no mood to study

shucks
no mood to study
this is not good at all
aiks aiks aiks

specially to ying jing - jack tan

terribly sorry that i forgot your birthday
and i feel sorry about the "incident" that you had on that very important day

you are not an unimportant person
you are important okay?
at least you are important to me

when i m sad
you listen to me
when i m crazy
you still can tahan me :P
when i crap
you listen to my crap
when i share my craziness with you
you still can stand me
when i zat you
you are not angry
when i online just want to get those songs from you (without even say hi or ask how are you)
you also bear with me and give me those songs
when i want any album and ask you to search for me
you never say no
you ll try your best to find for me (though you are bz )
when i cry
you are there for me
giving me advise
see you are so important :)
i do treasure you
you are my friend :D
i am happy to know you


so
stop saying that you are not important
just 1 incident
just 1 hit
doesnt mean that you are not important
you are important to your family members as well
your parents definitely put you as their priority :)

cheer up okay!! :)

stress ah

need to study
yet i have no mood

i feel scared lah wei
4 tests in 2 weeks
1 big test in 1 month
walau eh
how to prepare
i m not ready lah wei

anyway
back from budapest and vienna
overall it was good!! :)
but then 1 advise
NEVER EVER travel during winter
CAUSE
you ll freeze to death:P

and
my on diet plan
i seriously need it
gain THREE kg in 6 days!
walau eh !!!

so
1 more week left
b4 my christmas break ended
what should i do then??
study and on diet!
both of them are equally important :P

家

看了沁沁的部落格
天啊！！
她的美食介绍
让我垂涎三尺

也让我
想家。

想回家
躺在沙发上

想回家
看老爸老妈
看他们越老越可爱的举动

想回家
同他们一起在新加坡庆祝圣诞

想回家
动一动我家的钢琴

想回家
躺在舒服的睡床上

想回家
大吃一顿（虽然这几个星期，我的食量惊人：P 但是，没有槟城的味道）

想回家
体验粘粘湿湿的气候

想回家
在家闲晃

想回家
因为家有他们

想回家
因为他们能帮我顶一切

想回家
因为那是我的家

想回家
因为我要穿短裤：P

想回家
因为沁回来了

唉，虽然这个假期我会去维耶纳(vienna)和匈牙利（hungary)的首都（budapest)
但是
如果能
我想回马来西亚

想念
一回到家的那种熟悉感
一开门扑鼻而来的那种家的味道

槟城是我的家
因为
两老都在那儿
我很很很很很抱歉
爸、妈
我好久好久没有静静的聆听你们的一切故事
原谅我

我
想家。
我觉得我离家好远
远到
我快忘了家的感觉
忘了爸妈那熟悉的气息
忘了我应该想家
忘了为何我应该想家

我想家
想家的一切
因为我已经逐渐遗忘家的味道了

六年
六年
六年
六年
下次
如果回到家
我一定、一定努力的记住家的一切
我不要六年里
没有家的回忆

六年
虽然很快就过了
但是
这期间
我将会错过家的一切、一切

我不要忘了家的模样
原来
我会忘了家的模样
原来它是需要就地复习的
如果我知道
一路来
我一定、一定努力把家的点点滴滴塞经我的脑袋里

开始怀疑
难道是我的问题
忘了家的味道？

我。想。家 （但是我对家的记忆好模糊哦）T_T
T_T

holiday mood!!:D

how ah how ah
in a holiday mood now
no mood to study (though i must not be so !!!)
cos after christmas hols
i ll be sitting for so many tests
and during the hols
i barely have time to study !!

but then leh
here come again
no mood lah
no mood lah
no mood lah
some more i m soooooo FULL now!!!!!

cannot
at least
pls study for physiology practical tomorrow
you dont want to be OUT of the situation
and dont know whats going on in the seminar right?
so pls study!!

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again
repeat my slogan
i ll on diet tomorrow:P

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want to make ondeh ondeh
want to make strawberry dumpling
want to make apple strudel
want to make chocolate cake
want to make cookies
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need to buy locks
need to buy a back pack
need to buy gloves and scarf
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currently i m broke
i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

okie
time to bake cookies!!:P

difference

i would not want to say more
but i just want to say
i thank God that He has let me experienced 2 different kind of situation in 2 days!:)

and from those experiences i have come to these conclusion
in God there ll be peace, joy and happiness:)
in God we know whom we belong to
in God we will never get lost as even if we get lost,
Lord who is the shepherd will leave the rest behind to find the lost sheep:)

Yes Lord,
i ll continue to pray for those
and Lord
pls strengthen me help me so that i ll not be squeezed into the shape of this world by equipping myself with Your words!:)

bibile study and social activity :)

opps
is already saturday :)
anyway
friday night
i went to pastor's house
is a PERFECT house that i have always dreamt of
should have taken a photo of that
too bad
nvm
next week i supposed? hopefully next week we still have bible study at pastor's house
then i ll take a photo of his house

anyway
the house is awesome!!!
with yard at the back of the house
such a big compound
there is this cute christmas tree at the yard
it is just sitting there
with snow all covered on top of it
is sooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!
a nice living room and kitchen as well
this ll be a place which i ll never step out of
once i m living in:)
is such a cozy place

besides that
we had a great time when we were reading the bible
we were reading the story of Jesus
and discussing some interesting quests:)

after that while we were waiting for the food to be prepared
petr
a czech guy
came and asked about chinese language
and i taught him
xie xie, bu yong ke qi, ni hao ma, zai jian, ye shu, ye shu shi zhu, qing xiang yong
is so erm how to say fun? when he was trying to learn it
overall the atmosphere was good
i felt warm and happy

and the dinner began
we had:
turkey, pork, stuffed meat, spaggetti sauce with rice, chelba with butter, salad
seriously i have to tell you this
i have never tasted such nice turkey meat in centuries!!!!
the texture of the meat is sooooooo GOOD!!!!!!
the food was AWESOME and NICE
and here comes the nicest part
we had the dessert
we had this chocolate pudding and plum pudding?(cant really recall the name) served with custard and ice cream:)
gosh sooooooooooooooooooooooooo NICE
especially the chocolate pudding
i had 3 rounds of that
and pastor Gareth was amazed i think by the amt of dessert that i had :P

oh ya oh ya
i did one silly stuff
i offered my help to wash the dishes
when they were actually using dish washer
silly me :P

oh ya oh ya
we had a group photo!!!:)
a nice one!!!
i sat on the laps of Alice
poor Alice
i didnt mean to do that
but since she insisted that i should sit on her laps (:P)
so i just sat
though i feel guilty about it HEHE

it was a great night!!

oh ya oh ya
we had a SNOW war on our way to the bus stop
i m telling you
there is SO MUCH of snow at the outskirt
you can actually even build one snowman
which you can never do that in the town of prague
as all the snow has melted :)
it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny and nice
we were hitting each others
i think petr started first
and alice was the first victim
poor alice
i think everyone attacked her:P

and just now
went to junior's apartment to watch bride of chucky
is really a lame movie
and is not really scary
:P
though i did cover my face with my pillow for awhile :P
anyway it was great to watch movie together with friends
which i have not done that for ages!!!!
thanks to douglas, yee yong, sanggeeta, shing yee, terri (too bad francesca has horror movie phobia)
i had a great time!!!:)

overall
friday
it was a PERFECT day
it was full of happiness, joy, warmth and blessings!!!:)
i really enjoyed myself to the max!!!
i would say
spending time with family in chirst and friends
is really GOOD!!!!:)

i m really looking forward to have such activity for the next time!!!:)

lalalalalala

taken the officially last test for this year:)

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going to bake cookies
anticipating :)

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going to christmas market lalalalala
going to buy a REAL big lollipop!! maybe more than 1 :P
lolz cant wait to see whats the reaction of that person :P

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going to pastor's house!!:)
a good dinner together with bible study!!
perfect!!:D

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still thinking whether she should go for tomorrow christmas party or not
hurmp....
thinking thinking
well i ll see hows the baking- cookies - thingy going on first

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lalalalalala
i dunno why
cos my weekend is packed with meaningful activities (at least they are meaningful to me :P)
so i m in a good mood!!:D

i like to move it move it
she likes to move it move it
we like to move it move it
LETS MOVE IT!!!!:D

craziness!! fox rain composed by hun - yoochun :P

i m currently in love with this song!!!
there is some jazz component? in this song
a little blue kind of feeling

anyway
do you want to know the extent of my craziness for this song??
i ll straight away marry to one( of course a guy:P) who can now play this song in front of me perfectly (better still if he can sing it :P)

after biochem
i ll definitely learn how to sing this whole song
is so frustrated that i dont really know how to sing the song
especially during bath time
when it is my time to relax
and i really want to sing this song
but i couldnt cos i din know the lyrics
so
for sure
after biochem
i ll definitely learn the lyrics !:)


