所带来的欢乐。一般说，双子座的女性会有丰富的爱情生活，尤其是当金星在双子座的时候。 (no this does not apply to me!:P)
这一座的女性不喜欢平淡无味的家庭生活。你希望生活的内容丰富多采，千变万化：经常出去散步、郊游或旅行，开阔一下眼界，换换生活环境，结识些新的朋友和 陶冶一下性情，这些是你生活中不可缺少的一部分，也是你保持高昂情绪的基础。你开朗的性格会感染周围的人。过度的勤奋、劳累或烦恼，常会使你疲惫不堪，力 不从心。
射手座的男性会给你的生活带来新的气息。你们之间建立起来的家庭将是充实的、自由的和浪漫的。经常会有亲朋好友的光顾。
与天秤座的男性结合，有助于你艺术才能的发挥，或者进入高层次的社会生活。
如果与水瓶座的男性结合，你的生活内容会发生质的变化。你将经常出入知识界，结识学者和名人。
女性―性格活泼直率，多数给人像男孩子的感觉。和她在一起，更多的感觉是一个好朋友，要想谈及爱情，又总不好开口。当她接触爱情时，会以充足的时间来权衡利弊得失，最后才以巧妙的方式回答你。和她在一起，欢乐总是伴随你。(guys!!so..you ll be happy always if you choose me ROFL)
双子星座的个别现象
1)05.21
易受感动,理想主义,友善,仁慈.为了自己的利益,有过份大方的倾向.要学习辨别真假.愿意为共同的利益而工作,因此颇受同僚和伙伴的欢迎.喜欢作水路旅行,可能因长途海上旅行,而建立有利的商业关系和成功的婚姻.

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　有很多的朋友，可是“看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个”这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会 聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比 如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的 了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。
　　
　　 对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自 己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。
　　
　　 双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的， 他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西.
　　一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。
　　
　　 双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双 子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲 哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
　　我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其 实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一 刻就把这件事给忘了；
　　
　　 要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时 你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的“朋友”关系其实，很 大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生 有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多 快乐。
　　
　　 每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困， 动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时 候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天 亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤 独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。
　　
　　 双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切 do consider this:P)，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自 己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装， 很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

i m inspired by xiang yan after reading his blog
though the reason why i post this entry might diff from him
(ehem..i think he is trying to tell "cetain" person about "sth":P)

anyway PLS TAKE NOTE ON THOSE SENTENCES THAT I HAVE high lighted !

ps:waiting am waiting!:) (song supplier yes i m pek cek now:P dunno why after listening to SHE's songs i feel very pek cek on waiting:P)

pps: i have to admit the add on is so cun!!!!:P

which one is easier to be remembered and pronounced?

whats your name?
i paused
figuring should i ask them to call me
TAN
or
YENG
or
TONG
or
YT

and sometimes
i might pop out diff isomers for my name
when ppl ask about my name

like just now
slyvia asked me my name
i paused for like 2 secs
and then i decided to let myself known as TONG

few days ago
met aarti
she asked for my name
i said you can just call me yt

few minutes later
met her on the street
again
she asked for my name
i said
either YT or Yengtong
choose one
then she says
oh yengtong is much easier to remember!:)

my OS: er i thought yeng tong is a difficult name to most of the ppl

so now i m curious as in which isomer of my name should i be known as

PS: was wondering what type of isomer is that.stereoisomer?constitutional?
okay lets just call them diastereomer (but none of them can occur in a pair as mirror image to each other and diff to the other pair )
how about constitutional?
but they do not have the same molecular formula!
i m sure that they are isomers!but which type??
okay la i ll consider them as stereoisomers as they are diff in spatial arrangement cause they are definitely connected in the same order(tak kan ada "saya" yang mempunyai composition yang lain:P)

PPS:okay this is too biochem:P

安静了

作詞：任家萱 ( Selina ) 作曲：周杰倫 編曲：呂紹淳
只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你作詞：任家萱 ( Selina ) 作曲：周杰倫 編曲：呂紹淳
只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你



i think i can tune into the 'frequency' of this song
thats why i like it so much though at the first place i find it normal (=nth special)
but after watching the mv
Gosh!!
love this song so much!!
maybe because ethan is acting in the MV:P
anyway
i wouldnt say that this is a good song as is too JAY-ish style
yet for no reason i simply like this song:)

John and Alvin

John and Alvin
i might not know them very well
i dont really talk to them also:P (i know i know i m kind of anti social)

anyway
today is his last day in our church
going back to Kentucky!!(KFC yum yum:P)
and when our service ended

He gave me a hug!:)
and he talked to me as if he knows me long time ago
i m touched!!
when he gave me the hug
he gave me a grandpa feeling ( i dunno why:P)
hmmm..
let me put this in this way
i can feel God's love from him(is amazing to see how i feel)
this has given me an impact which the effect is still with me right now
actually
an unexplainable feeling is arised within me (is warm)
anyhow
Shall we meet again in Christ!!

