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God
i dont understand why there has been always test in front of me
isit because my faith is too little
so You want to strengthen my faith??

i know that You will never put Your children into a situation which they cant handle
i dont know how far can i cope with in

deep down in my heart
i believe is not possible that this thing is happening to me
cause i have confidence in myself
yet
when this confidence is smaller than the faith that i have in you
i trembled

so sorry that i release my anger on You yesterday night (pls do not forsake me!!)
i shouldnt have doubt on You as to why You have once again put me into such situation
i know Your plan is beyond Human's estimation
(but is easier to say it than to do it)

Lord
pls give me strength, faith and ease my pain

Ps: if it happens that you are reading this, could you pray for me??