Fox Rain

[Micky] Jogeum pureuji ahnuen nohmoo heuri jidoh ahnuen geu moksori
neri neun geu ah poomeh pi hal oosan jocha joonbi mot hah go

[Xiah] Babo gahtah go ahjik eun cho eum eera babo gahtah go heh yo

[Hero] Duh ee sang heul reul obneun nooneh goh een noon mool duel mahn

[Max] Neh sarangeu misoh reul ahl geh heh joon shi gan sokeh suh
oh jjum geu ruh geh mahl rah geh geht ji uh jeh geu bit mool chu rum

[U-Know] Guh min han guh yuhsoh mahl han mah di dunjin geu soon gahn mah da
duh eesang heu reul soo obneun neh noon mool goh een noon mool deul mahn
gam choo go

[Xiah] Neh sarangeu misoh reul ahl geh heh joon shi gan sokeh suh
oh jjum geu ruh geh mahl rah geh geht ji uh jeh geu bit mool chu rum

[Hero] Ee roh geh jiooji mot heh gah seum mahn duh ook juh ryuh oh ji mahn
oh jjum geu roh geh gi dah ri get ji ah jik nan heu ri ni kka

[Micky] Ah jik nan heu ri ni kka

[Xiah] Mahl geun hah neul eh han bang ool nan oolgi

piano :)

i am never a fan of micky (member of tvxq) though i like tvxq
among them i like uknow and xiah the most

but not untill yesterday
when i saw him playing piano!!
fuah!!
he just melts my heart
owhhhhhhhh!!!

i can never resist to any guys who know how to play piano:P
my heart ll just melt and adore him :)
like how xiang yan's heart melted few days ago (opps i mentioned this again:P)
why so serious is a joke :P MUAHAHA

anyway
i have always wished that my future bf or husband
he ll know how to play piano
then everyday
i ll just sit in front of him
seeing him playing piano
and can u imagine when he plays
all those eye contacts that you have with him
the way how he looks at you *heart melting*
(GOSH!!is so romantic!!)
i wont feel tired even if he plays the whole day (though i know probably he will feel tired :P)

you know whats the best??
during our wedding
he ll play the piano and i ll sing (aha pls bear with my voice:P)
owhhhh is sooooooo romantic

even like just now
just looking at the video clip in which micky is playing the piano
i was smiling and felt very contented
owhhhhhh

mum's birthday celebration

so sad that i couldnt be with them
they had a great outing today
anyway
celebrating mum's birthday tru skype is a new experience to me :)

one of the classic photo that i like
dad kissed mum!! MUAHAHA
i have not seen that for ages!!

anyway once again
happy birthday mum!!!!!!!
love you always!!:)
MUAKS MUAKS MUAKS!!

is christmas time!!

feel so happy when i m listening to this song
yeah!!
christmas is coming!!!!:)
LET IT SNOW!!!!!!:)
wanting a white chritsmas :P

hrmph

hrmph
i should learn to be more gentle
and not to be so AGITATED and ANIMATED
AND
learn to have mona lisa's smile instead of having horrible laughter

yes
i have been saying this for several times
i ll try my best to do it

hrmph

God is good!!All the time!!

for the past few days
i have been complaining about the delay arrival of my parcels

and i even posted a shout out this morning saying that i m going to bomb ceska posta or post malaysia if my parcel still not arrived in prague yet (it is just a joke :P)

just now
finally i got my letter from the post office
so off i go
i walked as fast as i could to the post office

and
as the lady was searching my parcels
suddenly she says:" dva baliky"

i was like :" er..er..er dva?*nod my head and having a blur look*

and
ya the other parcel which is by ship has just arrived in prague today and they haven even managed to send me the notice yet
the one which they have mentioned in the letter has just arrived yesterday

i was like
er er er hmmm so how m i going to CARRY these 2 parcels back as they weight all together 19kg (roughly)
*you must be thinking hey you can just call your friend BUT unfortunately as i was too excited when i saw the letter i asked xiang yan to carry my bag back to our aparment and my hp is in the bag*
imagine how shock i was when i realised i couldnt make a call to any one of them
TOOT

b4 i took my parcels
the lady
i think she was worried as in how m i going to carry those 2 parcels
she gave me string to tie up my parcel so that it ll be easier for me to carry


and
you know what
ya i carried those two parcels from botanica zahrada to karlovo namesti
ON MY OWN!!!

dont ask me how i manage to do that
i dont know

and the stupiest thing is
i did not take tram
as
i refused to walk down the road as the tram stop is quite far away from the post office
(ya i know walking back to karlovo namesti is even worse but then i dont really know what i was thinking during that time)

and as i reached the karlovo namesti tram stop
struggling and patting like hell!!
giving my best innocent and helpless look to ppl who passed by me
i did look innocently to the drivers as well
hoping that either one would be kind enough to offer me help


and as i was so desperate
standing at the tram stop
thinking whether i should just wait there
as xiang yan and lee peng they ll be passing by the tram stop when they are on their way to the anat building

suddenly
"do you need my help" (in chinese)

i was so happy and when i turned back to look who is offering me her help
it was the waitress that i met at the chinese restaurant which we celebrated fran's birthday

i just couldnt describe how touch i was during that time
i kept on saying thank you to her
untill she say no need to say so many thank you :P
she helped me to carry my parcel ( i gave her the lighter one) till my aparment!! :)

God is Good!!
He knows the perfect time and the perfect moment for things to happen
He knows what is the best

i received 2 parcels at the same time
and i met this lady who helped me to carry my parcels ( i really cannot imagine how am i going to carry those 2 parcels till my aparment if it were not her who offered me her help)

So
God is Good!!
All the time!!!!

Halellujah!!

ps: MUMMY happy birthday!!

professor can be funny sometimes :P

yesterday after physio seminar
as usual
went to my locker to take my bags and coat

BUT
i somehow couldnt open my lock
it refused to let me have the correct combination of number to open it

and as i and Yaqzan were trying
this professor
Doc Eduard
he came and i told him
professor i couldnt open my lock

he says:" is okay you can always turn to the back of your locker and get your stuffs as it is not sealed."

i say :" oh really * wanted to turn the locker*"

he says :" OF COURSE NOT!! this is a joke!! *si~si~si~si~si* (with his typical laughter )"

my reaction : er..er.. er.. sweat!!

anyway
he again came and asked me
do you need help?
and after he pulled the lock for a several times and was about to find tool to break my lock
suddenly
YAY!!
i can rotate the numbers on the lock!!

i said thank you to him
and again
here comes another classic joke
he says :" this proves that i can actually rob a bank."

my reaction : er..er..er.. *smile*

anyway
professors can be very funny if they are in a good mood :)

moral of the story
DO NOT USE THE LOCK EVER AGAIN!!
it nearly gave me a heart attack yesterday!!

biochem again!!

gosh!!
i m in a DEEP SHIT!!!

i just realised
next week we ll be tested on DNA as well!!!
TOOT

i haven finished my translation, transcription and recombinant DNA thingy
and
now this!!

okay
i really have to study HARD in His name and for His glory

i do not want to disappoint Him
Yes lord!!
i ll do my best!!!
and glorify thy name!!

eating disorder

i think I HAVE DISTENDED my stomach SO MUCH
untill it get used to the amt of food that i can actually take in!!!!

today
is the day when my diet plan starts!!!!!
I DONT CARE
i need to clear my stomach
and return my stomach into normal size!:P

WHERE IS MY PARCEL!!!!
it has been 3 weeks!!!!!!!
my parcel my parcel

feel so depressed without getting my parcel!!

when i want to find someone to hide
there is no one there for me but you

when i want to share sth with someone
there is no one there to listen to me but you

when i m suffocating
there is no one there for me but you

when i have this sad feeling overwhelm me
there is no one there to clear my "dark cloud" away but you

strange feeling arise within me
i just couldnt describe it

Lord i know You understand how i feel
Lord pls give me guidance
Lord pls show me the way
in You alone
i can find peace, happiness and hope! :)

i would say this strange feeling is more towards negative side
LOLZ
i know you guys can sense that:P

and
i just feel that
i always express myself wrongly
give the wrong answer, wrong respond, wrong expression
everything is carried out in a wrong way
yes
Jack
i think is time for me to have a change
i ll try to hide into my shell again
like what you told me
i ll try to control myself
there is no need to do so
when i am actually feeling tired of doing that
worn out

revision
hasnt started yet
and
too many problems occurred to me at one time
couldnt really handle them
actually i also swt
eheh
i worry my study the most la
then this and that come to me at the same time
dunno how to react

so again
i m left alone on the stage
but
yes
i rather to be the only on the stage