May God bless you as both of you embark into another new journey!

petřin hill (what i like most:P)

haha..yes!
the picture in the centre of the frame!
i like this the most!!:P

thanks to lee peng who has an excellent shooting skill!!
She took this photo for me!!
is so nice
the flower and the way how i squatted!:P
i fit into the flowers perfectly:P

msg

ernie says:" are you a buddhist like ying hoey?"
i say:" no. i m a chirtian."
then she asked me
"have you ever told them the gospel?cause there is only 1 truth?"
i gave a lot of excuses (yes Lord! pls forgive me!)

ezra says:" why you never go to bible study?"
i say:" huh?" (cause i really forgotten that today is friday)
ezra says:" bible study ah!you never go one."
i say:" oh ya!oh ya!(in a blur) ya i never go." (this is no good i shouldnt have given such response)
*i sounded as if this is no big deal and i think i sounded as if i m very proud that i have never attended bible study*

got back home
thought is approaching 7pm
anyway
b4 today
i thought of going to bible study
cause today the topic is really interesting (anyway this should not be the reason which push me to go!)
and again

when i have run all the errands
sat in front of my desk
"oh is 720pm!"

*msn buzzing*(739pm)
xiang yan says:" ezra asked me to tell you"
xiang yan says:" go to bible study."

_____________________________________________________________

being a christian i know that
just attending the church service ll never be enough!
being a chirstian i know that
just keeping the Good New to myself is not what i should do!

and today
this msg has occurred to me TWICE!!

yes Lord!
i promise You
starting next week
no matter what
i ll be start going to bible study!!
(pls forgive me that i still have doubt when i write this sentence)

PS: when xiang yan told me about this, i thought of teleport myself to there cause i feel guilty?
anyway i shouldnt take this as a part of my "duty" of being a christian
i should erm how to say..
let me put it in this way
i should be eager to know God's words more and more
and take this willingly (ah this sounds good:D)

PPS: should i go and join the choir this coming sunday?
John says:" hey why dont you join the choir?"
Me: er...er...er..(i just smiled)
John says:" unless you have a bad voice if not why dont you join?"
Me: (smiled)
and someone called John and the question just hang in the air

#actually b4 i came back here, i thought of a fresh start.
my aim:
1. Join the choir group
2. Join the bible study
yet what a shame
none of them have been acheived!!

Forgive me Lord!
I am determined to show you my changes for You!

bowling??

er..
i have joined bowling for this coming intervarsity game
and
i just realised how serious they look at this game!!!

er..
for your information
i did play bowling before
but the last time when i touched the ball was on 2005!!
3 years!!!
i have not been set my foot on bowling center!!

er..
i thought of going for practice this coming weekends
but
i cant
i have 2 tests in a row for the next week!!
and
i MUST pass all the tests!!
and
by God grace,
i hope i ll pass them excellently!!
thats why
i should study harder!!!

er..
this is not the scariest part
the scariest part is
i pair up with janice!! (er actually now we have got 2 janice but i doubt this will be shinyee)
anyway
i just heard from kak mimie
she says
"eh kan janice terror? last year dia menang lah!"
i was like
er..
er..
er..
okay
we are in the same team!
shit!!
shit!!
shit!!
this is no good!!

anyway
i dont care
i ll just try my best

er..
i do not hope that i ll have full strike
but
at least
i hope
i know how to "carry" the ball
and
and
and
er..
er..
it does not fall into the so called drain too often!!:P

小草

一根小草，
生长在花丛中，
花儿们看似大哥大姐，
保护它风吹雨淋，
然而，
养分、阳光、水分
花儿为首，
一并把草儿的带走。

草儿 啊 草儿
渐渐发觉，
大哥哥、大姐姐怎么越来越茁壮
自己越来越瘦弱
大哥哥、大姐姐依然给它最灿烂的笑容
却
忽略它的声音、它的泪痕
原来，
它只是大哥哥、大姐姐的陪衬。