再见并不难
最重要的是要学会如何微笑说再见:)
如何勇敢的面对自己的抉择
然后，潇洒地转身离开：）
是时候长大了

motivation

met a 1st year junior yesterday at menza
he is a korean
and XY asked him why he wants to become a doctor
he says:" i have always wanted to become a doctor since small. and it has never changed."
" i m a christian and i want to become a doctor missionary in the third world country to help them."
i have forgotten how exacly he told us his ambition
but this amazed me
as this is like the (erm how to say) best ambition? i have ever heard b4

i just pray that
he ll be able to fulfill his dream
to become a doctor missionary
spread the Love and help the needy and weak

there was one time
when i particularly feel like (a real strong feeeling)
that i should do sth for God
like telling good news to friends (get myself involved in evangelistic activities )
and hearing his dream or aim
i feel very contented or warm
cause
i think this somehow is my dream as well
and i met one
is like he is "helping" me to realise my dream
how blessed you ll be
if you are able to be a doctor missionary in a country which you are needed
well
i think my life ll be very contented and full of happiness and blessings if i ll become a doctor missionary

anyway
i lost my word
i just know that i m happy when i heard his ambition
i ll pray for him :)

and his ambition has somehow motivated me

and
hearing that actually there is someone out there who wants to become a doctor missionary
has once again light up my passion
cos
long long ago
i have always wanted to join WHO for an internship program or maybe be one of their staff
and then i ll be able to have the chance to walk around the world
and contribute my profession to the public

yeah
i ll make it come true (i hope i ll)
but now
have to study as hard as i can
not for the result
but for my future career

anyway
i wish you all the best!:)
keep it up!!:)

unproductive

have been doing nth for the past FOUR days!!!

wake up wake up!!!

gosh
i feel like killing myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

garhhhhhh!!!!

i m a bun!!:P

thank you Yee Yong, Douglas, Sanggeeta, Shing Yee, Francesca and Terri!!!!
special thanks to the chefs Yee Yong and Douglas!!!!

yay!yay!yay!
had the greatest dinner ever!!!!
better than what i had in any other restaurant

we have food, we have fun
and
we have wine!!:p
what more can i ask for:)

so sorry that i have disturbed you guys and delayed your study schedule
i really wish you guys all the best and will pray for each and everyone of you
so that you ll be able to strive with victory and dont get stressed out, okay??
May the force be with you:)

PS: i really dont have one okay!!!i DONT have 1 lah!!!
p-l-e-a-s-e trust me
cause if i really have 1
i ll really be frank to you guys :) dont worry:)

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i asked sanggee why i look like one who ll have a bf
she says:" cause you look bubbly and nice and etc (me blushing :P)
XY says:" huh really but why i never thought so?"
my os:" eheh neither do i :P"
but apparently
i m under the category :outgoing
er
er
er
i m not, okay
and actually i m an insulator:P

hmmm..

hmmm...
hmmm...

my parents reactions are so big

i can imagine...
hmmm...

is too early:)

limitations

i m amazed by my limitation
as i have no limitation when it comes to food!!

i seriously couldnt walk properly
and my stomach was so going to explode yesterday
after having
sushi buffet
a cup of hot chocolate
a piece of blueberry strudel (sth like that:P)
a glass of american lemonade
i cannot believe that i seriously finished my all three desserts!!!!

crazy man
this is really insane
insane la me

and now i m having stomachache
to be precise
my whole abdominal cavity
it is aching

i guess it is because
my stomach
it has expanded way too much
untill it compresses my diaphragm and my liver
and indirectly compressed my rectus abdominis muscle
i am really aching now!!

need to on diet for today and tomorrow
i ll just take in some liquid food
maybe i ll just drink milk
i have to do so
after eating abnormally for like 4 days!!!
luckily
douglas and yee yong they have postponed their cooking to 12th instead of having it today
if not
i guess
i ll have to find myself new pants!!
and clothes in the near future!!!

strictly no food for today (if i can:P)
anyway i ll make sure i ll starve myself to death for two days!!
thats for sure
cause wednesday night
is ying hoey's birthday celebration
so i can expect myself eating again:P
eheh
so so
ya a diet plan is going on for maybe 3 days :P

maybe i ll just follow what bryan did last time
1 cup of milo per day
untill i get my desire weight
ya this is not a bad idea:P

oh ya oh ya
yay!!
ezra thinks that the shirt that we bought for him is not too bad :P
but i hope the shirt is not too big for him
cause seriously after buying it
i just realised
walau eh
how come their M size also so big one!!
eh paiseh ah ezra
should have bought you S size
anyway MUAHAHA
kononnya baby blue is okay for you:P

twilight

yesterday was a day full of adventures??

anyway
yesterday
had biochem test
(a tough one)
of all the definitions
i din define absorbance!!!!!!!TOOOT!

and
my formula is TOOOT!!!

arghhhhh!!!

i m so worried
so worried

anyway
despite that
overall the day was great (i supposed)

watched twilight with lee peng
in love with robert pattison (actually i think i m in love with the character that he is acting as)
EDWARD!!!!i love you so much!!!
i dont mind if i ll have to turn into a vampire just to be with you forever!!:P

b4 i left the cinema
i double checked my seat
just to make sure
my hp did not slip out

BUT
it did!!!

er i dunno why

i was like SHIT not again!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes AGAIN!!!!

my last hp was lost when i watched ironman :P

anyway
God is good!!:)
he sent an angle to me:)

apparently
the one who picked my hp
he is a good guy
he even sms my parents (er i think he chose the first phone number which i have called)
to tell them that he is having my hp
(imagine how terrified my parents would be:P sorry papa:P)
but then
xiang yan sms him
and he says
he ll be waiting for us to come and get my hp
yes
and i got it back!:)
din really manage to give him a proper thank you
though i said thank you very much to him after getting back my hp (but i was in a rush cos i did not dare to disturb him watching movie anymore:P)
special thanks to xiang yan for his fast and quick respond in helping me to get back my hp!!:)
AND
helping me to sms the person who got my hp :)

having dinner at chinese restaurant AGAIN!!:P
lolz!!
the most important part is
i finished the whole glass of beer (0.3 l)
all on my own!!
i couldnt believe that i actually managed to finish that:P
and i did not get drunk
:P
so it seems that my alcochol dehydrogenase is sufficient to keep me not to get drunk:P
MUAHAHA
anyway
once is enough
would not like to have another beer or whatsoever
CAUSE
it does not taste good to me:)

so
a day for relaxing just ended like that


PS:
er i skipped bible study
ish
Lord
pls forgive me
i ll try my best not to skip it:)

虽然会很痛
但是
但是
我应该选择割舍

真的真的很痛

我会慢慢的习惯
我会学什么叫做距离

真得很痛
我无法想象
我是否能微笑的走开
是否能坚强的面对

我无法再负荷了
很累
很累
是时候
趁我还能有把握微笑挥手时
我选择
现在
说
再见

真得很痛
但是
会愈合的:)

死猪

死猪
死猪
死猪
死猪

累啊
累啊
累啊

决定醒来了:)

pls do not fall

yes
again i have this strange feeling

Lord
i m scared
i do not want to fall
i do not want to fall
i do not want to fall

i m scared
i m scared
i m scared

i ll do my best
Lord
pls guide my heart
pls guide me
so not i ll be on guard

yes Lord!!
i do not want to fall
have mercy on me

so
i m left to play on the stage alone

so
this is how you ll feel

and
finally i have realised
books they are really the best companions!!

they ll never disappoint you!!
not once!!

so
conclusion
study hard!!!
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i have to say
i have accepted my failure
yet
somehow sometimes
i m not ready to tell the world
but
the whats the best is
you are able to face your failure openly and are not ashamed of it!!!

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i have to say
i m in a bad mood
to be precise
my mood fluctuates
i hate the feeling that i m having it right now!!!!!!!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

tell me what you think
cause i do not what to be bothered by it!!!

perfect moment by MARTINE McCUTCHEON

PERFECT MOMENT - 17/04/1999
2 weeks at #1 - 20 weeks on chart

This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
This is what God meant
This is my perfect moment with you

I wish I could freeze this space in time
The way that I feel for you inside
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you

Tell me you love me when you leave
You're more than a shadow, that's what I believe
You take me to places I never thought I'd see
Minute by minute you're the world to me

I wish I could frame the look in your eyes
The way that I feel for you inside
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you

And if tomorrow brings a lonely day
Here and now I know I haven't lived in vain
I'll cry my tears in the rain
And if love never comes again
I can always say I've been
To paradise skies in your eyes, eyes, eyes

Tell me you love me the moment you leave
You're more than a shadow, I've got to believe
I wish I could keep you all of my life
The way that I feel for you inside

This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
This is my moment
This is my perfect moment with you
With you

wow!!i never knew that this song is sooooo OLD!!

but ya should be around that period cause i got to know this song through meteor garden OST

and i crazy about it during that time:P

anyway it still has the impact on me whenever i listen to it:)

random

part A
why is everybody going back to penang
and i m stuck in prague

part B
ever since friday
i couldnt focus on my study
i have a very bad feeling about this
cause this is what i used to be when the sem just started
GARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
stop it stop it
i should keep myself away from the laptop

part C
isit because of the weather has been getting colder and colder recently
which caused my appetite to become bigger
or it is just merely that i want to chew sth??

part D
worried worried
my eyes cant really fixed on the books!!!

part E
again!!
i m jealous those who are now in penang for their sem break

part F
i m looking forward for tomorrow
(but only partly)

my niece getting her passport

actually every month
my cousin
she ll be sending sunita's photo (my niece's name) to us
showing us her progression :)
and
i feel
hmmmm
dunno how to say
is amazing to see how a baby grows
and i m even more amazed to see
that in every picture
she never fail to SMILE!! :)

we sometimes
have to force to smile when coming to photo shooting
but
she as a baby
nobody teaches her to smile
yet
she ll put a smile on her face naturally when it comes to photo shooting
(well you might say maybe her parents are trying to do some funny stuffs in front of her to make her smile)

YET
the reason for baby to smile is so simple!:)

anyway
i have dragged the topic too far away

what i wanted to say is
i particularly like the expression of hers on the first photo
is sooooo CHARMING!!!!!

Love, Hope and FAITH:)

i have this key chain
and on it
it says

"patience with others is love,
patience with self is hope,
patience with God is faith"

i bought it in penang b4 i came back to prague

when i chose this key chain
i m attracted to those sentences
though i din actually understand them well

but just now
as i read them again
suddenly
Lord opens my eyes
and touches my heart

yes
if you can bear with your own mistakes and still give yourself a chance to adjust yourself
still believe in yourself
that is HOPE!:)
cause you do not give up yourself

if you still continue to believe in Christ and praising Him even tough you have a hard time or whatsoever
even you have doubts in your life
that is FAITH!:)
the degree of trusting in God shows how strong your faith is in Him!

even if you have found out
sometimes
the world is not as cute as you think is it
ppl are not as nice as you think they should
yet
you do not give up in trusting them
that is LOVE!:)

hmmm..
i almost stumble and fall for today
falling in Devil's temptation
almost started to question God

and as i woke up from my so called nap :P
and i had a look at my key chain
suddenly
i have hope
i have love
the most important is
i have FAITH!!!

AGAIN:P

sometimes
when you feel you are not good enough
do not give up your hope to becoming a better person

sometimes
when you can feel the presence of God
do not give up in trusting Him

sometimes
when you feel that you feel disappointed to the ppl around you (though right now i do not feel that way)
do not feel sad or angry (any negative feelings) on them
give them time
or even try to accept them :)


yes Lord!!

i ll learn to trust You more and more!
i ll learn to trust myself and push myself harder as i believe that i still have the potential to improve myself :)

巨蟹座

保护自己是巨蟹座的本能。他很少会一下子让你了解他太多，他很少会把自己的情绪或感情赤裸的表白。他本能的保护着自的脆弱多情的心，你要给他很多安全感。大多数的巨蟹男子都很害羞，很害怕自己被拒绝。就算他在追求你的时侯，他也尽量做到好象不是在追求你的样子。



天啊！！
我已经是绝缘体了
巨蟹座竟然还跟我有得比！！:P

请原谅我
我真的、真的不知道我在想什么。

我刚刚googled 巨蟹座的一切（我本人不是很相信星座）
因为我不了解他。

但是，
我读完后
天啊！
跟我预测的大概很准！
看来我看人及解读人还蛮准的嘛:D

lalalala
musim studovat
ale
jsem vesela
proc?
protoze...hehehe
hmmmm nevim proc jsem vesela

疯了，疯了 （a weird title for a song:P)

七六五四三二一
倒数一句我爱你
我的世界因为你
而开始透明

就让我沉沉睡去
从此不想你的名
越到夜里你的笑容
就越清晰

疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了
你应该知道

卓文萱 - 疯了疯了

一二三四五六七
追我的人很多滴
我的世界因为你
而全面封闭

多说一句我爱你
又不会要你的命
想要生气
却不敢随便生气

疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了
你一定都知道

疯了疯了 睡不着
你的笑有多美妙
我的世界请你
紧紧抓牢

你的爱到底多少
我也不知道
你应该明了

你一定都知道

couldnt concentrate on my study WHICH I SHOULD!!!!!!!!
yes part of the lyrics somehow reflects how i feel now
especially this part
疯了疯了 睡不着
我的心噗通的跳
我的世界因你
全部颠倒

醒着睡着都在笑
爱情戒不掉
你应该明了
你应该知道

haha i sendiri also swt at myself
cos actually i dunno why i take that as a positive sign:P

i just pray that
i ll be able to see things clearly
and make sure the mistakes that i have done in the past (last year) wont occur again
as it really gives me a nightmare

i tend to lost myself
and lost control
and become blind
this time
i shall learn how to control it:P

still

i feel sorrow
somehow

yeah is like a scar
is a mark over there

and
it somehow prevents me to move on

anyway
the mark is there
as a reminder
i should always remember how it has caused me to feel the pinch
yet
not to be bothered by it

is a difficult task
but
Lord has His own plan :)

weird

shouldnt be over reacted

what i m scared now is
the more i gained
the more scared i m
i scared that i ll loose them in any moment

books
somehow they are our good companions
at least
they dont run away from you
unless you run away from them (that would be your fault:P)

so stay calm:)

i have grown up!!:)

well
throughout this whole week
i have been experiencing God's love:)
He has shown me His love and mercy on me
He has taught me how to see through things
He has adjusted my attitude towards life
He has somehow transformed me into a new me:)

I just want to give thanks!!!
I just want to Praise Him!!!

now i have peace in me
is so strange
is a feeling that i never had b4:)
is true that God is prince of peace and God is love!!!:)

Thank you Lord!

I ll continue to strive and work more harder
Halellujah Praise the Lord!!!

and now i truly understand what i m so into this song
title: Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman
- - -
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

to be frank
all this while in my life
i have never been once (shame to say)
fully understand and appreciate what the lyrics of the hymn is all about
i just sing because of the melody is nice
but now
i like this song
because it reflects how i feel and what i have been through!:)
Yes Lord!!

You give and take away
my heart ll choose to say
Blessed be Your name!!!!!:D





my facebook status says
Praise the Lord!! Blessed be Your name
and one of my friend
Phillip he asked me why
when i was trying to explain why
i couldnt find a suitable sentence
as He is indescribable!!

actually
i just couldnt believe that
i have grown up (spiritually and mentally)

Lord really has His own plan
a good one!:)
He knows what is the correct time
cause if few years ago
if i m in what i m now
i ll surely stumble and fall
but not now

as
i learn to trust Him more and more!!!:)

Blessed be Your name!!!:)

了解它，摸索它然后爱上它！！！！！

了解它，摸索它然后爱上它！！！！！
advised by the teacher in the movie I Not Stupid 1

gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously
my mind is refused to even read the sentence properly when it comes to biochem!!!!

i seriously DONT LIKE biochem

depressed depressed!!!!

i woke up at 3 sth am
started my day with biochem
after SO MANY HRS!!!!!!!!
still i haven even finished with the enzymes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cannot
cannot
i love biochem
cos
biochem is interesting
biochem is so fun
biochem is sooooo cute
how can you hate biochem??


i ll try to learn
learn to like or even fall in love with biochem in the shortest time!!!!

from excited state to stable state:P

starting from yesterday
i have been in excited state
NO NO NO!!!
i should stop it
return to a stable compound!!!

need to study study and STUDY!!!

oh ya oh ya
i have just bought physiology coloring book!!!YAY!!need to buy real good color pencils !!
feel quite excited!!i actually want to color them!!!