草儿无助地在仅有的缝隙中
寻找蔚蓝的天空
找寻一线希望。

突然，
有把温柔的声音
转入它的耳中，
我儿啊，
不要伤心，不要忧虑
爸爸在这里
爸爸是你的依靠
因为，
你是爸爸亲手创造的
还有谁会比我更关心你？

草儿
不再难过、流泪
草儿
凭着阿爸的爱茁壮成长
它的笑容不再悲伤
因为
它已有了天父，
它那位最慈祥又有尊严的爸爸
正在保护着它！！

is this Your msg to me??

" And (our) God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus"

just out of nowhere
i decided to read last week bulletin of my church
and when i was about to finish reading the whole bulletin
up there at the right hand side corner
i read this motto ( the church motto 2008)
it has been at that corner for such a long time
and
i didnt know about its existence
not untill now

Lord,
is this the msg that You are trying to tell me?

anyway
thank you
as You have let me understood why i m facing such situation currently:)

God is Good!!
all the time!!
AMEN!!!

......

God
i dont understand why there has been always test in front of me
isit because my faith is too little
so You want to strengthen my faith??

i know that You will never put Your children into a situation which they cant handle
i dont know how far can i cope with in

deep down in my heart
i believe is not possible that this thing is happening to me
cause i have confidence in myself
yet
when this confidence is smaller than the faith that i have in you
i trembled

so sorry that i release my anger on You yesterday night (pls do not forsake me!!)
i shouldnt have doubt on You as to why You have once again put me into such situation
i know Your plan is beyond Human's estimation
(but is easier to say it than to do it)

Lord
pls give me strength, faith and ease my pain

Ps: if it happens that you are reading this, could you pray for me??

control my diet!!

gosh i just finished 9 chocolate coated biscuits!!
and do you know how much is the calories??
is 789kcal!!!!!!

lesson that i have learned
DO NOT STORE ANY BISCUITS IN MY ROOM!!!

i feel like vomiting now
cause i feel "jilat"
they are too sweet!!!

now i m so full and i want to throw up!!!

gosh
gosh
gosh
and every time when my lecture finished
i ll feel hungry
i feel like munching sth
isit because i used my brain too much and has caused my metabolic rate increased??

i dont want to be the extreme
but i just dont want to gain weight
cause
if i put on weight
all those pants that i have brought from malaysia
they ll have to stay in my closet forever!!
NOOOOOOOO!! i do not allow this to happen!!!

starting from today!!
have proper meals and make sure that all the meals that i have they are filling!!!!!!!

gosh gosh gosh!!
i hate biscuits!!

and for your info
the biscuits that i just had wouldnt have appeared in my room if i did not go down to the supermarket which is just next to my apartment!

i ASK FOR IT!!!

no no no
i should stop it and have my normal diet back
and try not to feel hungry btw meals!:)

i should feel happy

goodness
just now i went out for about an hour? to ask the seniors sth concerns about the euro credits
is just an hour
and my parents they got scared and skyped me for 9 times
misscalled me for 4 times
yet nobody answered the call

at last
they decided to call one of my friend
and because they have only ying hoey's contact number
and here they go
they called her

GOODNESS!!!

why are they so nervous!!!

okay i know i know
i should feel happy for that
cause they still care for me
i shouldnt feel uneasy or anything

God forgive me for that
dad and mum
thank you!!

aim: do not fall asleep and study hard!!

okay
i m having prob with my biological clock
gosh!!
is so annoying!!!

have to try to adjust it back to normal
at least do not fall asleep at 9pm every night

and
have to study harder
challenge is waiting ahead of me
gambateh!!

this is what i learned during biochem lecture:P

okay i know i know
i shouldnt do such thing during lecture:P
i shall not do this again:P

i shall continue in dehydrated phase

i feel thirsty from times to times
but i refuse to bring a bottle of water with me
why??
cause i m waiting for my bottle to come
yes
i shall continue to be in this phase
till i got my bottle:P

anyway
today i met prof pokorny
we were together chasing the tram!!!
gosh!!
can you imagine
a 60 years old plus professor
was chasing the tram together with his students
well
i think this means that
no matter in which post you are holding
no matter how well educated you are
no matter who you are
we are just human being
trying to live in a simple life style:)


well
actually he didnt know who i am when i greeted him
i think he got a shock as well:P

ps: i thought of playing tricks on my friend
is a lame trick
but i feel kind of excited just thought about it
how??
should i just proceed?
lolz!!