and
i have been having curry mee as my dinner for THREE days!!!!
with prawns and fish
WALAO prawns leh
high in cholesterol
hmmm..maybe i should drink 2 cans of beer to reduce my cholesterol level:P
anyway STRICTLY no CURRY in ONE month
getting sore throat now:P

okay
musim studovat!:P
cau!:)

o pek gong 2

gua ng nya si eh
bo eng gai ga yi lang gong
an neh kuan
mia zai
guo boi ga yi explain gun be sai liao lah
aiyo
an zuo eh a ne
guo ying gai di am di am
ga gi zi le lang zai tiok ho liao
an zua boi ga yi lang gong
an zua eh a neh
but then hor
guo gam ga
yi d ia tiok u kua email eh
tak kan yi bo kua
ngin wei
guo da ma check liao
yi ga na u sa zhap go leh peng you
so yi leh
bo ko leng yi bo kua eh
aiya
pun teh leh
boi xia dua di yi eh wall eh
mana eh zai
guo gong cut lai liao
be liao lo

men kin
men kin

bo an zua eh lah
an neh kuan nya ma:P

just now during genetics
b4 the test
i was going around
telling mohan, sean, shrujan, lee peng and pok
telling them
about
DORAEMOn
about the hero thingy
mohan is the funniest
he says
:" oh ya he sure DOES have the hero's look!!"
LOLZ

okay in case you dunno who is doraemon
go GOOGLE him!!!
the all time favourite anime character!!:)
this is how He looks like


Did you know?

Doraemon has recently been
voted by the Time Magazine as
one of the Asian Heroes, in
recognition for his consistent
effort in helping Nobita

taken from here

Praise the Lord!!YES!!

as i opened the email
tan - 8/10
koh -9/10

i just couldnt hold it to myself
i ran to her room
knocked at her door
and i showed her such post:" you are the WOMAN!!!:P"

yes!!!
we were so happy
i m happy !!!!

Praise the Lord!!!
i dunno what else can i say
besides praising Him!!Give thanks to Him!!!

Yes Lord!!!
i ll study as hard as i can
and
DO THE BEST!!!

i ll leave physio and genetics' result into Thy hands!:)
May them glorify Your name!!:)


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part 2:

天啊！！！
他问我！！！
他问我！！！
他问我！！！
啊！！！！！
为何我刚刚会不在！！！
啊！！！！
啊！！！！！！

嗯, 好啦
不要太花痴
可能他只是对基督徒类似这样的话题好奇
所以他才问我

但是！！！
啊！！！！
啊！！！！
为什么！！！
为什么！！！！！
为什么！！！！！

要不要跟他解释
要不要
要不要
要不要
！！！！！
啊！！！！！

gentle vs soft spoken

tram stop
me:" what la!......(forgotten what i said actually)
ezra:" eh speak softer la..lower down ur voice.
me:" (lowering down my voice) eh~

on the way to church
me:" even i dont interested in Blah blah blah
ezra:" eh try to be more soft spoken lah
me:" (trying to do so) e~v~e~n ...
ezra:" HAHA eh i asked you to be more soft spoken but not asking you to talk so gentle okay?"
me:" to me they are almost the same

okay
i have to admit
i seriously couldnt control the way how i speak, my over -reacted body language
when i talk (especially when i m in excited mode)
those who know me
should know that ever since secondary school
i m the one who always( well maybe not always) come up with stupid and idiot body language, stupid quote, and NOT TO MENTION my ANIMATED and pat chi expression
for example
for my highschool mates
do you guys still remember the "yun dong yun dong" action (gosh thats soooo...er stupid)
or
i stab you with the stupid action (couldnt remember whats the action)
or
the fainted expression

my Ktt apartmentmates
i think they know the most
i laughed like a chicken which is going to be beheaded soon (laugh histericallly-if you dont understand how a chicken sounds when it is going to die soon:P)
i sometimes will call them by the name that i give them with "horrible" intonation
i ll speak like a cartoon character or even sing using that voice (which EHEM annoy esther the most:P)
i ll suddenly gone wild and be very excited for no reason


so
is hard for me to change
to have smaller reaction
to lower my voice
not when i m in excited mode:P

i m who i m
so
MUAHAHA
not going to change:P
well maybe i will when i m too old to even speak or laugh:P

worried!!

just when i was doing my pH calculation from the faculty website
i feel sooooo depressed!!!
TOOT!!TOOT!!
they are some REAL difficult questions!!
i gave up halfway as i felt too miserable to finish all 17 questions!
i stopped at quest 10 cause when i scrolled down
TOOOOOOOT!!
more difficult questions!!

and
they some how
reminded me how bad my biochem is
reminded how i answered my last biochem test
thinking of them
i m sinking!!

i DO NOT look forward on tuesday!!
i just DONT!!!
i feel scared

since when
study is never sufficient for me to answer the questions
not in my past 11 years

medicine is hard
REAL hard
you have to put in more than 100% effort
yet sometimes they are just not sufficient

medicine
is not a field where you can just study
without digging more info on ur own
without squeezing your brain
haih
depressed
having them in your brain is one thing
digesting them is another thing
depressed!!

i dont really like biochem (especially organic part and physical part in term of calculation when we are taught how to calculate them!!)
i like physio
(but just thinking of the test i have taken..i can say i like physio but this does not really help me much cause after taking the test i feel like i should study more!!TOOT!!!to be frank i studied quite in detail for this test - or actually i think i have covered everything for the test.)

Lord,
pls forgive me for the wasted time
Lord,
have mercy on me
i ll really try my best and study as hard as i can
i have learned the lesson (which i have it at the very beginning)
so
Have mercy on me
i ll do my best
for the two tests that i have taken
i leave them in Thy hands
i pray that
what they are ll glorify Your name!:)
for the coming test
pls equip me with wisdom, understanding and a brain with big capacity
and
most important
is to handle the time that You have given to me wisely!

ARGHHHHH!!
depressed and worried!

enjoy ur diet doesnt mean they are low in calories :/

enjoy ur diet!!
this is what crocodile company says
and i thought the calories should be around 300-400kCal
which is the amt of energy that we should have for 1 portion
but when i got back and checked the calories
i couldnt believe it
9.54kj X 230g / 4.2 = 552kCal!!!

i am stunned!!!
is just a bagety
yet it has so much energy in it compared to a proper meal (well at least to me the calories for this bagety is way too much!!)

i have learned my lesson
i ll never have a bagety
i would rather eat ice cream which probably has the same amt of calories as a bagety has


say no to bagety!!

o pek gong

gua gam ka guo dia tiok boi xia lok lai

ji gui jit
gua diam diam xio tiok lu
guo kak yi lu
guo zai ji le xi bu ko leng eh
ta pi guo still xio tiok guo lang eh bi lai
a neh gi guai eh
guo xia ji le xi
bu a neh xio lu
an zua eh a ne kuan

bun lai
guo gam ka lu gun si kak yi guo
dan si xio xio ji ye
da bai guo eh prediction or sixth sense diam diam eum tiok
ngin wei when guo kak yi ji le lang
guo eh interprete he le lang eh reaction and response as eh pun kak yi guo
haih
yi yiar eh lah
yi bo kak yi guo
ngin wei
eh ga guo gong gui eh ua
eh long zong be gi ki
ga nya guo eh gi
okay lor
suak liao lo
dan xi
xio tiok zi leh
guo still eh gam ka sad eh ma
an zua gong
gun xiu shi lian la


men kin men kin
guo boi teng lang
ka beh u a neh ze eh bo xiang

go zai gong
guo ju zai lu
guo ju bo su ka lu
an zua lu boi an ne kuan
ta pi an neh kuan kun hor

LOLZ
i wonder will i understand all those things that i have written when i read them back few weeks later:P

纪念 by蔡健雅

纪念歌词-蔡健雅(Tsai, Chien Ya Tanya)
想念变成一条线
在时间里面蔓延
长得可以把世界切成了两个面
他在春天那一边
你的秋天刚落叶 刚落叶
如果从此不见面
让你凭记忆想念
本来这段爱情可以记得很完美
他的样子已改变
有新伴侣的气味 的气味
那一瞬间 你终于发现
那曾深爱过的人 (嗯)~~
早在告别的那天
已消失在这个世界
也许那一次见面
是生命给你机会
了解爱只是人所渴望的投射面
只是渴望会改变
他的爱已经不见 已不见
那一瞬间 你终于发现
那曾深爱过的人 (嗯)~~
早在告别的那天
已消失在这个世界
那一瞬间 你终于发现
心中的爱和思念
都只是属于自己 曾经拥有过

曾经拥有过 曾经拥有过 的纪念

i did go for shopping:P

am i trying to release stress?
thats why i go for shopping?

this morning woke up at 7am
while i was having my breakfast
i listen to 纪念by 蔡健雅
and out of sudden
i feel like having a walk
BUT
i ended up shopping at novy smichov:P

i was searching searching for ANOTHER winter jacket!!!
so i searched and searched and searched
and finally i found one
and i have been trying to same coat for more than 40 mins:P
cause i wanted to buy another sweater so that i can wear it with my jacket
thus
i searched for a suitable sweater
mix and match
and the other reason for that is
i couldnt decide what size i should go for
34 or 38
cause 34 is ngam ngam
couldnt wear a real thick sweater in it
38 would be too over-sized
so i went in and out from the fitting room
so i tried and tried and tried
compared and compared
at last
i decided to get myself the 34 one

BUT

the story has not ended yet
i still feel like buying a sweater
so i went to terrinova
searched and searched
and ta dah
i found one
a gray sport's jacket
(i chose gray as i have too many pink or red shirts AND all my jackets they are in RED!!!)
mind you it took me like 30 mins?? to find the right sweater:P

i dunno why i went for shopping???
i dunno why i bought those two jackers
nah
i dont really want to know the reason:P

haih
time is running out
i seriously have to study!!!

ciau!!

唉

我知道
我有点想得太远
我知道
我很喜欢口是心非
我知道
我太过敏感
我知道 我知道

我不能控制我的口是心非
我不能控制我的白日梦
我不能控制我的过敏
我不能 我不能

现实与童话
毕竟还是有一段距离
虽然是场自制的可能
但是
想到这虚幻的可能
如果发生
它依然还是得跟现实妥协
差距太大

突然
心跌到谷底
不会的
这一切都是虚幻
我
太过敏了：）

is weekend!!!!!

i would not say that i have a tough time for this week in term of doing my revision
cause most of the time (especially during the night) i ll be sleeping
but had 2 tests which are tricky
Lord
i ll leave the worries to You
part of me know that i would have done it better
yet
Lord
pls ease my worries
i ll try not to think about them
well hopefully the adaptation system is working:P--- too much worried ll turn into no worries!!!LOLZ cause no new info is being trasmitted:P
(adaptation means that if you are having the same stimulus for a long time your nerve would not recognise them as a new info like what it did at the beginning which means there wont be any effect on your body --er sth like that)
i ll continue to strive and work harder:)
Lord
i just pray that my result can glorify Your name!!

so
friday
(which has just ended 2 hrs ago)
i pampered myself
to have a short break

after the biochem test
went out with friends at pizza colloseum
had a nice dinner though my pasta is not fully cooked which has made my stomach started to protest..stomach was aching just now

and YES!!!i DID manage to go to bible study!!!
at one time
the temptation was so high and i almost fell into it
but Thank God
He kept me away from the temptation
YAY!!YAY!!YAY!!!
feel so happy as i finally attend bible study
:) :) :) :)
keep it up!!!!

watched bond's movie after attending bible study
i would not say that it is a nice movie
anyway
at least i watched a movie:P
lolz is better than nth

hmmm
am thinking
should i go for a shopping on sat
cause i suddenly have the urge to spend some of my money on buying stuffs like new clothes
( but but but i have told myself not to do any shopping as in buying new clothes:P)
well i ll see how
if tomorrow i m not lazy then maybe i ll go for shopping:P
window shopping MUAHAHA

and i have just realised
i m over reacted and over animated
and these do not reflect that i m actually a 20 years old girl
hmmm
i should change
to become more quiet and more decent and nice in my action, expression, reaction etc
(song supplier i know what you are thinking right now)

is 213am
time to sleep

anyway
1 last sentence
AJA AJA fighting!!!
study study study!!
result
leave it aside!!
:) :) :)

nah
cau!!:)

pozor!!!

as i was floating for the past few days
suddenly i got this msg (somehow)
is like there is a voice telling me
dont be pig headed!!!
dont float too much!!!
and suddenly i got so scared
so
study study study!!!!
be calm and stay on the ground

anyway
just got my parcel today (mind you i shipped it on 17th of sept)
and less than 2 months
it is here!!!
hooray!!!
i would say they arrive just in time!:)
God is good!!!

yesterday night
had such a weird dream
in my dream
my ex-smsmate (i know this sounds weird but i dunno how to define him:P) appeared
is kind of weird:P
as i have not contacted him for like 3 years
and suddenly he is in my dream
in my dream
it just helped me to convey the msg that i wanted to tell him long time ago:)
is like an explaination
weird weird weird
but it was a good dream tough:P

nah
musim studovat
tak
cau!!:)

ill and sick

still feeling not good lah
having sore throat
having nose block
having flu
having cough
head feels dizzy
whole body aching
difficulty in breathing (now is okay but not yesterday i was suffocating for yesterday)
good thing that i dont have headache
now i suspect that i m having a slight fever cause my body feels warm!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

yesterday din study much
cause i kept on resting AKA SLEEPING!!!!!
gosh!!!
next week physio and biochem
but i haven even finished studying half of the syllabus that is going to be tested in the test!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

why suddenly fall sick at such time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good news to those kaki botol:P

yesterday physiology lecture
prof kittnar he was talking about HDL and LDL
and he came across this term
france paradox
saying that french ppl they drink so much of wine
yet they are healthy and the risk of having arteriosclerosis is lower
then
he said we can estimate the risk by the L curve
this is the L curve graph
a.c stands for alcohol consumption
m stands for mortality
and here from the graph
we can deduce that 2units of alcoholic drink/ day is good for health
so
what does this mean
means
2 beers/day
2 small cups of whisky/day
2 glasses of red wine/day
then one of the students asked
if we din drink for like 5 days
then we ended up drinking 10 beers or so in a day to make up the loss
it this applicable for the L curve??
prof. kittnar laughed and the answer is No!!:P
he says we have to drink alcohol consistently
only this ll help to reduce the risk of having arteriosclerosis

so
lets have party and get DRUNK!!!!
opps..we are allowed to have 2 units/day
*blek*

my first flu in prague for 2nd year

out of sudden
i caught a cold for no reason
well maybe this is because i was having sore throat for the past 3 days
and i did not take good care of it:P

anyway
am feeling much better now after take a LONG good rest
slept from 7 pm till 12am!!!! (haih)
feel sad though as now is really critical period as in i seriously need to do my revision
two big tests are coming!!!!

at here
i would like to say thank you to lee peng and xiang yan
1stly, (ceh like a speech pulak:P)
thank you for helping me to change my money into czech crowns
2nd,
thank you for the offer to help me to prepare my dinner

really appreciate that!!!
thank you so much!!!
very very much!!!
dekuju moc!!!!!
jsem vesela že mam dobre kamaradky!:)

aja aja fighting!!!
fight like a warrior for His sake and for His glory!:)

ps: haih again was not able to attend bible study
today's topic was a good one :)
no more missing and skipping!!
Forgive me Lord

pps: oh ya oh ya i have got my picture dictionary (it looks weird though and it is weird cause i din realise is actually a story book --kind of is with pictures and en-cz explaination for certain words in it. aiks i was blur and dizzy while i was choosing which one to buy)

ppps: have changed my phone line from vodofone to O2

random 2

so just now
waiting to enter the room
philip asks:" so tell me the all the amino acids' names and their stuctural formula."
shrujan says:" i have just memorised the 1st 13 yesterday night."
and here they go listing out the names and formula

i was there
staring at them
couldnt figured out anything
i cant even searched anything which would have helped me to answer the question
the least i can give are all those names which have jumbled up

next week
biochem and physio
yet
i m not prepared at all!!!!

so what m i doing now??
go back to the books LAH
gosh!!
what are you doing?

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kgopolelo was asking me the meaning of my name
hmmm
that was an interesting quest
cause seriously
i feel weird to split out my name word by word
and seriously i feel funny when i am trying to explain the meaning of my name
as supposedly my name should have the other meaning instead of what i have now
so here it goes
妍 (yeng): pretty (i feel shy when i say that to others:P)
彤(tong): red (which i feel like HUH??)
and
supposedly if my grandpa he did not insist my mum to follow the family tradition (stuffs like that)
my name is like this
彦 （yeng): smart
彤（tong) : red
i still dont get why my parents they want me to be in red:P

for like 5 - 6 years
not b4 i started my primary school
my name is written like this
陈彦彤

yeah my name has such story (a long story:D)
oh ya oh ya
with the diff yeng
my name pronounced differently
if it is 彦彤 it sounds like yan4 tong2
if it is 妍彤 （which is my name right now) it sounds like yan2 tong2
and there is such a confusion
as to ppl dont really know how to pronounce my name
like my senior
she called me yan1 tong2
like my class teacher
yan4 tong2 (not to mention that she is actually my chinese teacher)

okay
enough for that；）

cau
musim studovat!