沿海公路的出口 by SHE

用半截烟蒂烧一场蜃楼　借这场大雨让自己逃走
慌茫公路无人的漂泊　寂寞海啸把我卷走
用一段感情换一个朋友　每一句再见割一道伤口
躺在万劫不复的街头　微笑参透覆水难收
倘若说放一次手　就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落　紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手 怎么走
倘若说放一次手 就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋
我目送沿海的日落　紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手 怎么走
current,y am crazy about this song:)

“歌词“

天亮了
街灯熄灭了
意味着祝福的期限到了
深藏在我心怀
隐藏的无奈
你却永远不会明白

灯火通明
欢乐的氛围
你应该环绕在众人的祝福吧
我的心愿
你的愿望
它们会否连成一线
chorus:
一封简讯
一段故事
你怎能把它遗忘
我以为这是最好的答案
以为你会明白
原来始终不够

你要的太多我给的太少
你要的回应我太迟体会
就让一切回到原点

bridge
一切不能重来
能否从新来过
两颗心得距离
告诉我们未来没有也许

唉！ 哀哉！我的灵感好薄弱！！
看来我与创作无缘！
但是我又不舍把这篇“歌词”删掉，所以咯，就让它留在这里吧！

finally:)

today just had my physiology practical lesson
dr.Mikulas Mlcek said sth (oh ya he speaks good english A REAL GOOD one!!)
which i TOTALLY AGREED!!!

when he talked about what we shouldnt do during practical courses
he mentioned that students are not allowed to smoke either in the lab/building or even outside the building
he said that it is stated students are not allowed to smoke in the vicinity of the medicine faculty
moreover
he added 1 more sentence
which i would have clapped my hands and shouted HOORAY if this was not a lesson:P
he said
is not a good example for medical students (the future doc) to smoke in the vicinity of the faculty as it looks like we are advertising that smoking is good for health
THUMBS up!!!!!!!
cool!!!

i think he is the first professor that would have said such comment to us
so far
i have never heard of any other lecturer would have said sth like this
even worse
i have heard more than once from some of them
saying that smoking is normal for doctor
to release stress
gosh!!

anyway
i kind of like the lecturers that i have got for 2nd year
they somehow opened my another phase of thinking mechanism

1st week of academic year
going to end soon in the next 24hrs
i would say
this would be the most relaxing week
as
i can assure you
starting from next week
which marks the "opening of my horrible study life"
test after test
they are coming continuously
preparation after preparation
which i should not skip b4 i go for lecture
revision after revision
which i should keep doing everyday
focus and concentration
which i would need them the most
starting from next week

so
a gulp of fresh air for this week
such precious chance
i would not want to miss it
the ability to breath freely for this week
(though i have to prepare for my biochem test next week)
i ll try to remember how does it feel
for the rest of the academic year
till i done my final exams:)

another tough year to go
another tough challenge is ahead of me

Lord
teach me to lean on You more and more!:)

repositioned

currently
i m trying to re-position myself as in what kind of attitude should i use
i m trying to find a balanced point
i dislike what i was doing today
i feel awkward and strange
i dont like the way how i showed myself just now

atually i shouldnt be bothered by this issue
why should i be affected??
but currently
it is haunting my mind
is like a virus

i dont feel good at all
as in how i react to this matter

Lord
pls show me the way
pls help me
so that i ll be able to follow your teaching:)

a balanced point
thats what i need for now

我很好(電影【把愛找回來】中文預告曲)

1.我很好(電影【把愛找回來】中文預告曲)

作詞：阿信（五月天） 作曲：陳忠義

沙發上睡著 孤單冷醒的破曉
冷的麵條 熱的淚痕 啤酒在苦笑
當時的煎熬 當時的心痛如絞
天 終於亮了 遺憾終於退潮

終於能夠 恨不再瘋 淚不再掉 心不逃
一定會有一個人 一段新的美好

誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我　再一次心跳
就算愛情 讓我再次的跌倒 傷痕也要 是一種驕傲
誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我 瘋狂的心跳
就算明天 整個城市要傾倒 也讓我愛到 最後一秒