微妙的氛围

so as just now
you looked through my eyes
i can see the unspoken changes
risen within you

i can feel the changes
i can sense the difference
(i hope these are not my hallucination)

as i look at you
i smiled
can you hear my whispers?
i would not forget the way how you look at me
it is special to me:)

微妙的氛围
the best conclusion that i can make

Praise the Lord!

tuesday
took the wrong test for biochem
to solve this problem
we have to sit for another test on wednesday
tuesday afternoon
genetics results
a frightening experience
the teacher was actually calling those names who have failed the test
i was counting and counting
and my name is not in the list
i said
Thank God, My Lord!!

today took the biochem test
it was tough and i was stunned
cause i didnt study those
which was a good lesson for me
i have to study more and harder
anyway just got my result
7/10
not so bad:)
way to go!!!!
have to get a better result for my next test!!!

though weekend is not here yet
but i can conclude
what i have been through this week
it itself is a testimony to others!!
and a testimony to myself as well!!

the message is so clear
study hard and study in details
do your best and leave the rest to God!!

Yes Lord!!!
i ll do my best and study HARDER!!!!!
For Your sake and for Your Glory!!!!:)

random

my school has started for 1 month plus
what do i think?
so far so good
as the timetable is not as pack as i thought it is
but
nowadays
especially the "incident" that i had
my mentality is not stable (i m not saying that i m crazy)
is just that
my mood ll change in a sec
i ll feel sad for no reason
i ll feel confused out of sudden
i ll lost my direction and started to question myself why am i here
i ll be thinking what am i doing
and these are happening to me more and more often
starting last wed
i have been questioning myself
i have been trying to convince myself that everything is okay
God is looking after me
and
thats the point which i have diff kind of mood at diff time
cause i m trying to adjust myself
few hrs ago
when i just found out that my works are piled up
and i have to sort them out
i feel like escaping
i dont want to face it
since when i become so weak?
somehow
i hope i can have a mental breakdown
just to make me feel better
at times
i hope i can grab on someone
this is when my desperate state comes
i need shoulders which are wide and warm

eagle wings
this song perfectly describe how i feel right now
i want to feel His presence
which nowadays
i cant really feel Him
which makes me even worse
i am scared that He ll just leave me here
yet
on one side
i know that He ll always be my fortress and my rock!

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chocolate martini
my first alcoholic drink
which turns out to be a disaster
i can really make a conclusion
I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND why there would be so many of them like ALCOHOL!!
they just dont taste nice!!!

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a Mar was not there lah
so no castle can be built in the air

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i have somehow
figured out how to fix my sleeping prob (well hope it ll work)

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i dont looking forward for this coming tuesday
can we just omit that day?

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is time to get back to my books:)

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another dream
is going to be kept in the inner part of my memories
i m just going to leave it in a place
which i couldnt find it

er..

here again..
acting like a 白痴 for the whole day !!
biochem haven revised yet
physio lab is still hanging in the air
genetics here we go haven started
harper's not even 1 page!!
what the TOOOOOOT!!!

oh ya anyway there was 1 meaningful event took place yesterday
which was
i had my first strike in prague!!!
this is the first strike that i have in my entire life!!!
LOLZ
i have never had a strike b4 when i bowl!!!
MUAHAHA
anyway yesterday NIGHT was not very fun
not untill our last round
when suddenly ismail became so excited and "heated" the atmosphere up
and there i went yelling like a crazy women!!!!
that was the most fun part of all the events that i have participated

and
yesterday due to boredom
i played basketball while the game's going on
and i found out that i can become a good side shooter if i train myself
cause you see
i can shoot it accurately if it is from the side (almost every single shot)
and i defend quite well when i played with my friend yesterday with azhar (muahaha i think i defended the ball quite well:P)
nah
even though i found out that i might be good in basketball
yet..
er..
他们太过恐怖了！！ 我不想受伤！！！

biochem

i just dunno why
i just dont understand
my brain is refused to function when it comes to this sub
or to be precised
when it comes to reaction in organic chem
maybe having it postponed to tuesday isnt a good idea!!!
but God has His plan
maybe He thinks i should study more on it

but but
i seriously hate this feeling
the uncertainty when i m revising my chem
is like my mind ll wander whenever i touch this topic!!!!!!!
hate it hate it!!

this weekend
is packed
with my so not going to finish revisions and iGames!!!
harper's is yet to be FLIPPED through,
physio block test is yet to be revised
genetics (final is on jan Yet i started nth!!)
physio basic is yet to be revised
organic chem (test on tues) is on the way to be finished
biochem (test on the 7th week) should started years ago but i dunno what m i doing

seriously
no Utube ever since the sem started
then what m i doing??
i should really hide my laptop
unusual sleeping habit
i guess is all because of that!!!

concentration
concentration
focus focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really hate this feeling
when i have so much to do
and i dont know where to start
my mentality is not stable so to say!!

how how
yesterday is wasted!!!!

hate it hate it!!
hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God pls show me the way!:)

我恋爱了:)

天空 是晴朗的
梦想 燃烧着快乐
相信 我和你 是最酷的
汗水 痛快流着
勇气 让爱闪亮着
勇敢 不怕累
直到我们 都笑了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
天空 是晴朗的
梦想 燃烧着快乐
相信 我和你 是最酷的
汗水 痛快流着
勇气 让爱闪亮着
勇敢 不怕累
直到我们 都笑了
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
你一定很爱我的
我要你给我一个紧紧的拥抱
手牵着心就暖和了
你一个微笑 我就知道了 都笑了
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得
我喜欢你开始脸红了
我爱上你傻傻听我的
我幻想你世界都疯了
下一秒 我唱我的歌
我喜欢你疯狂的想着
我爱上你自在的快乐
我幻想你永远是我的
我要的 我爱的 多难得

opps..
i know i know
you must be amused by the title of this post
but too bad
is the title for the song above:(
haha

my only love (japanese drama)

bryan:"yer!!i thought in the photo there are 2 girls inside!"
lee peng:" i thought both of them they are girls"
aruna:" he is prettier than the girl!"
xiang yan:" i ll watch this drama not because of this guy but because of the girl'
bryan again:" i ll consider watching this drama IF this drama is talking about lesbian"
i say:" kan dia kacak" (asking nabi)
nabi:"......"
i say:" okay la dia nampak macam perempuan saya tahu tapi dia nice looking kan?"
nabi:" ....hah ya"
ezra:" wah why so sissy wan"

i know i know
he looks like a girl
but then hor
he is not that bad lah
:P
anyway got this drama from AMELIA!!!
yay she likes him too!:)

thanks AME!!!:)
i ll help you to keep this drama :P
so no need to return it to you right?:P

loves all the songs that he played!!!

whenever i listen to all those songs that are played by him
how i wish that i can meet him in person
and seeing him playing piano in front of me!!

too bad
this cant be realised!!:(

anyway
loves all the songs that he played!!!!!!!!:D

he also tried to compose a few songs
and the one that i love most is I believe:)

postponed

okay
my chem exam is postponed to tuesday!
whee
more time to study!!:)

i believe

i have been a spoilt teenager who is going to be an adult in a year for these past few days!

i still remembered how i promised God after the challenge He has put me in
i still remembered how determined i am

now i m very scared
seriously
i m very scared

there is this unspoken feeling deep down in my heart
it has started to bud and grow
i m really a spoilt child (or whatever you want me to be)
i do not trust myself anymore
those promises that i have made
those determinations

i feel moody
i feel like i m being caged by myself
actually i look down on me

i m scared

this melody
tells how i feel now
tells you my feeling right now

the title is I believe

yes
i should believe in God
but i started to question myself
do i deserve to being able to believe in God
when what i have done has totally disappointed Him

these few days
this thought keep on occurring in my mind
what can we do for God
what has caused us to qualified for God to forgive us
cause
we always ask for forgiveness after we have sinned
is like
this is a cycle which ll never end
we sin then we ask God to forgive
we disappoint God
then we ask Him to trust us again
He loves us and He choose to forgive us
what we have done to deserve His unlimited Love!!