丟掉電影票 刪掉信件跟合照
洗了床單 剪了頭髮 清空了煩惱
恨可以很小 小到眼淚能沖掉
我 現在很好 可以重新起跑

終於能夠 恨不再瘋 淚不再掉 心不逃
一定會有一個人 一段新的美好

誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我　再一次心跳
就算愛情 讓我再次的跌倒 傷痕也要 是一種驕傲
誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我 瘋狂的心跳
就算明天 整個城市要傾倒 也讓我愛到 最後一秒

地鐵湧出了人潮 幸福湧出了預兆
我會找回 當初對愛 天真的霸道

誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我　再一次心跳
就算愛情 讓我再次的跌倒 傷痕也要 是一種驕傲
誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我 瘋狂的心跳
就算明天 整個城市要傾倒 也讓我愛到 最後一秒
誰讓我擁抱 誰讓我　瘋狂的心跳
就算明天 整個城市要傾倒 也讓我愛到 最後一秒

this song is nice
i like the lyrics

what prof. Pokorny says

he says
doctors are not only there
just to treat patient
yet
they are there
to somehow bring them some "POSITIVE energy"

this
i truly agree
a good doctor
not only must be equipped with excellent knowledge
but
He/She must has a pretty soul

how good can a doctor be
if he/she couldnt get a grasp of the beauty of his/her soul?
this is why we have so many inconsiderate doctors
they have no sense of morality

indeed
we have to study hard being a medical student
but
aiming to be the best despite of considering others feeling
what for?
the main aim of being a doctor
HELP OTHERS
if not
why should we study so hard?
if you cannot grasp the meaning of it
(haha actually i just figured out this while i m writing this entry:P)
maybe is time for you to sit down and think
why you choose to be a doctor
despite the reason like "because i like anatomy, because i like to study human etc"

all these while
i have been trying to figure out an answer
as to why i have chosen to be a doctor
and
have been trying to find a reason
for myself
to drive me forward
to strive harder

and now
i know whats the purpose of being a doctor besides curing the diseases
i have so many opportunities to meet needy ppl
therefore i can help them in many aspects
instead of just giving them some presciptions and the story ends there.

6 years of medical course
not only that i have to learn all the stuffs that a doctor is supposed to know
i m also preparing myself when i m in work
this course is not just books
we have to learn on our own
how to be better
so that we can help others in the future by using our profession at the same time
how to have a more beautiful heart, mind and soul
which ll somehow influence your patients
which ll bring them some positive energy and aura
(maybe all these that i have mentioned above have been too idealistic, but i m just trying to make my medical course sounds as interesting as possible:P)

seriously
medical course doesnt mean study and results

we get good results
because we dont want to have mistreatment to our patient
not because we want to prove to others that we are the best:)

haha
hopefully i ll keep this in my heart and remember it!!

Lord
guide me and lead me as i m riding on this journey:)

PS: need to polish up my chem!!my chem!!it sucks!!

what do i like about frankfurt

on our way back to prauge
instead of waiting our bus for like 7-8 hrs
we went out of the airport and had a short tour around frankfur

out of all the spots and scenery that i have been to
this is the one that i like the most
erm can i consider him as one of the tourist attractions??lolz
he is SOOOOOOOOOOO COOL!!!!!!
yes i like his MISAI!!!:P

seriously i like this picture
haha
is awesome!!!
i dunno why i like it
i think it depends on your feelings??

oh ya besides this,
there is one more thing that i like about frankfurt (actually is germany)
german ppl
they are super NICE!!!!super FRIENDLY!!super HELPFUL!!!!!
gosh
they will approach to you automatically just to help you
when they see your puzzled look
they are SUPERB!!!!
they ll try to explain in german as hard as they can tough they know that you do not understand what they are trying to say!!!they wont show their fed-up face when you do not understand german!
what more can i ask for??
they are just perfect!!

anyway
yes!!
we did our first europe tour
it was short though
yet
is a nice start!!

God is Good!!

i have got my visa on the 30th of sept (right on the day when my visa expired)
lined up at 1030pm on 29th get it done at 6pm (30 sept）
it was long
but
at least i got my visa at the end
some ppl
they waited for so long
yet they have to come back again due to some reasons

conclusion
God is Good!!
now i have settled down
get everything done
just left 1
that is to make sure whether they have put my name in the G2's list
as i have changed from G5 to G2
i ll leave it on monday as the office is closed tomorrow

another new journey
but this time
i have learned to trust God more and more
thank you!!!