His love is so great untill i cannot imagine
untill i couldnt believe that He actually loves us that much
i feel sad
as in
what have i paid Him back in return for His love?
nth but sin
nth but pleading
yes!!
really nth!!

and
can you imagine how "thick" is my face is
though i have sinned and disappointed Him
yet
i m still asking for His forgiveness
i m still asking for His mercy upon me

and now
i get fed up on myself
how selfish i m!!

i m scared Lord!
i know
again i m asking for your mercy
but You are my rock and stone
You are my fortress
for You ll forever be there
open your hands widely
welcoming us!
no one but You
can i trust and cast my burden and hope on You

so Lord
i just pray that
may Your mercy be upon me!

I believe in Jesus Chirst the Son of God!
yes I believe!!
this song is moody
this song represent how i feel on my own as in how much i have hurt God!
this song shows how scared i m now!

God!
i m scared
i want to stay underneath Your wings!!

网上。文采

幸福方程式：
一顆敢夢的心＋兩倍的努力＋三倍的行動
就能成就百分之的幸福和成功

朋 友 ， 是 你 高 興 時 想 跟 他 分 享 的 ，
朋 友 ， 是 你 不 高 興 時 可 以 給 你 發 脾 氣 的 ，
朋 友 ， 也 是 在 你 沒 錢 開 飯 時 打 救 你 的 ，
朋 友 ， 你 悶 得 發 荒 時 可 以 跟 你 一 同 發 荒 的 ，
朋 友 ， 會 甘 願 給 功 課 你 抄 ， 跟 你 一 同 出 貓 一 同 被 人 罰 的 ，
朋 友 ， 也 是 你 買 手 信 時 ， 想 買 一 份 大 的 給 他 的，
朋 友 ， 也 是 你 看 見 他 上 線 時 ， 想 給 他 ' 喔 噢 ' ！

想 要 體 會 「 一 年 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 失 敗 重 修 的 學 生 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 月 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 不 幸 早 產 的 母 親 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 週 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 定 期 週 刊 的 編 輯 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 小 時 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 對 等 待 相 聚 的 戀 人 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 分 鐘 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 錯 過 火 車 的 旅 人 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 秒 鐘 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 死 裡 逃 生 的 幸 運 兒 。
想 要 體 會 「 一 毫 秒 」 有 多 少 價 值 ， 你 可 以 去 問 一 個 錯 失 金 牌 的 運 動 員 。

朋 友 就 是 無 形 中 伴 你 走 過 風 雨 ， 永 遠 支 持 你 的 力 量
朋 友 就 是 一 種 無 法 言 喻 的 美 好 感 覺
朋 友 就 是 在 別 人 面 前 永 遠 護 著 你 的 那 個 人
朋 友 就 是 即 使 是 一 點 小 感 動 ， 一 點 小 事 情 都 想 一 起 分 享
朋 友 就 是 當 你 抱 頭 痛 哭 的 時 候 ， 扶 著 你 肩 膀 的 那 個 人
朋 友 就 是 當 你 面 對 人 生 挫 折 時 ， 一 直 緊 握 你 的 那 雙 手

精华：
喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚....

喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你....

喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你....

喜歡在你身邊....因為你是我快樂的唯一因素 ...

how i wish..

this guys is sooooooooooooooooooo cool!!!
i love all the songs that he plays!!!!
he plays by ear
how cool is that as in he play by ear yet he can play all the songs SO WELL!!!!!!!

how i wish i have(i do not ask more) just half of his talent
that would be good enough:)

PS: in all his posted video, i have never been able to see his face from the front (but just the side view i can tell he is not bad looking:P) because he wears specs!!!!BUT (a big gasp) in this video that i have posted in this entry, i can really tell how he looks like!:P HE IS COOL!!!!!!!!so COOL! and he wears specs!!that typo which i like:P!!(the COOLEST part is the last part when he finished playing the whole song he angguk? his kepala!!!that part is real COOL!!!for that very moment walau eh really tak boleh tahan but to admire him:P)
aiya, how i wish...(EHEM you guys know what i meant la:P)
then hor can everyday ask him to play for me MUAHAHA

conclusion: HE IS REALLY COOL for both (cool for he has the talent and cool for the way how he carries himself)

one half day wasted:'(

yesterday
i
wasted one whole day on crapping, on wondering
my mind just couldnt have peace
thounsands of thoughts
they came and went away tru my brains
i dunno why
and i behaved like a radioactive compound rather than a stable yet ignited carbon compound
words (gamma ray) came out from my mouth without thinking twice
in a simple world
i was in excited state yesterday for no reason
but luckily
i minimized this dangerous effect to only 1 person (i hope)

anyway
i was in an excited state untill i felt tired and found myself on my bed at 9pm yesterday!!!
yes!
i slept again at such lovely time!!
WOOTS!!!
no no no no no
more biochem yet to be learned
more genetics yet to be revised
more physio yet to be understood
more czech yet to be studied (my czech is in a devastated state which i seriously need to learn it well= not to the extent that i couldnt understand a simple basic sentence like uvidime pozitři ==>dont understand this word)

nah
am wasting my time again!!
say no to LAPTOP!!!
in front of it
i ll tend to touch it and loiter in the cyber world!! (WOOTS!!!)

okie
i m pretty sure that i m back to stable state (my e- they are far apart thats why:P)

have to make sure they do not come close together(muahaha)

čau čau!!

Ja musim studovat
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inspired by xiangyan(edited:P)

双子座的女性:
这是一个富有异国情调和魅力的女性。思想境界开阔，内心充满着美好的幻想，你的情感犹如一部优美的随想曲。
你聪明伶利，有些神经质。内心总是闪耀着美好、欢乐、幸福、爱情和理想的火花。你希望自己永远置身在无忧无虑的乐园中，喜欢用紧张的工作，频繁的活动来驱 散自己的烦恼。很容易唤起别人的倾慕心，但你的感情并非垂手可得。一句话就可能触动你的心弦，一点小事也会使你扬长而去。如果有人能很好地掌握你的性格特 点，预测你的反应，那么不难使你倾心相与。
双子座的女性理智很强，善于运筹错综复杂的形势并能在关键时刻作出自己正确的抉择。你期待美好的爱情所带来的欢乐。一般说，双子座的女性会有丰富的爱情生活，尤其是当金星在双子座的时候。 (no this does not apply to me!:P)
这一座的女性不喜欢平淡无味的家庭生活。你希望生活的内容丰富多采，千变万化：经常出去散步、郊游或旅行，开阔一下眼界，换换生活环境，结识些新的朋友和 陶冶一下性情，这些是你生活中不可缺少的一部分，也是你保持高昂情绪的基础。你开朗的性格会感染周围的人。过度的勤奋、劳累或烦恼，常会使你疲惫不堪，力 不从心。
射手座的男性会给你的生活带来新的气息。你们之间建立起来的家庭将是充实的、自由的和浪漫的。经常会有亲朋好友的光顾。
与天秤座的男性结合，有助于你艺术才能的发挥，或者进入高层次的社会生活。
如果与水瓶座的男性结合，你的生活内容会发生质的变化。你将经常出入知识界，结识学者和名人。
女性―性格活泼直率，多数给人像男孩子的感觉。和她在一起，更多的感觉是一个好朋友，要想谈及爱情，又总不好开口。当她接触爱情时，会以充足的时间来权衡利弊得失，最后才以巧妙的方式回答你。和她在一起，欢乐总是伴随你。(guys!!so..you ll be happy always if you choose me ROFL)
双子星座的个别现象
1)05.21
易受感动,理想主义,友善,仁慈.为了自己的利益,有过份大方的倾向.要学习辨别真假.愿意为共同的利益而工作,因此颇受同僚和伙伴的欢迎.喜欢作水路旅行,可能因长途海上旅行,而建立有利的商业关系和成功的婚姻.

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　有很多的朋友，可是“看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个”这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会 聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比 如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的 了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。
　　
　　 对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自 己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。
　　
　　 双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的， 他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西.
　　一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。
　　
　　 双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双 子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲 哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
　　我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其 实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一 刻就把这件事给忘了；
　　
　　 要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时 你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的“朋友”关系其实，很 大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生 有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多 快乐。
　　
　　 每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困， 动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时 候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天 亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤 独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。
　　
　　 双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切 do consider this:P)，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自 己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装， 很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

i m inspired by xiang yan after reading his blog
though the reason why i post this entry might diff from him
(ehem..i think he is trying to tell "cetain" person about "sth":P)

anyway PLS TAKE NOTE ON THOSE SENTENCES THAT I HAVE high lighted !

ps:waiting am waiting!:) (song supplier yes i m pek cek now:P dunno why after listening to SHE's songs i feel very pek cek on waiting:P)

pps: i have to admit the add on is so cun!!!!:P